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I feel like I want to die when I think about it. I feel like I wish the world would just fall down around me. When I think about my biggest secret, I want everything to be gone.

I can relate. Things get so suffocating...

Love.

I have been dishonest in some of my relationships. I think it's nobody else's business, but I know I have to keep it to myself because it would destroy all my credibility and my moral superiority.

My biggest secrets are all to do with my fiance and things that happened in his life before I met him. I've told my best friend, and a few of my other friends know because they heard it from him, and that's fine - they are people I would trust with my life. If my parents or my sister or a few other people found out about it, though...I would die. They would do their best to prevent us from seeing each other again, and they would be horrified. It sounds silly, but it is a big deal to me. They can't know his past. I ought to tell them, just to be honest..but I never will. They would kill me for not telling them sooner.

My biggest secret is that I constantly lie, about anything really. Sometimes I feel really guilty about it and I have the strongest urge to run out and tell everyone that I'm a filthy liar, but I know that if I did come clean I wouldn't have any friends left.

It tears me up inside but I just can't stop doing it. To make matters worse I have to keep making up new lies to validate the old ones.

Long story short; when I think about my secret it makes me feel like the worst in the world, not to mention completely worthless.

I think maybe you could feel better by slowly offering up one of your secrets. It could be a secret penance you have for yourself to relieve the guilt of all those lies.

I know how tough it is. Good luck to you, be strong.

that i think sage_grouse is a loser. seriously.

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I really hate postsecret now, and I especially hate the mods. Yes, I now how cliche it is not to like a mod, but they just really irritate me - and I manage not to hate any of the mods of my other communities.

This isn't a secret obviously, but I just really wish that this place would take off - I really think it has the potential, maybe just not enough people know about it... Saying that, there's like 56 members of the community so I don't know what they're doing.

It would be nice if this community took off, I agree. Pretty much right after I posted this question postsecret did an ANYTHING, so I think everyone is preoccupied with that. Or they just didn't like the question. Either way, seems like it's a bit of a waste of time now...

I had sex with a girl who's leaving for college again in a few weeks. We sort of made the decision to just have fun with this and not be jealous, but I'm realizing I'm not that type of person. I really miss her now and I wonder if she's mad at me? I wish she would talk to me. I wish I didn't like her. It gnaws at me.

Chances are she feels the same way. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be and all that sort of a thing...

My biggest secret is the one I keep from the person I love more than anything and more than life itself. I think she's not in love with me anymore. At least, not the love we promised each other. I think she takes pleasure in other things and there are other things more important that are upcoming. She doesn't have time for all the feelings she used to feel for me. She's not really in love with me anymore. I don't even know if she values me as much of a friend, since she's away from me so much and sees her other friends more than she sees me.

I feel sick to my stomach whenever I think this over. I've felt sick to my stomach the past few weeks, because it's gotten more and more apparent to me. And I'm so tired of crying over this. If anything comes of this, I don't know what I'll do. Life would be over. That's all I know.

Not much of a gasp-shock-awe secret, but there ya go. :p

I hate the chick that posted below you. Every post in _postsecret_ or anythingpost generates hatred in some way. She's WAY too old to be in LJ, especially things like these and she's a fucking hypocrite anyway. she has a kid but she's gay but she's a Christian . . . what the fuck?

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I find peace by using by own blood to paint intricate designs on my flesh. Why, god?

When I was with my first boyfriend (at age 19... late bloomer), I was terrified of having sex. Every time we made out, he'd try to take my pants off, and I'd always freak out and stop him.

Finally he asked why I was so reluctant to go any further with him. And instead of telling the truth, that sexual stuff was new to me and I didn't know what to do, I lied. I lied BIG TIME. I made up an elaborate story about having an ex-boyfriend who stalked me, sexually abused me, and tried to rape me. I even pretended to cry as I talked about it. Not a damn word of it was true, but my boyfriend believed me.

And it didn't end there. For the next few months, my boyfriend tried to help me "heal my emotional wounds" and kept asking for more details about the abusive relationship. And so I made the story more and more elaborate. He eventually urged me to go see a therapist and join a support group... so I lied again, and told him I did.

My boyfriend was wonderful and respectful and we got along so well, but eventually, I couldn't stand being in a relationship so full of lies. It was tearing me apart.

Instead of admitting I had lied, I broke up with him. My reason? "I got a letter from my abusive ex today... it brought up all these emotions... and I just don't feel stable enough to be in a relationship right now."

When I think about it, I feel like going outside, lying down in the middle of the street, and letting fate give me what I deserve. I am so full of BS I can barely stand to be in my own skin.

Jeez, that's pretty impressive!

i need to get up from bed and change my tampon but i am just toooo fucking lazy.

I'd do anything to get my fiance back, except call him and admit that I was wrong. It makes me feel depressed and angry, knowing that most likely, the only thing standing between us being together again is my pride.

My biggest secret is that I am in love. I don't know why I keep it to myself; the boy loves me too. I feel alternatively insanely happy and amazingly depressed when I think about it. My heart is taking a beating from all this.

me too. me too.

I'm feeling really bad about something at the moment, but I can't quite figure out what it is. I hate feeling like this...