Beauty is bone deep (original) (raw)

need help	[Nov. 10th, 2005|09:19 am]Poetry, support, friendship
[**mood** |cold]i've been out of the circle for a while now, trying to eat what resembles normal for my bf. But in 2 months i'm supposed to be in the miss motor sport 2006 pagent to represent the company i work for. I'm currently about 5'6 and 125, which is about 25lbs over what i want to be. I need to slim down a bit for the pagent, and for me. I've grown more and more disgusted with myself since trying to eat normally again.(i've thrown towels over the mirrors in my house... i can't look at myself anymore... I bought some dexatrim max and vitamins this morning, but i need to know if anything new came out since i left to try and join "normal" people. I also was wondering if anyone has tried the whole colon cleanse thing. I've heard it does wonders....but i dont know anyone who's tried it. any info would really be apprecated(how ever u spell it!lololol)
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(no subject)	[Oct. 17th, 2004|12:53 pm]Poetry, support, friendship
Well there's a new community for all those EdLovers.to_the_bonesDon't hate us for controlling ourselves.Hate us because you wish you could.
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My weekend...	[Jul. 19th, 2004|12:26 pm]Poetry, support, friendship
[**mood** |cranky]Saturday I slacked off a bit - exercised maybe 1000 cals, but ate a snack of cereal (152 cals) in the evening so felt less than pure, put it that way. I've been playing a game with my man in the evenings, so we've been going to bed really late, and it's either submit to the munchies a little or flat out black out. I just can't afford to do that. Not with him here anyway. So I ate and felt bad. Then yesterday was perfection, I at 300, burned 1000 plus walked alot and spent most of the day cleaning and moving about, so not sure how much total burned. It was great. This morning had 400 cals to kick start me though, then need a super lite meal and to burn at least 1200. Bleurgh. Numbers in my head all the time.I made my first template for someone called Billina. I'll post up the url to her site once it's up. If you want one let me know via http://ana-angels.2ya.com. Existing site owners please join the clique :)My child is being a pain. I don't know if other mothers find it, but the happiness and temperament of my child has alot to do with how good/bad a day I have. It can swing both ways as well, which is odd. Does anyone else get this?I have a question - what is the best appetite suppressant you have ever used, natural or otherwise. Stacker makes me buzz like mad but it can sometimes leave me feeling hungry. I can ignore it but it'd be nice to have something to take with it so I didn't have to worry about it. Someone suggested taking Trim Spa but it's not available in the UK unless you pay quite a bit - unless you know of a cheap UK dealer in which case please let me know :)Hope you all had a good weekend. ( The Angels BitCollapse )
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Hey...	[Jul. 9th, 2004|08:50 pm]Poetry, support, friendship
[mood** |depressed] [music**	The Stills - Lola stars and stripes]I'm new here. So I think I'll introduce myself.I'm Sophie, and I live in the UK.For ages I have been at war with my body. I hate it. I was really proud when I went from 9 stone (Yer, I know, I was a real fatty!) to 8 stone (still fat) But I'm still not happy. My thighs are huge. My belly's huge. Everything about me, is so, ugly.At the moment I'm on my third day of fasting. I'm doing ok. I'm just worried about sunday, when I have to sit around the table for sunday dinner. What do I do? Do I puke it up? Is there any way I can make myself be sick (without really eating anything and then making myself sick) so it looks as if I'm ill? Please help. Don't let my stupid, overprotective, overreactive, interferring mother ruin this for me.
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confused	[Jul. 6th, 2004|02:25 pm]Poetry, support, friendship
[**mood** |hopeful]i started reading some of the entries for moral support i guess...and i found it...i don't really know how to use this and i don't really know anyone but maybe you guys could help me out...i'm 20 from nj and i was hoping to meet some people who understand how being skinney is the only thing in the world that can truely make me happy~
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Hmmmmm.....	[Jul. 2nd, 2004|09:39 am]Poetry, support, friendship
AAmbitiousNNeatAAccurate-AArtyNNaturalGGlamorousEExcitingLLightSSappyName Acronym GeneratorFrom Go-Quiz.comHad a strange couple of days. Always eat a bit when I'm ill because I just feel like I have ZERO energy and therefore need a little bit to keep me going. Hard to stomach when you are used to black coffee, and then a little dinner once a day about 7pm, but hey, apart from the fat gut and the fear and self loathing, it was fine [/sarcasm].The worst bit about being ill is exercise. I find it so hard, whereas normally I need it more than anything else. Still got my fat arse on my bike and pedalled away but you know what it's like - unless you do your normal target, or better when you exceed it, then it's not good enough. That little voice talls you that you're a stupid lazy selfish cow for worrying about fainting in front of your family if you'd gone on, and how you should have burned that other 150 cals away anyway - especially as you ate in the day. Small flapjack and some rice cakes. Fuck me, I feel revolted at the mere thought of it.( Want me to link you? Click hereCollapse )
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My Virtual Model & Angels	[Jun. 30th, 2004|11:02 am]Poetry, support, friendship
Please check out My Virtual Model @ mvm.com and make a version of yourself. Then get a screenshot, and send it to us or crop it and host it yourself so it's like mine which will open up full size if you click the thumbnail. Jesus even my virtual self is fat..... **( BLEURGH - read me if you wanna join inCollapse )**Please post up your own :)
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