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Friday, March 18, 2005

7:35PM - Hell, I feel so fuckin' vulnerable for once.

So many things have happened today. A detective arrived looking for Liz and talked with her. It wasn't pleasant. Some guy brought in a young woman who was attacked by a demon. Two more people arrive an hour later, from one of those mysterious portals (And they have tails, so strange). This Kuja person left the cafeteria and has been gone for a while.

Rinoa, I still haven't seen you lately. What's going on? Are you okay? I'd like to see you sometime, to just talk or whatever.

[sighs] And now Paine's backpack is missing. It's hell. It's complete, total hell. I'm only one damn person, and I can't do everything!

Whatever. I'll be here in my dorm for a bit, and then I might pay a visit to the library. Rinoa might be there, I'm not sure. I just can't think too clearly, so I need some peace right now. If not, I'll lose my cool.

Current mood: stressed

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Wednesday, December 1, 2004

11:04PM

...Liz, if you're reading this, forgive me. I'm really sorry for how I acted towards you.

There were a few screw ups today. A group of five Estharians went against my orders and decided to act hostile. One tried to attack Liz, but ended up having a broken wrist.

I took Quistis, Sophia, Liz, Cloud, and Paine (they just came along to help them. A couple of online friends to Sophia and Liz) towards the Deling Hospital to see Seifer. Currently, he's not in good condition. He's been stabbed pretty badly, and is bandaged around the chest and back. I know Seifer, so he'll make a speedy recovery.

Quite a lot was going on. This Validus character had been beaten up, and Quistis tried to attack him. She's falling ill, and I wonder why... I don't know what's really going on, but Liz told me before that she did some sort of magic to save the others from those Estharian idiots. I didn't believe her until Quistis and I had a little "talk." It wasn't a very good one.

Well, I just called Laguna up and told him to suspend those who went against me. Even the sorry bastard with the broken wrist, and he deserved it.

Liz tried to retaliate back at me, because I wouldn't let her leave by herself back to her apartment, due to knowing about what's been going on with her. It's best to have company than keep it bottled to yourself to wallow in depression.

I'm such a mental mess right now, and I'm tired. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...

Current mood: depressed

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

5:48PM - Just checked Liz's journal

I didn't look into her privacy. That was just foolish of me to do the last time.

2:32PM - Quistis...

I hope you are safe, wherever you are. I'm sure you must have noticed Liz that day in Esthar. If you find her, bring her to me.

...Will someone tell me what the hell's going on? Yesterday, Rinoa and I went over to see Liz in the Deling City hotel to discover that she was not there. We only found out from the man at the desk that she left to "help her friends from afar", and that the rest was classified information. Something's going on. I'll have to check her journal, but must respect her privacy this time. I don't wish for her to be pissed at me again like the last time.

I'm also still worried about Sophia and Seifer. I haven't heard from them in a long while. I hope they're still alive and safe.

Estharian troops are now on the move to look for Liz, Sophia, Quistis, and Seifer. I called Laguna and let him know about this. It's a big world, and I could use all the help I can get.

Zell, Selphie, and Irvine are currently staying at the hotel in Deling City. I just came back from visiting them. They've been a little tense about everything so far. Zell's pissed off, especially. He, like me, doesn't like to be left out on a limb, clueless as to what's going on.

Irvine was there to comfort Selphie. She's been a little scared lately. I helped him while I was over there. Now I'm back home, trying to keep my cool. Rinoa's probably worried sick about me too.

[sighs] Hopefully the search party's all over the place by now. It shouldn't be too long until I can know what is going on...

Current mood: gloomy

Monday, November 29, 2004

10:45AM

Back in Deling, with a couple of pain reliever pills for my throbbing head.

Before I left, I was helping out Laguna a bit on how these livejournals work. [sigh] I couldn't do much because he forgot his damn password!

Just checked on Liz's comment. Can't be bothered to look in her journal to see what's up. Sophia's safe, I hope. I've received information from Liz that she's alive and well at least. No one knows where she really is. I'll have to chat with her in person soon. At least I will be going up to meet with her at the hotel. Rinoa might want to come along. I think she would...

Almost forgot... Quistis. She ran off without telling anyone. Why? I don't know. [sighs in aggravation] Quistis, I know you haven't been at your best, but this isn't really a good time to act this way. IM me, reply to this entry, or email me as soon as you read this.

That's it for now. I'm going to take my pain relievers and relax a little before heading off.

Current mood: damn headache...

Saturday, November 27, 2004

10:38PM - Currently staying with Laguna for the night

Going to Deling City with the rest of the gang, because I know Rinoa's worried sick about her. The others seem that way too. Maybe from there, we could all work together to make sure Seifer and Sophia are found. Including Liz. I know she cares about them.

I'm not gonna take her with us, but she could notify us online if she hears from any of them.

I just read her latest entry. On the train to Esthar, she was pretty sad about the death of her mom. She really promises us that her father is responsible. She seems very ashamed to have him for a father. I don't blame her at all. She has my full support on kicking his ass.

I'm going to read her reply. She's probably not happy with me right now...

Current mood: concerned

Friday, November 26, 2004

11:50AM

I'm at Zell's computer, in his room. He's bitchin' at me to get off. But I just have to put down that I'll meet up with Quistis at Balamb Hotel. She's surprisingly a minute or so walk away.

Room 105, Room 105, just to remind myself what room.

Have to go now.

Current mood: rushed

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

10:03PM

Seifer contacted me on AIM. Just heard that Sophia's missing. Well, Balamb Garden is pretty big. Maybe Sophia's busy or something.

