Bisexuals (and other sexualities) and Monogamy's Journal (original) (raw)

Some things

New found freedom,
Joy and peace,
Come at a price
Families tend to step back
and friends tend to run
all at once, no one seems to know or understand
who you are, and what you stand for
All you can do is stand tall
And be who you are
For although things may change,
And people along with it,
Certain things will never change
Such as the most important thing
Love, and the fact that
Everyone deserves a chance to

I wrote this a few days ago. Cross posted on ap. Life is good. Mom and i are on semi-speaking terms again, but the relationship between my brother and i is detorating at a fast pace. Up until about a month ago he wasnt all the religous, and now he is. It seems like all of the letters he writes are filled with scripture, and him telling me i am in sin.. Grr.. how about just saying hi and seeing how life is? It just amazes me that he can turn so judgemental all at once. He posted a journal about what is going on on myspace, and he and mom both commented on it, and when i replied to the comments, they deleted them, If your going to talk about me, at least let me defend myself. It almost just feels like ther is like no one way to deal with this. Christians ( or at least some of them) dont like talking about homosexuality, and homosexuals dont really like talking about christianity. So its kinda miffing. Crap. crap crap. Its just frustrating. It feels like everyone in the family to some extent just wants this to go away. Do they think i dont? do they think i made a choice? It was hard enough coming to the decison to accept that this is part of who i am... But it is part of who i am, and that is somthing that will not ever go away. Trying to supress it ( i really dislike that word) will not help, it will only make it stronger. Patience is a virtue i guess, and i one i will have to learn. Sorry this is really negagtive, and i know it... Thanks for reading anyway.