bayleafwish (original) (raw)

Nothing is really a doddle, nothing is really just a walk in the park, having said that though time really does heal all.. well not all but most. If you've suffered with your mind or your body or both then you will know what it means to try and heal. But time, sometimes refuses.

I started this journal because i know i am not alone in my struggle with myself. I do belive though that there are people out there who feel it worse than me and to them i send every bit of sympathy i have. If you have ever woke one morning and looked in the mirror but not even recognised your own face, or walked through familiar streets that are no longer familiar. If you have been breathing but not really living then i am with you here.

I have never been diagnosed, I would like to say it's because i have always believed in self healing, but in all honesty it's more because i am too afraid to realise the severity of the problems i have. And so a bit like an ostrich my head buries away.

This journal is not all about personal struggle, it's about accepting and over coming. But i am a hypocrite, as i am not cured of my demons, i am more free but i have not escaped. It sounds vague i know but who needs labels and diagnosis, it's all mental baby, all mental.