I've got the Twenty-First century breathing down my neck (original) (raw)

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work was sooo slow tonight. i mean, i think a total of about nine people came in. but, its a thursday night, so i suppose that is to be expected.

savy and heath and scott came to visit me though! that was wonderful. ive missed my bff. it seems like our class and work schedules are perfectly coordinated to where we cant see each other, and it is really starting to wear on me. i feel like all i do is school, work, and sleep. but not in any normal order. i go to school in the mornings (usually) and then i sleep until i have to go to work and then i am up all night NOT doing my homework and wanted to do something like hang out with my friends but, wait! its 3am! so no one is awake.

so, in short, i dont have much of a life at the moment. but, surprisingly, im pretty happy. i mean, i lovelovelove my job. i get to work with amazing people and spend the day talking to guests and dressing people up and whatnot. if only i could see savy more...

the summer spoiled me so much this year. and god, it was a great summer...savanna and i became inseparatable and i fell in love with her. alex and i became closer and i met heath and i got to go to honduras and see my son and i spent my days lounging around end of the line and going to subterranean and watching lots of great movies with people i love and had no worries on my mind. i met so many other great people as well. DJ and Jon gave us some pretty fun nights and MattNelson provided some many laughs and Eric from East Hill bonded with Sav and I (or rather, we forced the bonding upon him because we came in every day, but still).

i dont know, i just feel like i had such a wonderful, laid back summer and the only problems were decided what movie to watch or what we should stencil or where to photoshoot or what house we were going to party at that night.

now though, school has started and all of the sudden, nothing but complete apathy has taken over me. ive missed every single one of my classes at least once, and one of them twice. i havent really had much control over that though.

if you didnt know, which really i dont think any one really does, my dog died yesterday morning. its been really hard to adjust to him not pouncing on me and licking my face or having him roll over completely on his back, legs completely spread open wanting me to rub his tummy. ive cried quite a good bit over the past 72 hours. i miss him. i really do. some people dont understand the bonds that can be achieved with your pet. it seems like if i was to call into work to say my dog died, they would somewhat reluctantly say okay but expect me to be in tomorrow. however if i was to say that my brother died, they would give me as much time off as i wanted. but, to me, there isnt really a difference. i mean, that dog was a part of this family just as much as my brother or myself is. i miss him. i miss burying my face in his neck and feeling him rest his head upon my shoulder. or when he would lay out and let me use his tummy as a pillow and we would nap together. i could go on and on, but chances are, most people wouldnt understand and in their head wonder why it is that i am so upset. i mean, its only a dog... and just to set the record straight, if anyone does actually say that to me, ill light you on fire.

im just thowing that out there.

im not used to writing such long entries. nor am i used to writing in semi-paragraph form. but whatev. most of it is just my own personal ramblings. and that is all that matters.

im done now. but before i go, here is a picture of my beautiful dog, ben.

i love you, puppy. so goddamned much.

so now that i have thoroughly depressed myself, im going to go to bed.
goodnight, comrads.