Distant Hearts (original) (raw)

Good day all.

I know this comm has been a bit dead of late, so I assume we are all happy and going well.

Me? Well....not so well, but getting better.

I regret very little I have done in my life, but lately, more so before the end of May, I have REALLY regretted moving.

I was not working. Had no money. No friends. No social life. No job prospects. No luck with finding even call center jobs. NOTHING. I was depressed and put on meds. Great. *RAGE*

Then, I got a job 6 hours from home. Teaching, as I should be doing. 2 weeks into my teaching gig, I feel better than I have in AAAAAGES. I feel alive again, like I can take on the world again.

I miss my cat. I miss him more than I miss my husband who I moved here from Hong Kong to be with.

He said to me on the phone that he would have moved (quote) "Anywhere so long as he did not have to work there and I made enough cash to support us". Ok, fine. He can sit around better than I can. *I* can not sit and be bored. HE can. He's ok with that lifestyle. *I* am not.

I said "Well, you could have in Hong Kong. I made obscene money there and you know that it was cheap to live and eat there."

"Yes, well, I hate HK, so no."

And there was never ever ANY discussion.

To hear him say that makes me want to kick puppies. *I* gave up a great paying, easy job, all my friends, a life and city I loved to move and now, I am going BACKWARDS in my career.

Now, I am working. 6 hours from home, mind you. And I would stay here. I would rather be LDR again for god knows how long than be at home, with husband, miserable and not working steadily.

I don't know if I am the only one who has experienced this. I feel angry at him A LOT for making me move, for basically saying that so long as HE approves the place we live, then he will give things up and move.

I was recently offered another 4 weeks where I am and I took it. If they offer me more, I will take it. Honestly, I don't care if I ever go back.