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| Saturday, December 8th, 2007 | |
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| _11:21 pm_[ai_paulina] |
I am at the close of my first semester as an art student and feel as though my view of art has become unjustly negative. The last few months have been intense -- magnified like a pressure-cooker by the startling revelation of Martin Beck, a graduate alumni at my school who stated that, "those for whom art is their life become extremely dull." I'm beginning to question whether art is really the noble pursuit that it appears to be. I began to think that perhaps art is full of the same paradoxes as life. More specifically, that who enter college as artists, only to change their major in the course of time are the ones who preserve the basest form and enjoyment of art. It's the ones who continue in the art profession who ultimately sell out -- not because they're corrupt or even because they're jaded (although that tends to happen anyway) -- but because they're forced to sell themselves to make a living. The once pure and unadulterated passion becomes tarnished, and that is inevitable when you make a living doing what you love.The following is a conversation I had with a friend over lunch. A little armchair economics minus the economics.What is Art?Defining something that doesn't make sense.Art as a MetaphorArt is creative bullshit.Art is aesthetically pleasing crap.Contemporary art is glorified crap.Performance art is an excuse for exhibitionists to strip naked.Art is an inventive channel to express everything that does not belong with common sense.Miscellaneous ArtArt is like an itch that won’t go away.Art is like Vaseline. When you put it on, it sticks to everything.Art is like a black pawn that wants to be white. No matter what color it is, it’s still a pawn and it’s still going to get trashed.Art as FoodArt is like bread. They can be white, brown, or yellow, but when you put them in the toaster, they all get burned.Art is like an unkosher dumpling. It’s thin and delicate on the outside, but inside it’s just vulgar.Art as SexArt is like going out at night looking to get laid. Sometimes you get lucky, and sometimes you don’t.Art is like prostitution. The most successful artist has mastered the art of selling herself.Art is like having sex when your brain has turned to mush. It doesn’t take any intelligence to do.Art is like a Las Vegas prostitute: a luxury you can't afford.Art is like a whore that has reached her prime: it becomes cheapened over time.Art as a Lesson in FutilityArt is like an addict coming out of an ether binge. Any effort to resist is futile.Contemporary art is like counting the hairs on your head. It’s (f******) pointless.Real art is like counting the hairs on your head. It’s (f******) impossible. (3 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Saturday, November 10th, 2007 | |
| _6:24 am_[sunuvaprechaman] |
Why Are Religious People Irritating Me So Much Typically, I don't like these online communities cuz the people in em have ended up feeling really negative to my gut. Currently, I'm transforming into a wish I made years ago, and that transformation insist I stay in doors and keep to myself a lot. Hence, I'm here letting loose, being myself, and speaking my mind. Are any of you all religious? I was brought up to be religious, but I'm not anymore. Lately, with the exception of a few, I find religious people very irritable. I can't even speak with them extensively, if at all, without them irritating me. Anyone out there know what I mean? Current Mood:  annoyed (Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, October 13th, 2004 | |
| _12:32 am_[poe_kf] |
101001001101010101010 Ma'am if I'll tell you onceI'll tell you a thousand timesYou can't report social crimes**( Read more...Collapse )** Current Mood: 1010101010 (4 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Thursday, September 23rd, 2004 | |
| _4:52 pm_[drainedsilver] |
hi everyone. so far i've read "l'étranger" and "caligula" and loved both. i think what i loved most about "l'étranger" was the simplicity. it was genius and simple. it didn't HAVE to be complicated to be wonderful.forgive me for posting a little off-topic, but i've bene looking for a picture of camus where he's reading a paper that says "EN AVANT!". my french class had a laminated poster of it, but i couldn't find the picture on google or corbis. if anyone has any idea where i can find this picture, i'd really appreciate the help. thanks!cross-posted. (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Friday, September 10th, 2004 | |
| _1:35 pm_[chillmode77] |
Poem, by me. Goes like this... If the Spoken Words To Disguise the MindAre All There is To Hide BehindIllusion Fades And Rides the TideTo Where the Fridged Truth Resides Current Mood:  blah (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Saturday, August 21st, 2004 | |
| _1:39 pm_[elbativenisti] |
