HELLO LJ WORLD!!! (original) (raw)

i know i have completely disregarded my livejournal. so in an effort to show it some love, i will cross-post the last xanga i just wrote.

so plenty has happened since my last real xanga update. but i figure i should write everything in one giant clusterfuck of words and paragraphs that i won't force you through but hope you'll be inclined to skim. in a short summary, i am now officially going to UCLA for my master's of science in EE. UCSD rejected me after making me wait till the last day to accept for LA, only to rescind that and accept me for PhD 4 days later. 4 days too late, because I had already registered and setup at UCLA and my mindset changed to accept and prepare for as well as get excited about LA. i've moved out of playmor terrace, my home for the last 1.75 years and now live in deanna's room at IG. oh! and deanna's now a mom =D i'll be here till june and then moving everything home only to jettison off for an adventure in asia starting june 30th.

it's odd but slightly refreshing to be living in a new place, even if it's just for a month or two. it wasn't very fun moving my tons of crap over to a 3rd story apartment, but i managed it over a 2-week period. it's a nice little change of scenery for me whilst everything else remains static. it's definitely strange not living with kenny since he's been my roommate for 2 years. but i'll get used to it.

i haven't really thought about the end of my time in SD until recently when I realized that graduation for the '08 kids is coming up soon. and kelsey has been talking about her plans for the next 5 weeks and how it's all going by so fast. it reminded me of senior year last year and how everything seemed to peak and end so quickly, but it also made me realize that my life in san diego is officially going to be over in less than 2 months. i would definitely say i've been able to do a lot and enjoy a lot of san diego and will be able to walk away with hopefully few regrets or things i wasn't able to do. i've been to all the good spots to eat, a few ballgames, all the things you can do in PB, MB and OB, lived in mira mesa and la jolla, surfed, done some spirited motorcyling in the SD mountains, been to countless escapades downtown and in gaslamp, comic-con, the fair, the list goes on. a few things i haven't done but have always had a desire to to is see the zoo, legoland, TJ during the day, and a few other spots. but i think things overall have gone well and i can take away a good pack of memories from this place. unfortunately i just found out today that the lease here ends june 11th, not the end of the month, so unless we can get them to extend it 2 weeks (darius has finals too during that time), then i have to move again.

this last year since grad has gone by extremely fast and things have changed so much despite my routine monotony of work. a year ago i had no idea where i'd be, whether i'd still be in SD, if i would be working or doing more school, or what i really endeavored to do in life. slowly but surely i've been able to work all those things out and get to where i am now without much difficulty, which i'm glad for. i've been single for almost a year now, and i think that has been a big difference in my direction. i've been able to think wholly for myself and plan things for my future out without having to worry about anything but myself and my goals. it's a good thing. there's always that desire for something though, in the background, especially seeing a large majority of my friends with significant others, serious or not. maybe things will change soon, or when i hit school again. or maybe i just need something fun. whatevs. we'll see. now that i have everything set and planned for myself i can start thinking of other aspects of life. like what i'm gonna do with 6 grand that i saved up for a summer program i didn't get into.

which brings me to the next topic. summer. winston and i applied for ICU (uni in tokyo) for a 6-week language program in july. we were subsequently rejected. but! we decided to do our own damn intensive language program instead. we're gonna rent an apartment in tokyo for the whole month of july, and then travel elsewhere afterwards. flights are booked, we're leaving june 30th for narita, then august 6th to singapore, and then august 18th back. in between that, sometime around aug 1-5 we're gonna get some SEOULfood. and while we're in singapore hopefully we can hit up one or two of the countries accessible, such as thailand or malaysia. i'm pretty damn excited for this trip. i don't like getting my hopes up because i don't like getting disappointed, but how can you spend 2 months in asia and not come out with a good time? imma come back all bape-clad with stories galore of travel mishaps and culture shocked experiences.

so there's only 1.5 months left here and i am not going to figure out what i want to do with that time to make the best of it. the next several months -> years of my life are going to be packed, from end of SD to japan/singapore and then a few weeks home, and finally off to the next 2 years of school-based research-oriented bitchwork-performing journey as a graduate student. it's good to have that stability of knowledge of where i'm going to be. i didn't have that right after graduation until probably early this year, and now that it's solid, i feel much better about life and its challenges and prospects.

and so ends the mindstream. goodnight.