_Look at that, i finally got a few crappy icons done~ go figure haha. There ya go..... by the way, I changed journals.... for anyone who actually reads my crap... feel free to go for itStygian Chemical_Fire BirdSweetButterflies~Zeromancer~!!!Hate!!{MM}(10 comments | Leave a comment)
I have waded through ten thousand dreamsNever realizing, that something tragically simpleWould cut these sweetly sewn seamsHow horrid this reflectionFor nothing is as it seemsPlease cut out quickly my crooked spinethis has drained me down for my love is your wineThis horrid world, this place has hurt you soThese broken words, we once spoke“Together forever we shall grow”These chances now bleedthis tragic end we’ll now never bendOnly our bloodbath nights, now we’ll spendOne last cut upon my skinOne last time we bleed each sinNever again I’ll say we’ll winhow many times shall we kill then dietrapped behind this wretched lieforgotten times these sweet silent criesmy brother, best friend, so many times we fellnow it is done, for us begins this newly builthellTainted With: taintedIncantation: cocoon (2 comments | Leave a comment)
( One More TimeCollapse )"....BY THE TIME MY LIFE IS AT ITS ENDI'LL WANT IT BACK ONE MORE TIME...."( ColdCollapse )"....YOU ARE THE ANTIDOTE THAT GOT ME BY,SOMETHIN STRONG LIKE A DRUG THAT GOT ME HIGH...."Tainted With:mellowIncantation: Mechanical Animals:Marilyn Manson (2 comments | Leave a comment)
Days of the Pheonixby_AFI_I remember whenI was told of story of crushed velvet,Candle wax, and dried up flowers.The figure on the bed,All dressed up in roses, calling...Beckoning to sleep... offering a dream.The words were as mysticalAs purring animals.The circle of rage... the ghosts on the stage appeared.The time was so tangibleI'll never let it go.Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below.No one could see me.(Ohhhhh)I fell into yesterday.(Ohhhhh)Our dreams seemed not far away.I want to, I want to, I want to stay.(Ohhhhh)I fell into fantasy.The words were as mysticalAs purring animals.The circle of rage... the ghosts on the stage appeared.The time was so tangibleI'll never let it go.Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below.No one could see me.(Ohhhhh)I fell into yesterday.(Ohhhhh)Our dreams seemed not far away.I want to, I want to, I want to stay.(Ohhhhh)I fell into fantasy.(Backround Oh's)The girl on the wall always waited for me,And she was always smiling.The teenage death boys,The teenage death girls... and everyone was dancing.Nothing could touch us then,No one could change us then,And everyone was dancing.Nothing could hurt us then,No one could see us then,And everyone was dancing. Everyone was dancingI fell into yesterday.Our dreams seemed not far away.Our dreams seemed not far away.Our dreams seemed not far away.I fell into fantasy.(4 comments | Leave a comment)
Its Been Awhileby_Staind_And it's been awhileSince I could hold my head up highAnd it's been awhileSince I first saw youAnd it's been awhileSince I could stand on my own two feet againAnd it's been awhileSince I could call youAnd everything I can't rememberAs fucked up as it all may seemThe consequences that I've renderedI've stretched myself beyond my meansAnd it's been awhileSince I can say that I wasn't addictedAnd it's been awhileSince I can say I love myself as wellAnd it's been awhileSince I've gone and fucked things up just like I always doAnd it's been awhileBut all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with youAnd everything I can't rememberAs fucked up as it all may seemThe consequences that I've renderedI've gone and fucked things up againWhy must I feel this way?Just make this go awayJust one more peaceful day!And it's been awhileSince I could look at myself straightAnd it's been awhileSince I said I'm sorryAnd it's been awhileSince I've seen the way the candle lights your faceAnd it's been awhileBut I can still remember just the way you tasteAnd everything I can't rememberAs fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's meI cannot blame this on my fatherHe did the best he could for meAnd it's been awhileSince I could hold my head up highAnd it's been awhileSince I said I'm sorry_I feel the pain build up inside me... what am I to do when everything is dying before my eyes..... will I be caught before I fall once more..... if I would be... would I be willing to sacrifice these sins of being a whore...... I just wish I weren’t dirty no more...._Tainted With:restless and lost (2 comments | Leave a comment)
Blackby_Pearl Jam_Hey...oooh...Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clayWere laid spread out before me as her body once didAll five horizons revolved around her soulAs the earth to the sunNow the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turnOoh, and all I taught her was everythingOoh, I know she gave me all that she woreAnd now my bitter hands chafe beneath the cloudsOf what was everything? Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...I take a walk outsideI’m surrounded by some kids at playI can feel their laughter, so why do I searOh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my headI’m spinning, oh, I’m spinningHow quick the sun can, drop awayAnd now my bitter hands cradle broken glassOf what was everythingAll the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...All the love gone bad turned my world to blackTattooed all I see, all that I am, all I’ll ever be...yeah...Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...I know someday you’ll have a beautiful life, I know you’ll be a starIn somebody else’s sky, but whyWhy, why can’t it be, why can’t it be mineTainted With:confused, sad, happy, distant.Incantation: Black:Pearl Jam (10 comments | Leave a comment)
