R e o p e n e d S c a r s (original) (raw)

[	mood	|	cold	]

It's as if everyone as come back from the dead and resumed their normal-- or as close as normal as they can get-- lives.

Wonder what everyone's been up to that they've completely isolated themselves from each other for these last couple of weeks

Ishouldn'tbeaskingthisbecauseitalsoappliestomyselfandIdon'tfeellikeansweringmyownquestionrightnow

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Nothing's happened much in my, boring, simply un-interesting life, so I don't see the point of keeping this journal, much less writing in it

but it does keep me from gauging my eyes out from this maddening boredem

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I heard that someone stole

that insane absolutely creepy and sadistic

Kefka's makeup. I saw him maybe once or twive times, and god knows he already looks hideous with his makeup on, I don't even want to imagine how he looks without it. I shudder at the thought of it, because that's something to be scared of.

While I was searching the internet, I came upon a school that specializes in fencing classes for students who are talented in it. This institute appeals me much, and I would like to attend. I'd have to run it by Mother the next time I call her.

Speaking of which, I'm a little pissed off by the fact that not just Loz, but Sephiroth up and left without so much as a reason why. I suppose they went back home

again

, though I don’t see why Mother lets them go back, and not me. I would like to question her, but that’s something I won’t possibly do. I’ll never question what she does, or says, or believes. Her word is law, and how I miss her. She was the order in my life, without her It seems I am lost, and cannot find my way.

I’ll write her a letter, and mail it to her, because it’s not the same as typing up a letter, and emailing it to her ( she probably doesn’t even use the computer much anyway ). She always liked my letters to be hand written, because Mother says you get more feeling out of it.

Well, after I do that, I’d like to call Yazoo. Just to, no real reason. I just feel like talking to him, and see how he’s doing, once again, I haven’t seen him much at all lately.

I’d have to call Riku too, maybe Zexion, if I feel like it that is. I already got enough of him during that trip. Hn.

By the way, don’t ask about the trip.

I ran into Vexen the other day. Would have tackled me onto the floor in a hug if I hadn’t moved to the side and watched him fall onto the floor and make a complete fool of himself in the library. He’s as optimistic as ever, but during the end of our somewhat conversation he eyed me and tried to poke me ( which I stopped him by smashing his finger between my book ), and asked what was my relationship with Zexion, and what I felt about him. I honestly didn’t know what he was implying at first, until I realized that he was wearing a coat that seemed familiar, and it was then that it donned me that on the night when Zexion and myself took off, I had spotted Vexen at the exit of the parking lot, but didn’t but much thought to it and shrugged it off as someone else, but indeed it was him. I felt a bit of pity, because I know he feels strongly about Zexion, and when we took off for the trip, it sort of looked like… well, I’m stopping that thought dead in it’s tracks, but anyway, Vexen probably thinks me and Zexion have something ( which is absolutely false, and not true in any possible way ). I told him I didn’t feel anything for Zexion, and he just smiled ( though it was forced I could tell ), and said he’d like to hang out some more later, waved, and left.

I finished my homework that was a day late ( because I had forgotten about it ), and went to turn it in later on that evening.

Now that I look at it, it seems this update turned out a lot longer than I had first expected. Now, I’m going to go to the Natural History Museum because I feel like it and have been waiting to for awhile, I shall be back in a couple of hours, may go to a restaurant after that if I get hungry.