[One Blind Eye] (original) (raw)

There seems to be this running theme throughout this entire month and a few weeks before. My boyfriend and I, and I am sure you and your own, are having troubles keeping his dick out of places it's not suppose to be in. I don't claim to be the most Christian person in the world and in fact I view myself as a truely American Hypocrite, however I have three standards that I will not cross:

1. No alcohol- I've seen way to much bad come from the abuse of it and my blood tells me I'm in danger of becoming an alcoholic. No drink for miss HB, without the right trustworthy people around.
2. One God- I may not like Him, but He's there. I may not trust Him or even want to believe in Him, but He is real.
3. No Sex- Until marriage, at least. Wither it be male or female, I do believe that the emotional and physical connection that comes with it is meant for your spouse only.

This last one, however, is being shaken. It wouldn't have been a terrible problem if my particular experience of the "we almost did it..." was...normal. His own mother is very protective of him. He doesn't have quite the freedoms that I had when I was his age, and I believe that those freedoms helped me...grow up in a different way. I do not go home to my own family every night, and have not, at least during the school year, since I was ten. I suppose that has made me become a little more independent then most my own age…if not independent, then self-dependent.

Both of us have grown up in Christian environments our entire lives and have had "No sex ‘till marriage" pounded into our brains. We grew up viewing teens that have had sex as unclean and very different from how we should be. I suppose I see this...outlook wrong. I'm not saying that my own boyfriend is not a strong-minded person; however the act of us getting incredibly close to having sex sent him into a panic attack. I do believe that because of how our parents made the issue so "this is the only way it is suppose to be, and there is no second option", it put so much pressure on us as teens to become that perfect, no sex, relationship that it was defiantly worthy of having a panic attack over.

I suppose the step that both of us missed,was the reassurance that if it did happen it was not the end of our being able to have a Christian high-school relationship. I do believe that sex should be avoided at all costs as a teen and you don't want to act as if when you sin there are no consequences. However, I believe that we have to find that mid point between letting kids know that something is wrong and between telling them that something is so utterly condemnable.