With Much Respect to Anton Chekhov ( On Mortality: A Carnival Tale by Anton ChekhovCollapse ) Current Mood:  bemused (Comment on this) |
| Monday, August 16th, 2004 | |
| _2:33 am_[chillmode77] |
Portrait in Motion Time moves to fast to slow downLife continues to fight the currentConvinced the clock is poking funCertain the rate is too highDecided on parting waysBut always looking over a shoulderTo many thoughts to think for a thoughtSo many words to say for the statementImpulse tempting to the mindSilence is faster than wordsNo need to set it to motionIt is already doneLook over a shoulderThere it wasCurrent Mood:  contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Monday, August 9th, 2004 | |
| _10:33 pm_[pastelsandblood] | happiness is selfishness agree/disagree?im interested in hearing others' views.(Jessica) (11 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, August 8th, 2004 | |
| _5:39 pm_[pastelsandblood] | hey im new my name is jessica. my favorite things to do are to write and drink. usually in combination. my favorite authors are sartre, mckenna, engels, camus...etc..my favorite books are gravity's rainbow, dangerous angels, the man who turned on the world, and nausea. i love music, art, creating....my aim is atleasturglmrous. feel free to contact me. or add my journal, etc....this is an excerpt from my journal:if your not going to read the whole thing, please dont bother to read any of it, as it is more of a painting than a story...its hard to explain. thanks.story time:a few days ago...i was walking down martel, to melrose. hollywood is where my heart is. its a little storybook land. with shadows and witch women walking their hybrid wolf dogs- so out of place like features resculped by a surgeons knife on the previously untainted canvas of a face.....like puzzle pieces scattered in the wind.....misfits sticking together in bubbles of storms, tar and feathers, accidently pairing up and piling on the powder to cover it all up. the ridiculousness of everything. homeless people sleeping on the street. all day. THEY SLEEP ALL DAY. home-less. without money you are immobile. shouldnt seeing someone sleeping on a busy street midday be just as big a suprise as seeing a dragon flying across the fucking sky? no...immobility makes you disapear. get this. money does not buy happiness..hahaha of course, thats a completely silly notion. but money buys TIME......its pretty simple if you just think about it. an item of luxury is worth a certain amount of money...it takes a certain amount of time to make it, you are willing to put out a certain amount of time to work to make the money to pay for the item...etc. so the way i see money is basically an applicable measurement of time created to capitalize on peoples differences. once upon a time there was this big bubble, and it was made of little pixels, little particles. the air was clean and everyone could breath. language was smooth and it rolled along tongues and bounced over lips and sung to trees and stroked sweaty hair back from shaking bodies when necessary. it was used in a non threatening way. god was in nature. something began to change...for the worse...slowly...and then time sped up...somgthing was changing for the worse exponentially. brains went numb with capsules that looked like candy, communication started shutting down out side of the workplace. factories guarded the skyline and singing could no longer permeate the sound walls set up by groups of soul stealers who had taken advantage of the anarcho system previously responsible for sharing of time pixels and energy particles. language halted. brains continued to grow, to match the exponentially growing universe, the exploding chaos that no longer looked like an opening rose bud but more like a once treasured, antique home doused with gasoline and lit with a single match. millions of voices hummed marches in minor keys and chanted from thousands of dark corners "destruction is creation" "destruction is creation". everything was getting faster and smaller and more obscure. children were multiplying and organs and parts were getting misdistributed. disease was abound. there were just too many things to take care of. the universe was slowly creating another dimension inside of a tunnel that looked like an underground london subway with every thing sublimnal in the form of beautiful swirling psychedlic murals coating its walls. this is still going on, preperation in the background and in the foreground: levitating spirals of DNA, historical events with similarity but not symmetry making track marks along glowing helixes. we are coming to the tip of things. battles make rivers that flood market places and eye sockets and bathtubs with shimmering army wives resting below the face of the water: a meeting point. and the money keeps piling in, because people are restless, and god is getting sucked out of the water from high tech vacuums. well, brains continue to grow, but language has long since