21 January 2005 - Story of my life... (original) (raw)

Well... Actually, I had strange dreams 3 nights. The same... So, because I want to understand what this mean, I will post them and maybe you will can help me...

I don't remember well the first dream. The only thing was the full moon. I don't know what it's the only thing I remember. It was a beautiful moon, with an nice white ambient light... (Well, this dream got nothing particulary...)

In the second, I was on a plain in my wolf form. In front of me was the full moon with the same white light... Behind me was a wolf. I didn't saw his face, but he was a white wolf. I was in his arms and he caressed me. Next to me, was a dark red wolf. I remember his face. He looked so happy to be here. He touched me too, and I let him doing that. I felt so good. I understand that I was with the white wolf since a long time. I couldn't said how time... But apparently we were happy together. After, I understand that we already had sex with the dark red wolf. Well it's strange isn't it? After that, I asked to the dark red wolf why he didn't looked for someone. He answered that he was happy like that, with us. As I felt good, I couldn't answered something. The white wolf said I was awesome, because I wanted that the red wolf be more happy. And, I don't know why but the moon attract me. So, I didn't answered and I stared at the moon face. I got up always staring at the moon. The others wolfs did the same. "It's beautiful isn't it?" Ask the white wolf. I turned my head toward him. But... He was disappeared... I don't know why, but... It was not here... I wanted to say something or ask where he gone but the moon attracted me again, and I was stared again... I turned my head toward the dark red wolf and I saw he looked me. He was happy with a smile on his face. Again, I wanted to say something but the moon attracted me... And... When I turned my head again... He was disappeared... I looked behind me... but I saw only darkness.... Like a black screen. Behind me was the moon, but I was alone... And the moonlight began to fade out... (After That I wake up... And I was asking myself what this mean...)

I did the same dream last night. I will not rewrite him because it's the same. I just learn more and more about the white wolf, the dark red wolf and about our relationship. But I will said what change I remember.... The white wolf was about 38 years old. We were together since... 4 years. I don't know where we meet the dark red wolf, but we knew him since about 2 years. He was about 28 years old as about mine. So... In fact when I turned my head toward the white wolf, I saw him turning back with a fade out effect, and disappeared into the darkness... Again I wanted to ask where he gone, but... The moon attracted me again... Well... It was normal now... The dark red wolf did the same thing when I turned my head toward him. But after he disappeared into the darkness, I heard his voice who said " We are waiting for you..." And something else I didn't heard. I wanted to follow them, but the moon's force was so great... Any wolf could resist at that force.... It was so beautiful... After I turned back, and the darkness disappeared too... A beautiful landscape with trees, wind , mountains... And the full moon behind me. I wanted to go there, but I wake up...

So... Well... I don't really know what these dreams means. But I want to. I don't know if I will dream again. I hope but I'm not sure... I want to find these wolfs... There waiting for me? Why? Do I know them? I guess... Or maybe my quest is to find them...