Thoughts Nothingis asIt Seems_Sugar coated are the secrets which lay beyond thisidealism and unreal prosperityOverwhelmingly mad visions and tragedy forewarnsare all our most sanctified prophets seem to seeStretching out pseudo salvation for you, a personalizedguardian angel now scorching his blessed fleshand bone within the eye of hellEven he wishes solemnly, that you would never havesecond guessed this ancient magi’sstrength and freedom with his horrid spellSacred ones, of ages ago, warned you of the fateguaranteed to those who choose to walk into thistrap of deception, this never-ending abyss Laughing deities seem to mock your every move asyou are devoured by the blackness of blessedHecate’s sweetest devastation, her vampyric kiss–antidotes shan’t stop what kills so sweet and slow–Where is the god whom promised salvation to you,the one who spoke through the words ofdivinity’s son, through the chosen one’s voiceNever did you believe the golden ones, threefold faits who hissed through snake-like hair,of you becoming blinded each tome you make a choiceI have seen ones like you, with wings so fresh, sonew and spreading wide their feathers toreveal purity in the shade of Gaia’s palest blueCreations of the wretched one, first tattering yourflawless and untouched wings, then tintingyour heart a true satanic hueOne final damnation, for you alone, is hiddenbehind Loki’s mirror of all those who chantendless cries and starve the lonely with bloodshot eyesBefore I fill this flask by draining the last ofmy few crimson tears, in an attempt to saveyou from your six-foot, ready grave, you mustlearn so fast to amplify your very own silent cries–antidotes shan’t stop what kills so sweet and slow–Ways of how you once escaped, those paths offantasy which have been assumed true,engraved in stone, memorized and past down through time Never did these paths apply to your kind which havealways passed this foolish wisdom down, their once pure and holy bloodlineTruth now and forever, may be found within theVery dreams and memories recorded bypatterns in every ryhme Try for thee, the known one whom poisoned you, andlook past his horrid mask, for you shallfind his every intention being genuinelytrue, just as death’s love for you Nymphs of many have tried to lay this rite’sonly path for you to follow, by lunarlight, finding in life’s labyrinth, what ishidden for you in a morning’s dewLies upon lies have burned their eternalmark deep into magick’s root, in you,into the core of your inner soul, this iswhy devastation crawls beneath yourown fake skinFor the sakes of all other damned ones tocome, just as you have, escaped this taintedchurning and inner burning that slowlydecays you blindly with dreadfullyunspeakably , such horridunforgivable sin_Realizefor all our soulsNo scrolls written in crimson tearsshall heal all these bleeding holesRealizefor the ones who’s dreams stillchance of becoming trueNo pagan nor spirit may mimicthe heavenly tenderness producedso flawlessly by youRealizefor your own future that stillreflects the moonlight’s glowThat no cure, no antidote maystop this plague of pain thatkills so very silently and at ahorridly flow, so viciously,dead silently and painstakinglyslowTainted With:for some reason accomplishedIncantation: shitload of things-midnight lastnight~ haha (Leave a comment)
Pressures within my mindDragging me into blissA dreamless reality they could never findGranted from Satan’s holy kissThis falling so endlessDying quickly within this black abyssSoul devoured by pure darknessCan’t you hear my serpent’s hiss?Lost the will to live aloneAs the night comes to an endDemon whispering in a ghastly toneThese rules he tries to bendA shattered mirror god shall never mendBroken in time with dead gardens to tendSuch a morbid prayer you seem to sendEach time, my smile is nothing but pretendDon’t you see through the glassTake off your wretched maskSanctified sinner at this bloody massYou’ll never finish the holy book’s taskYou didn’t think I would lastFighting off these memories from my pastBitter times ending neverMy sweet rhymes shall never lastTainted With:moroseIncantation: nowhere kids:smile empty soul (Leave a comment)
I look up at the starsRemembering what it’s like to live behind barsThose of which no one understandsThe kind within the mind, untouchable by handsI see the same pain consume those I hold dearWishing only I could be thereif only to wipe away every tearThe only thing I know how to doIs stay and listen, try and stay a friend, forever trueI hear of the blood they shed every nightThe endless screaming the endure from every fightDoing anything to hide from sightNever touched, unlearned to loveNo truth from the skiesNo comfort from aboveWhen will this hatred stopStop piercing everyone’s heartAt the first breath is when this damnation startsJust look down please and forget the pain in their eyesLeave it to there every mask and disguiseHiding the emotions that keep on bleedingHolding back the monsters that keep on beatingDecaying from the hate others keep feedingThese people are for other’s like meTrying to help them, be there for them to seeIt is possible for them to one day be free... *She’s taking her time making up the reasons to justify all the hurt inside. Guess she knows from the smiles and the looks in their eyes, everyone’s got a theory about the bitter one. They’re saying, “ Mama never loved her much and daddy never keeps in touch. That’s why she shies away from human affection. But somewhere in a private, she packs her bags from outer space and now she’s waiting for the right pilot to come.” * Tainted With:embarrassedIncantation: truly madly deeply:savage garden (1 comment | Leave a comment)
mellowIncantation: Mechanical Animals:Marilyn Manson (2 comments | Leave a comment)
restless and lost (2 comments | Leave a comment)
for some reason accomplishedIncantation: shitload of things-midnight lastnight~ haha (Leave a comment)
embarrassedIncantation: truly madly deeply:savage garden (1 comment | Leave a comment)