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I've had a long, painful day. But here toward the end it has definitely brightened up. I recently added some cool new people to my Plurk (and where are the rest of you, get your butts over there and join my network). It started because I wanted the last four people to get to 200 on my flist. But I wasn't just inviting anyone. So I picked a few interesting women, mostly pagan, and invited them to join me. It was the best new friends I have added in such a long time.

One of them, who is in Georgia, is actually from the Bay area and will be visiting here. I think we are going to hit it off really well! She mostly know Burners in this area and although I'm not a Burner, I probably know some of the same people. The good thing about this is Burners are PROBABLY not a part of M's circle. He hangs with a younger set than that, or with folks who do younger folks. So there is little chance I'll run into him or anyone who knows him. Always a high priority when I'm looking to get involved.

Oh, hell, now I'm here, update other stuff that is going on. My gaming group is going pretty well. There have been glitches. I've been frustrated a few times, but I really like the people and we have been working it out. Well, after our last game session, where I expressed considerable frustration at the storyteller herding us to what he wanted, he decided he was burned out on Mage and we are going to do D&D for a bit. I'm ecstatic cuz I love D&D. I did end up being a gnome bard, as I was the last one to pick and that was what was left. And my boys DID express horror and disbelief in Wow, but I remember playing Fluffy with fondness. So I'm working on the back story of my new gnome, Kirsa. Which is German for cherry, so those of you who know me probably know which way I'm going with this.

Oh well, I had a lot more I was going to write. I seem to wander from social site to social site, lighting in one for a day or so and moving on and today was my LJ day. But one of my clients just popped in and asked me to go over to the hospital to take a look at the printer there. Who am I to turn down a extra $20 cash? Everyone have a great weekend.

The movie is going well. I can't discuss it a lot, most of it is kind of . . .classified? And will only be released as rumor via gossip mills. LOL We had a meeting of much of the technical staff and a couple of the actors earlier this week and it went well. So things are moving along. On other entertainment fronts, we are coming up on five years that I have been sponsoring Toastmaster Time.

This is going to be meandering post. It's been an exciting morning already and I'm totally stoked that my friend, Kim, for SoCal will be here this evening. Disappointed cuz we couldn't get a turkey . . .who knew you can't find one this time of year. Maybe I've always just had one in the freezer before when I wanted one. We are having ham instead.

I was delighted to find an email in my inbox this morning for the incredibly clever Evan Nichols who does the webcomic Ask Dr Eldritch. I had commented on a recent comic in the askdreldritch lj group and said I was going to have to make a tshirt of my favorite quote for when I'm in Louisiana taking the zombie movie next spring. Evan added that quote to his Cafepress shop . . and even in a large enough size I can get a baggy one. <3s Evan Nichols.

He notes on his comic today, btw, that he is looking for a publisher for his first book of Ask Dr Eldritch comics. Probably no one here has any resources, but you never know if you don't ask. I'll be plurking and twittering his request to my increasing flist of bloggers and reporters. I'm not sure how that is happening. Well, yes I am. I joined a link love list a while back and gained a few folks from that and it's just snowballed. Apparently even young people find me incredibly amusing.

Been researching Horror and SciFi cons for the lovely shakurmunymakrr . Alas, one of the best is happening as we speak. But there's always next year. Probably won't go to Silicon. There are still tender spots in my heart from last year and on days like today when I so miss M . . so need someone to hug while I squeal about exciting stuff . . . the thought of even being in the same building as him makes my throat get tight and tears come to my eyes. ::sigh:: So much for "if you love something let it go" . . .or maybe it is true. And he never really loved me at all. Bah. Need to stop this. Must find something cheerful. Pausing to go plurk for funnies.

Other interesting news. Jonathon Coulton's wife had a son today. There's a donate button his page. I sent only a tiny little something as a baby gift. Not like I know him or have ever met him or anything but . . .well. I don't know. Just cuz.

Okay, I need to go and at least pretend like I'm doing work. :D Laters

You have the strength of character now to feel so self-confident that you aren't afraid of failure, even if you are currently facing a setback. You don't have time to waste on feeling discouraged; you must improve on what you have already done and set your new plan into place. Remember, the foundations you are building are merely to keep you grounded through the transformations ahead.

Oh, man, I hope. I'm tired of hurting, of being alone and sad and afraid. I want me back . .I want the strong, powerful woman who gave up everything to follow the man she loved, only to be abandoned, sick and hurting. I want the woman who that man asked, "Are you ever not sure of yourself?" back. I want to think about meeting new people and not wonder why anyone would want to know me . .stupid, fat and ugly. I want to lay down to sleep and not have my chest convulse in shame and despair. ::cries:: Where are you, person I worked so hard to build from a broken, damaged little girl. How did he break you when beatings and rape and hatred had failed? Come home, please.

Oh, you get the odd response, but mostly LJers seem to be solitary consumers of others' lives, giving the occasional support. It's not a great place for lots of interaction, for fast, witty repartee. It's why I have accounts so many places, trying to find a place that gives me what I need. Sometimes I need to argue, so there's Newsvine. That has been a good place for me and I got a surprising amount of support from folks during my recent near terminal depression (after having M stop by my house and rip my heart out by just being in my space.) But even that can take a while to get conversations going. I'm enjoying Twitter, where I can do things like send Wil Wheaton pics of cookies and milk when he's having a bad day. But even there, the exchanges are minimal, mostly giving information or brief encouragement, because it's difficult to follow the thread of conversation.

