fanged_angel, posts by tag: society - LiveJournal (original) (raw)

Well, I survived the exam^^
I look forward to getting my grade now, as I don't know if I interpreted the text correctly but still...it's over.
I should be studying for my mega Art History exam on Monday for which I haven't started studying yet...but screw it. I'll be lazy from now til tomorrow:P:P:P
I had a discussion with Ale on the way home. He's very surprised at how fake his friends are...after I warned him about it thousands of times.
He's had a bit of a fallout with them and now he thinks he should just continue as before the thing happened and be buddies- with them because he doesn't want to fight with anyone and besides, everyone needs to be sociable. I told him that I sure as hell don't need to call people like that friends just for the sake of improving my sociability. He said I'm wrong and that I should talk to everyone even more than now, so that they don't think I don't need them or something.
I don't need them.^^
I talk to them on a very general-basis about the weather, exams and normal things I'm not going to start talking about my life with people I don't trust. I know I'm labeled as "quiet" and "kept-to-myself". I couldn't care less. I'm not against having friends but I'm sure there are better friends for me out there.
Why should I be so sociable with people I won't see -unless by accident- after this July?
They are so fake and artificial and stupid. I don't need them to have a good opinion of me, because that would mean I'm just like them. And I'm proud that I'm not. I found great people that think I'm ok. And I value your opinion more than I do theirs. So much more.
I acknowledge myself with them and I laugh at their jokes and express my opinions in their converstions, but I won't go anywhere more than there.
I've made many mistakes and I've got my butt kicked one too many times. I learned that I'm all I have and that I don't need anyone else to survive. I'm not going to let anyone hurt me when I know better.
And I'll give very few people the chance to do it. I'll be vulnerable only in front of those I trust. It's a risk I am taking/will take, because that's life. I'm not saying I won't make any more mistakes, or that i won't ever get hurt again. I'm sure I will. But I'll choose the people I want to be friends with, thankyouverymuch.
No matter what other people think of me.
Cause this is me. And those who don't like it, aren't worth it, are they?

^^
See what too much philosophy does to me? It brings on more senseless posts.
*loves someone loads*
*huggls all the yay-inducing flist*