Danyel (original) (raw)

I've come to terms with the fact that I am the type of person that is easily addicted to things. But that doesn't make it any easier for me to deal with on an everyday basis.

Everyday is a struggle.

Everyday is temptation.

It's all about the distractions, focus, and persistance.

• Current Music:Chevelle - the Red

I really wish that I kept up with this journal throughout the years. Every couple years I go back and re-read alot of memories, and now i'm left looking at this blank chunk of 2yrs gone off of this journal.

Divorce has been the roughest thing I've ever felt. What I thought was my fairytale ended up being a complete nightmare and waste of years of my life. I've never really hated anyone in my life as much as I hated him when I was sending him home the finale time in january, I didn't even see him off to the airport. Yet having him gone, and realizing I was alone again made me realize why I had stayed with him so long in the first place, Fear of being alone!

So here I sit 9months later, and I no longer hate Miguel. I was a big part of the reason it ended, but it took a really long time to fess up to that. I really enjoyed my single life, being alone didn't bother me I preffered it!

Now again, I'm not single... I've met someone, but i'm so fucking weary and I can't put my finger on why. I want to just open up and do and say everything that I want to, when I want to, but my brain keeps over-ruling my heart. I just don't want to hurt again, and I don't want to hurt him either.

I hate updating.. I never know where to go with what i'm writing. I just wish I could write more. Maybe I really will this time, I need the release somewhere, as all my friends have turned into narcasistic summa-time friends.

• Current Music:KO - Capable

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all in lj land :)
have a great holiday!!!

well thats it heater inspired me, i'm sendin you all new pics of me, taken the other night, i look a lil different now so heres an update of me :P

okay yea i know i never update, but i promise..i am on everyday lol

i just dont feel to write stupid things that change daily cause yea everything changes constantly... boys are still liars, girls are still skanks, so life is still the same haha

im going to new york city thursday-sunday, im SOOOO excited! i plan on taking a digital camera full of pictures lol

i got a couple new tats too.

i really will give an actual update soon, or at least start updating more lol not like anyone actually reads this anyways. hmm maybe i'll make this public and see if anyone actually comments? hah no.

orange juice jones - walkin in the rain
ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF! hahaha \m/

i recieved this today, and replied to it. im kind of weirded out how they found me and that they reffered to me as goth/alternative haha

Dear Madam,

I am writing to you to ask if you would be kind enough to help me in Private
Research. I am a professional graphologist and I do not have many gothic /
alternative lifestyle handwritings. Obviously, as a professional
handwriting analyst I collect handwritings for private research.

Could you send me a sample of your handwriting, along with your everyday
signature? I do not need to know your name or address. All I need is to
know your sex (using the male or female symbol) a few lines of writing and
your everyday signature at the bottom of the paper. Please use unlined
paper if you can. Just copy a few lines from a book or magazine etc.

If you have a scanner or access to one, I should be grateful if you could
email me a jpeg of your handwriting. If you want to send it by normal post,
please let me know and I shall send you my address by email.

Please feel free to look at my website.www.JamesMarshall-graphologist.com

If you want your handwriting analysed please let me know and I will see what
I can do. If you have any questions please do not hesitate to contact me.

Thank you for your kind co-operation and I look forward to hearing from you.

Kindest Regards

James Marshall

made it earlier lol

wow its amazing what people do for attention....really it is. even if it means hurting people they love or even backstabbing them for that matter....

it sucks when people dig up dirt and trash and just un nessisary things on people for no gawd damn good reason!!!!! and im writing this to you cause you and i both know she wont say shit to you about it, but damn that was FUCKED UP!!! damn you really want people knowing all the shit you've done these past years? haha yea so why would you do that to someone who cares about you? damn.....grow the hell up.

for every action theres an equal reaction...

and if you wonder why people stop talking to you and telling you things of any importance you'll know why....you can no longer be trusted with anything! the funny thing is you prolly thought they wouldnt find out it came from you, or maybe thats just what you hoped. but it didnt work that way, she did find out, and her reaction is that of silence...

silence is deadly.