The Power of Prayer (original) (raw)

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Hello, everyone. I searched for "prayer" in the interests box because I really feel like I could use one right now.

Yesterday afternoon, my dog that I've had for 9 years was put to sleep. He was old and suffering, and it's good that he's finally free from that pain, but I still can't stop crying. He was an important part of our family and it hurts me to see him gone.

My great-grandmother was just taken out of hospice, I suppose her liver functions were improving. However, she still can't live by herself. I've not seen her that many times but she always sends everyone in my family five dollars for their birthday, and I mean everyone. She's always thinking of others, and I know she thinks of me. I don't want her to go back to hospice.

I can't seem to find contentment in life anymore. It's almost like nothing ever changes, or something takes a turn for the worst. I'm afraid that I'll grow up and remain alone. I don't know what it is but guys seem to ignore me, and it doesn't seem like that will ever change. I had a small crush on a guy in my youth group, and, fully aware of this fact, my best friend started going out with him. This is the second time she has done this, knowing when I've had my heart set on somebody. I don't know what's wrong with me; I'm not as assertive as she is. But it just feels like I'm not good enough for anybody.

I broke down last night. I prayed. I laid on my floor and cried, singing "Here I Am to Worship." I couldn't stop. I got so little sleep that I stayed home from school today. My head still hurts from how many tears I shed last night.

God, when are you going to let something good happen to me? Will my whole life be one long loss and disappointment?

This is quite a way for me to introduce myself. I'm Lara, and I've gone to church all my life. Technically, I'm a Baptist. However, my life is not nearly as together as most people think it is. I hope that one day it'll be easier for me to share my emotions instead of playing the strong person for others who can't hold them in.

Thank you all for making this community. It really made my day to see that there's a group of people out there who absorb all this and care.