And I'm still not happy on Seifer breaking his promise. I didn't really want to chat to him on AIM. I didn't feel patient with him at all either. So I was being the old bastard version of myself...

I'm sure Sophia's fine...

...That's all I feel like putting down, I guess.

Current mood: irritated

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

12:45PM - ...

Rinoa and I are back at Balamb Garden now. Quistis recently told me about the failure of meeting up with Seifer in Timber. [groan] I guess some people never, ever change.

So yeah, I'm not happy about that at all.

Well, the rest of the orphanage gang were so glad to see me. I didn't have time to wrap up Irvine's gifts, and since it's almost his 20th birthday, I thought "Oh what the hell," and gave him what I bought: A country music CD that I'm surprised to know he doesn't have (that was lucky) and a nice black guitar pick for his acoustic. He enjoyed them very much. Good, I'm glad.

Well, I'm gonna go. Or else I'll just sulk here.

Current mood: ...Whatever

Monday, November 22, 2004

1:34PM - Irvine's birthday...

Can't forget that. Today, in between packing up my things, and some of Rinoa's things, I'll get him something.

I was distracted earlier by all this stuff about Seifer (insert his ego here) that I almost forgot...

Well, I'm going back to packing up my things in a little bit. I just had to write this down when it was still on my mind.

Current mood: busy

8:03AM - Just called the head of the Deling City Bank.

Because of last night's AIM chat with Seifer, I had to cancel that job I applied for. Seifer may not be much of a friend, but he sort of is... And that's more important.

Rinoa and I don't leave today, but tomorrow. Seifer mentioned he has to "think about it" for today, while he's in Timber with Quistis. [sighs] I hope he just goes with her. If it's true that a couple of men are hunting him down, there really is no time to waste.

We should all meet up in Balamb Garden by tomorrow. That includes Zell, who'll be heading back over there anyway. It's Monday...

I may not work today, but Rinoa might. If Quistis is on AIM, I'll give her the heads up.

Current mood: awake

Sunday, November 21, 2004

11:35PM - Whew...

After a long, long AIM chat with Seifer, I managed to calm him down. It's not a full garauntee, but I've reached him pretty good. I'm mentally exhausted from so much patience...

Quistis, you don't have to worry about finding Seifer. He'll meet up with you in Timber.

...Or at least I assume so.

Seifer, you'd better keep your word if you wish for you and Sophia to be safe.

Current mood: relieved

8:23AM - A lot on our minds... Mostly about Seifer.

I've been given some time to post about the job interview I had yesterday. Up at the bank.

The manager was a nice man. He looked to be in mid 40's on the age scale. Looked like he could use a pair of sharp eyes like mine. For this, I promised him that I could pinpoint the suspicious out of a crowd, so my duty will be to guard at the front doors. I get my own chair, cup of coffee, anything that I need.

I start work on Monday. I can be patient on that, despite the boredom I've had in the past couple of days.

Last night, Rinoa tried out her internet connection on the other computer she bought the other day. A little bit nicer than the one I'm typing on.

Sophia was on AIM for the first time, so we chatted to her to see if she knew anything on Seifer. She didn't. We don't know anything really...

( Available for Quistis and Rinoa to view besides me. Private to everyone else.Collapse )

Today, Rinoa and I will visit Edea. I'm not sure why, but maybe we'll recieve some answers. I must go now. We're going out for breakfast. Perhaps a well cooked pancake breakfast will lift my spirits up a little.

Current mood: annoyed

Friday, November 19, 2004

9:13PM

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Quistis and I both feel pretty suspicious about Seifer. Where could he be? Maybe what I thought at first, in Balamb, fishing with Rajin and Fujin. I don't know. I wish her the best of luck on her investigation.

I hope someone's on AIM. If not, I'll just find something else to do. Whatever.

Current mood: worried

9:17AM - Zell, Rinoa, and Irvine are getting journals now.

I've checked my email just now... I guess Rinoa was at work at the time she sent me that email? [sighs] Being unemployed sucks...

It's good to know I'll be in touch with all my friends. ...And I thought Selphie would get a journal in a heartbeat. She seems a little sluggish. C'mon Selphie, I know you. [grin]

I have to go. Rinoa's awake, and I have to talk to her.

Current mood: happy

Thursday, November 18, 2004

9:48AM

So I hear that Seifer has left Balamb Garden, again. I forgot to mention about this yesterday. It must have slipped my mind until I discussed this with Rinoa before the movie came on.

She seems worried about him. I don't, because I know Seifer can take care of himself.

...I always seem to be up before Rinoa. It's weird...

I have to ask her why she sometimes stays up so late. I only go to bed by 11 or 11:30 pm usually. I wouldn't dare disturb Rinoa right now. She looks so peaceful when she sleeps.

And Quistis? Rinoa says "hi" back and that she misses you.

Current mood: concerned

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

7:01PM

I took a survey...

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Rinoa's watching TV... The last part of Category 6: Day of Destruction is on tonight. Interesting, eye candy special effects. I kinda like it. It's better than the other shit that's on TV.

Still bored... I don't see Quistis on AIM... I'll surf elsewhere on the net and post my results here. :-/ That or just browse in general until the rest of the movie comes on.

Current mood: bored

11:15AM

Before I step in the shower, I must put down that I got a surprise hello on AIM from Quistis. We chatted for a little while, about on bad memories, how things were at Balamb Garden, etc.

Congratulations Quistis. I'm sure you'll train the new students well, like how you've taught me all you've known.

Now I'd better take that shower now before Rinoa wakes up. She takes a little longer than I do. She stayed up awfully late. I don't know why...

Current mood: content

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