This is wierd--but good wierd--I think (original) (raw)

This diet of mine is freaking me out. It seems too easy. Don't eat refined flour or sugar. Limit saturated fats. Don't snack. Otherwise eat what you want (mostly) until you're full. Its all about the glycemic index and blood sugar and fat absorption. The science seems shady to me, but it seems to be working.

I am _never_ full on a diet. NEVER. In order to lose weight, I have to eat less than 1200 calories a day. I feel deprived. I feel HUNGRY all damned day. But not now. I don't feel gross and unhealthy either. (Some bits of my body even seem to be working better.) The food I eat is natural (i.e. not made up of almost entirely chemicals) and it tastes good.

I don't feel like I'm losing weight. I'm honestly suprised every week when I step on the scale and the number is smaller. I feel kinda like its some great cosmic joke and I'm actually getting fatter...I wish I had some other validation--but at my weight, 12lbs just isn't that much.

I guess I'll keep doing what I'm doing and see if the scale keeps doing what its doing. And maybe in a few weeks I'll get to buy new pants.

That would be nice.