Revitalised blog; caffeine (original) (raw)
May 14 2012, 12:34
Almost one post per day so far in May! And no shortage of things on the List Of Stuff To Write About. Wow.
It feels good to be blogging again, but, far more significantly, it feels good to be having the kind of life that I feel moved to write about. Stuff Is Happening. Life is happening. I've been stuck in a rut a long while. Now I'm in exactly the same place, doing almost exactly the same things, but life is infused with the sense of possibility that is perhaps the single most vital thing in our existence.
After my last lapse, the caffeine is out of my system and I'm back on the wagon, but this time with stronger rules. No coffee, not even decaf; no tea, and, from now on, no chocolate (with an exception for the very rare indulgence of cake).
I've heard it said that alcoholics and heroin-addicts have to bottom out before they can truly break away from their addiction. You will always be susceptible to the weakness of temptation until you understand in full, deep down in your heart and brain and guts, that the pleasure of the moment can never outweigh the reckoning that's sure to follow. Then, giving it up becomes, not a resolution, but a matter of common sense. Thus it is, in microcosm, with me and stimulants.
Still, there's always temptation. Today is Day 4.