1001 Hugs (original) (raw)
I absolutely cannot believe the attitude of my homeroom. First off today, my teacher (ms. c) gathers us around her and tells us that she has had a spat between one of my other teachers(ms. o). Apparently, Ms. O accused the Ms.C of threatening her. I have no idea what happened there. Then, Ms. C asks us to go crazy in Ms. O's class. I cannot believe that. Seriously! I refused to be part of this conspiracy, because if the whole world fought fire with fire and conspiracy, then the world would be engulfed in flame. And sadly, some kids absolutely leapt at the chance to destroy Ms. O's classroom. Of course I don't deserve to get in trouble. I don't deserve to be yelled at. All I do is sleep, eat, use my phone and do absolutely none of the work this woman assigns me. I shouldn't have to have my phone taken away. I instead deserve to be rewarded by our homeroom for wrecking Ms.O's classroom. I don't care about all the hard work she put into decorating it.
And then I tried to make Ms.C see sense by saying that this wasn't a good idea since our State Test is next week. Then Ms. C told me that it's all about controlling the class, that our class does it all the time to her. Well, obviously Ms. O won't have as much experience, since Ms. C has taught for 16 years and Ms. O is only on her second year of teaching. Ms O actually cried, and Ms. C actually didn't care. Look, you can't change someone and you can't teach them unless they themselves have the least bit of will. That's what I thought once she told me about the controlling the class thing.
Ms. C took me outside of the classroom and told me that she had read my speech and it made her want to cry. She also said that she was just mad back there and that she would never want to hurt me or the students or another teacher on purpose. And I just thought, " Isn't that what you're doing right now?"
And so I thought.
And I realized that every speech, every dang speech my homeroom has ever made about integrity and having some honor and leaving all your spats to the streets, every single one was a big, fat, hypocritical lie.
I was on no one's side at first, until Ms. C added the immature revenge factor. Is she trying to get Ms.O fired? Or that Ms. O will ask for help and Ms. C gets the pleasure of turning it down? Aren't adults supposed to be good role models? Couldn't Ms. C just talk to Ms. O or something? I am now on Ms. O's side. I hope that she stays at this school because I seriously need her. And if she leaves, than I am happy for her and I hope that she finds a better crowd than students and teachers conspiring against her.
I can never respect Ms. C the same way again.