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I have used sarcasm for a long while. It is my defense mechanism. I wonder when I'll stop needing defense mechanisms. Probably when awesome kicks into the picture.

By the way, despite working through whatever problems I have, I still remain positive and I do experience quite a lot of joy in my life. I love and adore and know that I am loved and adored by the people who matter the most to me, and who I know will not abandon me when I need them the most. For whatever my family says that friends cannot be wholly trusted as they are not blood related, I stake a lot of trust in my friends because the feeling is mutual. And maybe I set myself up for a lot of vulnerabilities, but I also set myself up for many awesome times.

To further drive the point home, I will be moving in with two of the most loving people on the face of this planet next fall, and the legends our shenanigans will inspire will be EPIC. There will be dinner parties and badminton nets and boy-conspiracies, and hotpot. I'll be living my life filled with laughter. Maybe I'll take a risk and tell someone I want to share in their joy and silliness, maybe I will be happy with where I am and satisfied with just being their friend and partaking in their life that way. In any case, even if I am a bit short on funds, I want to be able to do a silly dance around the house when the moment seizes me.

Speaking of which, Glee is on tonight! :)