It Seems As Though No One Is There For Me (original) (raw)

| new... | | | | ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 08:36pm 09/12/2008 | | | | | mood: calm hey everybody...my name is lyndsay. i'm 17 years old. and i usually dont talk bout my issues but feel lately like i should. i've done alot of drugs and have been to rehab twice. i got to public school and have been in multiple abusive relationships. i've been cheated on lied to and physically/emotionally abused by many different people. i fall for people quickly which is my demise. i lead with my heart not my mind. i've cut myself over the last 4 years and have been clean from it for over a year. i have an eating disorder that i constantly battle and am woking on it.... i like meeting new people so if you ever want to message me....feel free | | | | | | | | | 1 feel your pain| feelin alone | | | | | | |

| | | | | --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 05:41pm 30/11/2006 | | | | | mood: contemplative Hi. My name is Calli (musecalliopeia), and I am now 23 months clean of cutting! I started cutting when I was 16. I am now 34. Prior to getting into recovery, the longest I'd been able to go without cutting was about a month and a half.I recently opened a new self-injury recovery journal, selfinjuryanon. Please feel free to come by and check it out - anyone is welcome to join. I want this to be a safe, supportive place for people to come together and share their experiences.I don't post about my new community to be obnoxious - I post because I'm proud of the recovery I've found, how long I've gone without hurting myself, and I want to help other people. I'm proud of the members of my new community, and the way that they are opening up to themselves, to one another, and how they are reaching for help, and reaching out to help.See, a couple years ago, I hit bottom. Hard. And when I looked around for help, I couldn't find anything, really. There was no "self-injury [or self-mutilation or cutters, or whatever] anonymous". I talked to therapists and people who worked in the recovery community, and they didn't know of anything. So I created this community to be a safe haven for people who self-injure. There are a lot of us, and we mostly feel so very alone.But we're not alone. We have each other, and we can help each other get through this. We all know how tough it is, and we're learning how satisfying it is to make it through. | | | | | | | | | feelin alone | | | | | | |

| This Might Interest You | | | | ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ | | | | 01:10am 25/04/2006 | | | | | Everyone,I made an LJ community as a result of my bouts of insomnia/sleeplessness.It's for those of you who are quite active during the night, whether the reasons range from skeletons in the closet, to defying natural bodily functions for the hell of it, and want to express some thought/impression/emotion/revelation/artwork/humor/irony/etc. during that darkened time of conception.Please check out the user info page and join if that describes you in any way. nocturnalhabitSpread the word to your friends if it tickles your fancy.Merci beaucoup. | | | | | | | | | feelin alone | | | | | | |

| overly intelligent, arrogant asshole | | | | -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 08:21pm 28/09/2005 | | | | | mood: calm Yeah, that's me. My name's Jerry. I'm looking for fellow not-idiots who are not easily offended to bounce ideas off of. I'm an opinionated ass, have no respect for the idea of Too Much Information, and can wax whiney-goth-boy at times. I'm 22, which makes me a dirty old man by livejournal standards. I joined as a way of sorting through a lot of hellish shit from my past that's been kinda buried and festering for the past few years. I'm looking for people who are interested in open discussion about violence, sex, abuse, sadism, destruction, and other such crap. I have a short temper, a tendancy towards high-risk behavior, and I don't always capitolize, but I'm not stupid and I'm never boring. I'll help you sort through your shit if you'll help me sort through mine.... | | | | | | | | | 2 feel your pains| feelin alone | | | | | | |

| | | | | --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 08:44am 21/09/2005 | | | | | mood: worried Hello. I'm new. Just introducing myself :) | | | | | | | | | feelin alone | | | | | | |

| | | | | ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 01:38pm 13/06/2005 | | | | | good morrowJerry here. New to lj and looking for some intelligent people to talk to, bounce ideas off of, etc. I would like to request only people who can resist using teeny-bopper shorthand like "u R t3h l33t r0xx0rs LoL!!!111one11!! oMFg 111one!!!!!1" I can offer thoughtful two-way conversation... I will be happy to critique literary works, and would love the same. Be aforewarned - when asked to critique I will be brutally honest. I will never flame or senselessly kiss ass. (neither the above example nor "u R t3h gay fagg omg that SUCKED so much omg lolol") I hope I have made my pet peeve clear. Also be aware that I do not intend to censor the comments of my journal. I do not consider anything too much information, and if you do, this is probably not the digest of choice for you.Some interests include guitar, punk/ska, folk and folk rock, vocal music, literature and writing, high fantasy, make-believe, kickboxing, martial arts, video/pc gaming, and needless to say, Lewis Carrol. I have been known to be a bit shortsighted and tend towards high-risk behaviors. I can wax a bit emo/goth at times. Sorry. If you are curious, 22/m/Chicago. I say that because people ask, not because I really care to know likewise. I am not looking to meet people or find dates, but rather for people to really talk to. In my opinion, that can be accomplished online irrelevant to those three statistics. | | | | | | | | | 4 feel your pains| feelin alone | | | | | | |

| heylo! | | | | ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 04:13pm 29/04/2005 | | | | | mood: dirty hello everyone...im a newbie...i cant say im depressed in any way...but my life does suck...ive had the shittiest week...and in 4 days i have an ap exam...im sooo freakin stressed...pills arent helping either...all i can do is indulge myself in the creaminess of ice cream...mmm...~nicki~ | | | | | | | | | feelin alone | | | | | | |

| | | | | ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 09:15pm 30/11/2004 | | | | | this community has become my personal project. I feel sort of foolish being the only one writing in here so... people should join. :) | | | | | | | | | feelin alone | | | | | | |

| a song | | | | -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- | | | | 11:23pm 22/11/2004 | | | | | mood: frustrated I dreamt of a fever,one that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart.with heat to melt these frozen tears and burned with reasonsas to carry on.into these twisted months I plunge without a light to followbut I swear that I would follow anythingif it would just get me out of here.and so you get six months to adaptand then you get two more to leave town.in the event that you do adapt, we still might not want you around.and I fell for the promise, of a life with a purposebut I know that that is impossible now.and so I drink to stay warmand to kill selected memoriesbecause I just can't think anymore about that or about her tonightI give myself three days to feel betteror I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliffbecause if I can't make myself feel betterthen how can I expect anyone else to give a shitand I scream for the sunlight, or a car to take me anywherejust get me past this dead and eternal snowbecause I swear that I am dying, slowly but its happeningand if the perfect spring is waiting somewherejust take me there and lie to me and say it's going to be alrightits going to be alright, yeah you worry too much kid,its going to be alright. | | | | | | | | | 1 feel your pain| feelin alone | | | | | | |