halted. homeostasis has become foreign to internal and external systems. symbiosis is dead, dictators have made parasitic relationships mandatory and anyone caught trying to balance both sides of the equation is labeled clinically messed-up-in-the-head. "WHAT equation?" they say, and LAUGH and laugh and laugh while razors pile up inside your dresser and dreams of hooks catching wrists in water haunt your resting mind. mothers stroking raised scars. nightmares of validation. everyone hates how their appearance. noone knows what they look like to the rest of the world. language has become an exchange of cliches. language has become capitalism. supply and demand. suck it up, little girl. crying is illegal. crying is illegal. crying is illegal. repetition is for retards.there are no such thing as nightmares anymore. they are classified as dreams. sometimes getting fucked up and selling your soul for a glimpse of a blurred reflection vomiting in a bathroom stall can be passed off as a dream too. sometimes. sickness has been stemming from an inablity to voice exponentiallly growing emotions becausee of nonexistant letters of the alphabet. existential transactions appear to occur in cool offices (for some reason its always twilight and theres always dust on the ledge of the window next to the sofa). but the doctor doesnt really want to be there and the patient doesnt really want to talk to the doctor...they just fish around in a stale pool of tank water that hasnt been changed in ages..oh...ages..fish around for different combinations and they break apart cliches which become puzzle pieces which get paired up and stuck together tar and feathers like mismatched features resculpted and plastered on a previously innocent human face. broken souls. psychiatric diseases of intelligence. cant you see? when it comes back to a primal scream, its a sign that language can no longer transcend cognition. so on comes the medication. it boosts self esteem. no, it numbs it. movements become free-er for designated periods of time. people meet on weekends to self medicate and look in mirrors and cry together. but hangovers wear off, and those sharp pains come back. like the one behind my ear, closest to my left occipital lobe. my eye blurs when it happens. i worry that i have a slowly growing brain tumor. soon it will be growing exponentially. tears come to my eyes when i look out the window at the jacarandas, the news induces no type of emotional reaction. ive already seen headless dan at countless friends houses when i was in highschool. im seventeen. i have very few memories. 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| Monday, July 12th, 2004 | |
| _5:26 pm_[stomach_cancer] |
so! kurrently i am reading The Rebel by Camus, fascinating essay. i am not far into it being i usually have to stop every few paragraphs and get my diktionary out, but so far what i have found most amazing about he;s said is how he explained that Satan rebelled from Gosd for a reason, something you rarely ever hear talked about, bekause God was oppressing him. which is true, Satan had realy done little wrong but be a man, he wished to bekome equal to God, and for this crime he was punished and kaste into hell. it's an interesting thought, i have neve rheard it explaiend that wya before. but makes perfekt sense, God, for being such a just being, is truly unjust, oppressing his folowers, and then, oddly enough, basikally kreating the world in the likeness of what he despised. seems as thouhg humans are just shooting praktice for the All Mighty. i did a poor job explaining it though really, so just read the book. it's awesome, and fun, and soemtime dance late in the veening hwne your winding down in front fo the roaring television with a fine chardonet/pepsi in your hand. (between ytou and me, the book lieks friends, and oftne performs elaborate dances when Joey tells jokes) (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Friday, July 9th, 2004 | |
| _2:20 am_[stomach_cancer] |
haha so this has nothing to do with this kommunity, but i'm fixing to buy a Sonic Youth album, but i don't know much about any albums in partikular...so if anyone else likes them already and would rekomend an album to me i'd kry fabulously. THANK YOU! (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Monday, June 7th, 2004 | |
| _11:50 pm_[stomach_cancer] |
so a few days ago i finished The Fall by Camus...it was nothing less than amazing, as expekted. a garden grew from my groin and had so much street rep it fuking pwns my neighborhood, so insane. your guys' pets should be here to see it, seriously! camus is simply amazing. you know? seriously? like, woah! haha alright, so i bought Nausea a kouple days ago and now i ma excited to begin reading it. anyone wnat to read it with me? rokin (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, June 6th, 2004 | |
| _1:20 am_[scarletscars] |