Enter Plurk. I'm only just getting started, but I was invited by a delightful young woman in Europe and have picked up a couple of friends and I cannot wait until I get more fascinating and amusing folks. It is, as one friend observed, more about conversation and less about vanity. If you are interested in a faster paced social network site with a much smaller footprint, processing wise, than things like Facebook and Myspace, check put Plurk. And, if you want, add me as a friend. And, by all means, check out M's vintage erotica that she's shared. Nekkid ( * )( * ) ftw.

Now if they'll just add it to Digsby.

and this is the first time I could park in the garage. A side effect of having the car broken into and my keys taken. Hey, I'm not complaining. We have the third load of computer bits in the back of the car to go to the recycler. So far we have made about $80. I'm expecting that as we get to the stack of working boxes that will increase significantly. They pay a much higher price for working computers. And we have a couple more monitors in the main house.

Yesterday was a bit stressful. I came into the office already incredibly depressed to find that I could not log in . . .my computer was having fits again. I've noticed, as I believe I've mentioned before, that I tend to have really bad Mondays when I've had emotionally draining weekends . .it's like the computer KNOWS I don't have the energy to deal with it. As irrational as that is. This time, thank the gods, I was able to repair the installation and I've finally been able to repair all the damned registry errors that no utility had been able to repair. I was momentarily elated at my extreme middle aged geekiness but even that was not able to pull me out of my doldrums.

Wow, it looks like I'm managing to do this about once a month. Well, look at the bright side. That's almost more consistent than I have ever been. LOL

As usual, my weekend revolved around WoW. After Saturday, that is. Saturday was the monthly Stanford vampire visit. ::sigh:: Given how much I like having roots, being known . .it's amazing I've wandered as much as I have. It is SO awesome that everyone knows us. And are so happy to see us. Yeah, I know. They want our blood. But . . .it's still nice. They've gotten a new (or at least new to me) intake technician. She had to be in her 70s. She was so funny. At first she seems a bit . .straight laced. But as we chatted she is a wild one. LOL I guess like me. I could walk into any main stream Christian congregation and immediately be taken in and adored as a "normal" person. And we all know how normal I'm NOT. ::giggles::

I meant to sit down and start writing my adventures yesterday but kept getting distracted. At least I have an excuse. I was the first on in at Stanford so I had time to give 3 units of platelets . . .my brain is deprived (NO, not depraved, deprived). Always an adventure to go and do that. Being a bit of an attention whore, all the adoration of the tech is so nice. Yes, I know they are nice to everyone, but they make it seem like you are the most special of all.

This time I watched Daredevil. I had seen it, possibly in the theatre, when it came out. I think I might have been more impressed with it this time. Maybe just a different frame of mind. This time I was more aware that for people like me, who actually grew up reading these comics books, it really does capture the flavor. Yeah, yeah I know a lot of us want them to appeal more to us as adult, but there's something to be said for transporting us back to lying with our feet propped up on the back of the couch where we are hiding cuz mom will have fits we are STILL not doing our chores. :D

Although I never personally purchase any, I saved my money for REAL books I intended to have forever. (And ,which, I do not because of one crisis or another) But I had a friend whose brother, among his other totally intriguing virtues, bought them as soon as they came out. And when I would go over and spend nights and weekends with her, I would catch up on all of them. She read the icky ones . . .well, not icky, I just didn't have much use for the Archies. Give me Spiderman and Superman and the Hulk.

So, from that perspective, it works very well. The villains were incredibly one dimensional. The special effects were good. The angst palpable. I enjoyed more this time than the last.

Yes, speaking of Linda. Have I mentioned her here or was it in a locked post?

It's shaping up to be another splendid day. Looks like we got the rainy season out of the way and summer is upon us. I was outside a bit ago, while I waited for coffee, checking the garden. The radishes are just poking up. The cilantro and parsley is looking nice. A couple of the potatoes are breaking ground, too. After church I need to get Matt to stop at OSH and get some blocks and soil and probably some peppers and cucumbers. I was going to start the cucumber from seed but . . eh. Takes so much longer. I'll maybe start some seed for later planting or put it in the bed . . . I'm guessing that will let me have a pretty good crop until at least November.

I'm a bit surprised I'm so perky so early. Had another late night. We did Karazhan again, and then I healed Black Morass. Only got down one boss. We were seriously under powered "damage per second" wise. There's a delightful boy from Brazil in my guild and he seldom plays and NEVER gets picked to go to Karazhan because . .well, he sucks. I adore him, but he is just not a good player. So we did terrific GETTING to the boss, Maiden, but we wiped so many times we were on our last self-rez (Those in the know, three shamans and three warlocks, do the math. LOL) with stuff spawning in the halls. Also, we had a PUG (pickup group) guy who just took over and bossed folks around. One of the kids whispered me and said he was getting annoyed. That is was okay that Mari (Jenni) bossed us around and belittled us, but he didn't like a stranger doing it. :D

Ah, and I secured, even more, my hold on the hearts of my 20 something guild mates