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Well, I don't know how to really start this. But I've just joined. My name is Stephanie, I'm 13-years-old and I live in England.

Basically, I think i'm starting to get an eating disorder. I know you're probably all thinking "If you really did, you wouldn't know" but I don't know for sure, but I think I do.
I don't think I'm uberly skinny or like, stick-thin, but I'm 5'5" and weight 120lbs, which I guess is kind of average. It dosen't have to do with my weight, it has to do with my eating habits.
I don't eat breakfast, and for lunch I don't have a proper one. My lunch is normally a drink and half a packet or crisps OR a muffin. For dinner, I don't eat too much.
Basically, in the past few days I read this poster about Anorexia...and I read the "at risk" signs and I noticed I may have alot of them. I constantly perceive myself as fat and I skip meals alot, to name a few.
but anyways, after noticing that, I've been trying to stop. So I try and eat my sandwiches, and they either makes me gag and if I manage to force it back down I end up throwing it all back up again soon after. If I ever see myself where I can't see my ribs, I think I'm fat....so I skip meals. If I eat too much, I feel guilty and then either skip meals or make myself throw it back up again.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm afraid I'll start to faint in front of my parents or at school. I want to deal with this myself, I don't want my family to know. Because then they'll be watching everything I do and nosing around in my life too much.
Anything to help will be appreciated.