mistakes you make (original) (raw)

It's basically been forever since I wrote in here. I totally suck at updating this thing. Anyways, it's finally warm around here. Yesterday, it was 86 degrees out! Today, it's a bit cooler, but it's still pretty nice. The wind's blowing like crazy, and it's freaking my dog out since she's weird like that. I'm really looking forward to summer, but I still need to get a job or else my dad won't shut up. It was my birthday last week. I turned sixteen.

Um, that's about it. It was pretty scattered, I know. But yeah.

Until next time<3

Current Mood: hot

24 December 2008 @ 04:35 pm

I've been sick for the past couple of days, so my mom took me to the doctor this morning. I was thinking that it would be packed with people wanting to see the doctor in hopes of getting some kind of magical cure to get better by tomorrow, but no. So we went in and were out within a half an hour. It was epic. I have a sinus infection, thus we're not having a Christmas Eve celebration. The doctor said I can't even hug people tomorrow at Christmas. Lame. But he gave me some antibiotics and told me some OTC things I can do.

I came home and watched Love Actually. I had recorded it because it was on at like five o'clock this morning on USA. It was a really good movie. Totally cute at points. Of course, my mom has to walk in at one of... like five really dirty parts in the movie. It's where the one guy is in Wisconsin, looking to get shagged. So she's like WHAT IS THIS RATED?! And I click the info and it's all Rated R. So she's like, they'll prolly show them having sex. And I'm all "If they are, I'll fast forward." So I finished watching it. It was really funny.

Then after that, I just kind of chilled.

Merry Christmas everyone!
(Or Hanukkah or Kwanzaa if that's what you celebrate.)

Current Mood: sick

Current Music: Santa Baby!

14 December 2008 @ 09:04 am

I totally suck at updating this thing. Like really bad. Let's see....

Debate eats lives. More specifically mine on Saturdays. It involves getting up early, yay (not). getting dressed up and arguing a lot. Good times.

So all of this weekend was all about debate. I left after school on Friday and then came back at six am on Saturday. I didn't even break into semi finals, which was ok in a way, since I would have been all spazzy about it beforehand. And plus, I so did not want to be in the chamber from hell. I came home at five that evening and took a shower. I chilled for a bit and went to bed around seven. I was in bed until seven am. Good times.

Now I need to work on Anne and Taryn's Christmas gifts and take care of English homework.

<3 Becs

Current Mood: groggy

Current Music: Love by Sugarland

04 September 2008 @ 05:04 pm

SO. I don't feel good.
And I'm doing my Spanish homework.
Because I'll most likely have to go to school tomorrow.
But like half of chem class is sick with some kind of bug,
Including my teacher. Fun stuff. LOL. Yeah.
I just felt like updating this. School is doing
Good. I love my English teacher. He's pretty
Much amazing.
Mucho love.
<3
Becs

Current Mood: melancholy

19 August 2008 @ 01:45 pm

Holy shit. I start school tomorrow. I cannot fathom that. I will be a sophomore, which is also weird. And my cousin left for college on Sunday. Thus, I won't see her until we go down there for a football game in October. Rawr.

I listened to samples of the Instant Star Season Four soundtrack, and I don't like any of the Alexz songs that aren't sung by Alexz on the album.
RAWR

Death. It's all around us: in the television shows we watch, in the books we read, in the news, and sometimes it even enters our schools. Sometimes it comes in the form of illness, sometimes in suicide, sometimes in a car crash, and sometimes we have no clue why. Yesterday death entered a member of my school's student body in the form of illness, at least that's what they're guessing at this time. Her name was Casi and she was a sophomore and a member of National Arts Honor Society.

I didn't personally know Casi, but I feel like I should feel bad and I do. However, earlier I wasn't feeling bad for the sake of her death itself, but for the fact that I didn't feel bad about it. Now I know more about her. All I knew was a name and a face, but now I know about the NAHS, good grades, the fact that she was a best friend to a girl who I used to be a best friend to years and years ago, and she dated this guy who I consider to be a pretty good friend of mine. The horrible thing is that the guy broke up with her Wednesday and she died yesterday. And people have been crying and acting like zombies all day. And I feel so awkward because I have no clue what to say to anyone. =/

However, I have learned something from this. Appreciate everyone that is in your life because you never know when they're going to be gone.

Current Mood: pensive

I'm a horrible LJ friend. I never update this thing.

My grandpa was in the hospital and then the nursing home. I just want things to go back to the way they were before. I'm a bit of a control freak, but what can I say? I just like normalcy and consistancy in my life. I don't know. maybe I just want too much. I feel selfish for wanting things the way they used to be. But I just miss going to my grandparents' house and it being both of them there. I don't like this running to someone else's house to see them. They're living with my aunt now, and it kinda sucks. They're getting one of those caregiving ladies to live with them and take care of them. As much as I want them to be at home, I don't want that caregiver to be there. It's like I know it's better that way if she's there, but yet I don't want her to be there. Plus. this is another sign of their lives deteriorating. My grandpa is ninety-two which is amazing in itself, but I'm still selfish and I want my grandpa to be around. I regret not really getting to know my other grandpa before he passed on. So its' like I thought I would get a second chance with the other one, but no.

I don't know. Am I selfish for thinking this? And this is stressing me out.

28 days of school left...

Current Mood: confused

19 January 2008 @ 02:50 pm

Finals just ended.
I was just looking at some random LJs and I had an idea for this post. :]

Current Location: here

Current Mood: cheerful

Current Music: Nothing but a Good Time - Poison

08 December 2007 @ 08:34 am

School eats lives.
And I have a new love of the show Run's House.

Current Location: living room

Current Mood: happy

Current Music: Run's House! =D