Speaking of self-fulfilling prophecies (original) (raw)

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So, my schedule for the coming semester is shaping up to be pretty hectic. I'll be taking two work-intensive courses in other departments, Stats and Linguistic Anthropology: 6 hours of lecture a week. I'll be teaching a recitation section of Language (essentially Ling 101): 2.5 hours of lecture a week, an hour of recitation, and two hours of office time. And of course, I'll be writing my first major qualifying paper (QP), which involves designing an experiment, obtaining suitable recordings for said experiment, recruiting subjects to take part, getting IRB approval, collecting the data, analyzing the data, and of course writing. I do not actually expect to finish this in one semester; it is very likely that I'll be spending my summer on this QP, assuming I can somehow fund myself.

Oh, there's also the possibility that I'll be auditing a phonology seminar. That means another 3 hours of lecture a week, plus reading.

The thing is, I have partially brought this burden upon myself. I was semi-warned about teaching twice in one year, and while trying to write a QP. Nonetheless, when another grad student had to drop her commitment to teach the Language section, I leapt upon it. In partial justification, I said to myself and others that the class I TAed last semester wasn't very work-intensive--no teaching, just admin and occasional grading--and also that "I do better when I keep busy."

While both of these things are true, I secretly suspect that they are not the real reason I rush to add more obligations to my plate. I suspect the truth is that I deliberately take on a lot, probably more than I should, so that I have a legitimate reason when I start to feel like I can't handle it all. Because, in fact, I feel that way even when I don't have a lot to do (witness last semester). At least this way, my reasoning goes, I'll be keeping legitimately busy so that the amount of stress I feel won't be out of proportion.

Hmm.

ETA: Oh yeah, I forgot the part where I also continue to be the departmental webmaster. While that probably doesn't add more than an hour or two to my work week, on average, it does mean that I have to be prepared to pretty much drop everything to take care of assorted tasks whenever faculty members e-mail me about them.