i'm outside of your window (original) (raw)

title: dare
author: shannon
fandom: criminal minds
pairing: reid/gideon
rating: pg-13
disclaimer: not mine. never was.
warnings: tiny little cuss word. implicit sexual content. teeny little spoiler.

Reid doesn’t know what the men are shouting at him when he passes the security gates. Part of him doesn’t want to know, part of him knows what goes on in prisons like this and that same part tells him that he wants nothing to do with this kind of depravity. The other part, the scientist – the doctor – in him is interested in what these men have to say. Most of them aren’t serial killers, serial arsonists, serial bombers, but they’re all dangerous men who got caught and locked away. They’re all looking at him, sizing him up, pursing their lips and winking just as he passes. Part of him has no idea how to respond to this.

Later, when Gideon brushes the hair out of Reid’s eyes, loosens the tie around his neck, undoes the first two buttons on his checkered shirt, Gideon tells him that he might be the smartest man he knows, but he’s still got a lot to learn. Reid’s melting under Gideon’s fingers, his eyes becoming heavy and his breath becoming labored, he feels like he’s leaving this plane of existence and entering the next, all of his bones severing from one another and dissolving into ashes. He can’t explain this, what Gideon does to him, he can’t begin to quantify or reason, but he knows that he loves this feeling.

When Gideon’s fingers are on him, all Reid can hear are the prisoner’s voices in his ears, whispering those lewd comments, licking their lips and staring at him with those burning eyes. When Gideon’s fingers are on him, slipping down down down, with his hard hands and Reid’s soft stomach, all Reid knows is this feeling.

All Reid knows is this, right here, right now. All he knows is how much he fucking loves this.