hi i just came across this lj.the reason why i joined is to see if anyone has any ideas/suggestions for literature expanding on the belief that all experiences, "good" or "bad," are equally important and essential when dealing with chracter building and experience. ive been into existentialism for almost three years and am trying to influence others.( my reasonCollapse ) (5 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, May 30th, 2004 | |
| _9:10 pm_[stomach_cancer] |
howdy! i am sean, i;m 17 and i want to kiss albert camus. i just diskovered this kommunity while searching around and i think i might like it. i am very big on existentialism since i read about Camus in an Orchid album. i then read the stranger and fell in love with it. other existentialist writings i;ve read would be The Fall by Camus, Crime and Punishment by Dostoevsky and am kurrently putting a mean dent in The Rebel, a critical essay by Camus. i dabble with other philosophers too, mostly Neitszche bekause he is kommon and easy to find (and he is born on my birthday). i am young to philosophy and existentialism, not even a year have i known about Camus, so i am hoping to learn more literature and ideas through here. also, i am a terrible typer for which i apologize if i left any errors, i did by best, and i spell with k's rather than c's bekause the letter c is redundant. want to know more about my personal idea's writings, piktures of my friends dressed in womens excersising outfits and fighting in parking lots visit my lj. Current Mood: rht4urjrht (Comment on this) |
| Friday, March 26th, 2004 | |
| _7:07 pm_[helen_the_felon] |
if you feel like reading... Truth does not come easily to those who have constant contradictions inside of them. You will find yourself deceiving others to be accepted, when reality is, you cannot accept yourself. Constant arguing between your heart and mind creates an imbalance and an improper dipiction of yourself. Those who are unhappy fit this description. They have this fake image of themselves upon other people and tend to fuck them over, might be with realization but uncaring for the most part. When the arguing inside of them starts to grow, the realness tries to put itself on someone else. These people wonder why no one cares about thier problems. It's because of this fake reflection. One great feeling is when someone has slapped you across the face in words and you do not flush with anger for you know yourself. The other person resists this temptation of constant detesting and gives up. For this will not satisfy the depression that hangs around hungrily. Once you are calm, once you can sit and feel content, once something demoralizing and belittling has just happened and afterwards it has no effect, once all of this, your mind and heart have harmonized with eachother creating your inner solitary. Current Mood: apathetic (6 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004 | |
| _8:20 pm_[paradoxprincess] |
Nausea hey. new to the community. just wanted to recommend "Nausea" by Jean-Paul Sartre. it's incredibly fascinating,and he has a great style of writing. (3 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Saturday, January 24th, 2004 | |
| _1:45 pm_[ppurplehaze] |
hold me closer tiny dancer i'm new. and this is my first post. i dont know how this community works but i fell in love with it ... just by looking at the name. i fell in love with Albert Camus when i read the stranger. i went on to read his philosophy on The Absurdman.i'm currently reading The Plague. it's great so far. (4 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, January 7th, 2004 | |
| _4:22 am_[chillmode77] |
Haiku If love was your wineOn your favorite tableWould you set coastersSeparate your mindFrom all the pain of todayWith my gentle kissCurrent Mood:  groggy (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, January 4th, 2004 | |
| _4:47 pm_[chillmode77] |
Give me what I want Time allows no more hesitationI am going to get what I want from youTo many lonely nights to refuseYou are going to do what I want you toThe strength of lust is uncontrollableI will make you follow my leadImpatient blood thrusts thru the veinsYou will give me what I needWe will finish what is started - play no more games We will reach new heights - our veins full of flamesThough you were the dealer, I am the buyerJust like the rabbit, I am back in the briarIf this pissed you off, please send me a message, we need to talkCurrent Mood:  mischievous (11 Comments |Comment on this) |
| _5:39 am_[chillmode77] |
I call this "My new pick-up Line" _My intentions are pure and innocentI ask nothing but to know youTo touch youTo feel youTo taste youTo satisfy your deepest desiresMy intentions are pure and innocent_If you think it is good: Fear not ladys, I swear never to use this on some wounded dove.If you think it is not: Let me know, please, I hate being slapped (a little)Current Mood: predatory (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
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