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growf 😯confused
August 13 2009, 19:23
Listens: The White Stripes 'I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself'
Oh dear. I appear to have accidentally come off my anti-depression medication.
I'm supposed to take 40mg of citalopram a day but it occurred to me, during my walk home this evening, that I couldn't remember when I last took it. It turns out the last time was Sunday. Now this is surprising to me - not that I'd be so forgetful but that I simply haven't noticed. I would have expected something to malfunction - I have friends who've come off citalopram and it was anything but uneventful.
However there is a slight worry. I was supposed to be spending this weekend in Dorset camping by the sea. The plan had been to take a handful of folks down there to potter around, relax, make bonfires on the beach and generally not be at a music festival - which seems to be the only other time we get together. As the trip became more popular that began to change - the last time I checked in on the thread there was talk of Burning Man-esque burns and fancy dress. Having done several festivals already this year, and not really wanting another manic weekend, I decided on Tuesday to give it a miss.
The thing is: was that the depression sneaking back? I don't know. It's certainly similar to my problematic behaviour of avoiding social occasions but that might just be coincidence. It's frustrating to not know my own motives. Should I be hurrying back to the meds to fix it - or was it unrelated? Should I even go back to the meds at all?