Memories of the Past (original) (raw)

Title: Memories of the Past
Fandom: HSJ, Ya-Ya-yah
Pairing(s): Yabu x Shoon
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, fluff, friendship?
Summary: Yabu misses everything that happened in the past.
Warning: unbeta-ed ! Disclaimer: I own the plot and there’s some sentences that belong to my friends
Note: I wrote this after emo-ing from yesterday’s post.

Shoon rubbed his sleepy eyes, yawning. He turned his head to the night stand and looked at the clock. It’s 12.30 pm. He slept around 3 am last night due to his college assignment and waiting for his younger lover to go home but it seems he fell asleep.

‘It’s lunch time. I hope Kou’s home already since we got to meet Hikaru and Taiyou at 2..” he thought as he got up from the bed and heading to the kitchen. As he walked, he heard sounds of children voices. And.. Koyama’s voice? He reached the living room and saw his boyfriend, sitting on the floor with knees hugged tight to his chest. There’s a laptop on top the coffee table. Yabu is watching an old clip of Ya-Ya-yah TV show.

Shoon approached his lover and sit next to him. He put his arms around Yabu’s shoulder and the younger immediately laid his head on Shoon’s chest.

“You know, Naoya and Hoshino mailed me the other day, congratulated me for JUMP’s first album.”

“That’s great!! Oh and I met Asaka yesterday. He said he’s quiet active as stage play actor. Isn’t that great? He said he sometimes visit Kamei at the Juvenile detention. He’s doing great, by the way. I hope he’ll be released soon because Asaka said his behavior was great and...” the older keep babbling; smiling all along. Yabu just sat there, snuggling closer to Shoon’s warmth.

“Kou? Are you even listening to me?” Shoon pouted as he pushed Yabu gently to see his face. He widens his big eyes when he sees Yabu’s tears fell uncontrollable.

“Kou? What’s wrong? Why are you crying?” the college boy wiped his lover’s tears using his thumb and kissing his wet eyes. “Are you hurt anywhere?” and Shoon frowned when Yabu only shook his head weakly as an answer.

“I don’t like this at all. I wanna go back to those times where we could laugh together..” Yabu starts to sobs loudly and grabbed the hem of Shoon’s pajamas.

“Kou, what are you talking about? We could still laugh together. Taiyou comes visit us one in a while, I got to hang out with JUMP members once in a while, and sometimes Macchan invite us whenever his band is going to perform!”

“That’s not it! I want the old us! I want to see Daiki and Asaka goofing around, putting pranks on Kei and Yuya. I want to see Taiyou babysitting Morimoto Brothers. I want to see Kamei try to take a picture of Macchan with a skirt. I want to see little Yuto and Yama-chan singing and dancing around shamelessly along the Jimusho’s corridor. I want Naoya to tackle me and Hosino will come, with Hikaru on his shoulder, begging to be put down. And I want you to be the older brother who will keep things straight and save us from Manager-san’s wrath.” Yabu is now hugging Shoon tightly, hiding his face on the crook of Shoon’s neck.

Sighing, Shoon put one of his hands on the back of Yabu’s knees and one on his back. He stands up carefully, picking up the taller boy bridal style.

“Oh lord, please remind me to feed this lover of mine everyday with some rice and meat, not water.” Shoon mumbled and bring his lover to their bedroom. He laid Yabu down on the bed and climbed up next to him. Yabu wrapped his hands back on Shoon’s waist and put his head on the elder’s chest.

“Okay, listen to me. I know it’s hard to move on. Hell, I cried so hard when Taiyou left us without saying anything. And—“

“Then you understand what I’m feeling right now! I just hate this freakin’ album! We talked about our own album ever since we were 12! And now suddenly we have this first album without you and Taiyou!” Yabu looked at him straight in the eye with his wet eyes.

“Yes, but you should happy about this, this—“

“Why should I?”

“God, Kou, please stop cutting my lines!”

“Fine! Talk.” the younger man frowns.

“Good. Listen, you can’t keep bragging this up. You always cry over something that related to the past. It’s time to move on, Kou.” Shoon brought his left hand to caressing boney but smooth cheek.

“Are you telling me that I should forget?” Yabu put a hand above Shoon’s and leaned forward to the touch.

“No, I’m telling you to see what will happen in front of your eyes. Past, is something we did and we won’t be able to change it no matter how we tried. But honey, those past contains memories. You certainly never wanting to forget those wonderful memories, do you?” Shoon smiled when the other shook his head with frown still attached to his face.

“They choose their path. They quit the jimusho to chase their own dream.I quit the jimusho to chase my own dream. No one owns me, no one to tell me what to do and not to do. So even though I'm sad, I'm constantly reminding myself to be happy for them, for having the courage to pursue what they feel is their real dream.

Everyone wishes that nothing would change and it be the way it was. They are still in the process of chasing their dreams. They still have a lot ahead of them. And so do you.” With the last words, Yabu lifted his head up, eyes watering again.

Shoon smiled and tuck strains of hair behind his boyfriend’s ear. “So you -we- should continue and support them. Even though they're not in the jimusho anymore, we should still cheer them on, no matter what they choose to do with their lives. All we got to do is smile, and look forward. And sometimes when you missed something, you could always look back.” He kisses Yabu’s forehead, down to his nose, and finally reaching his pouty lips. A sweet kiss, without any tongue involved.

When they pulled apart, Shoon mirroring the smile that attached on Yabu’s face. “There must be a reason for things to happen right?” said the younger man. Shoon nodded.

“It’s ok to feel sad and it's okay to feel emotional once in awhile. The change has happened and there probably isn’t much we can do.” Shoon pulled the younger’s head back to his chest and kiss the top of his hair, inhaling Yabu’s scent that has been familiar for the past 7 years.

“Sometimes, we just can't forget the past. So keep it. As a cherishable memory.” Yabu smiled at his lover’s words and closed his eyes.

“I never regret for loving you. It’s one of my best memories I have. Thank you, Mayo.”

“For what?”

“For loving me and for letting me to love you.”

The couple closed their eyes with each other’s warmth as their blanket, oblivious to two of their friends that stood in front of their bedroom door, eavesdropping with smile attached to their faces. Taiyou and Hikaru decided to leave the couple alone and will wait until they remember for their lunch meeting.

“Fear not for the future, weep not for the past”

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A/N: I personally presented this to Kil-chan, Luna, Eri and Alice.