dip the bow in honey (original) (raw)

So it's been a while since I posted here, huh! I think I set it so that everyone can join now and so if you're a member you can read, so log in, basically. I haven't used this platform in years, I don't think many people do, but I like to keep it as a catalog of my old fanfics of when I was like, 15 years old.

I got out of the kpop fandom at a certain point, probably around 2014-ish, due to some personal stuff and I really just listen to the music that came out when I was still invested. I write (and I draw now! Like I'm a pretty decent artist! Who would have thought?!) mainly now for other fandoms, specifically Fate/ and its' spin-offs. If that interests you, my ao3 is @poludeuces. I will say that my writing has improved so much, like I would blow my 15 year old to shame.

If you wanna hear the ramblings of someone who loves Alexandre Dumas out of all people way too much, my tumblr is @musketeersmasquerade and twitter is @musketeermasque.

I still really do love SNSD, I love Ryeowook, I think I fell even more for 2AM now that I'm older. I love Epik High, I think that's the group that has stayed with me the most as I've grown up.

I've graduated with my Bachelors in Environmental Geoscience, I can be a geologist in Ontario now. I'm dating a lovely girl and an amazing non-binary partner. I'm extremely happy and blessed.

But there's one big change:

I realized not soon after I stopped writing here that Jules, or Je, isn't me. I realized why I use Jules instead of my real name, which is distinctly feminine. I'm a trans man. I used fanfics to help make that realization and I'm so thankful for that. I think there is certainly some of that in my fics, as I read them back, but it also makes it... uncomfortable for me to come back here sometimes because it's so distinctly linked to when I was a girl. I've come out, I'm over two years on testosterone now, I'm in the process of getting top surgery, I'm getting better.

This time here really helped when I was trying to develop a personality and also come to realization that I a) liked girls and b) may actually be a guy. I hope I can reconnect with some of you again, especially my friends, if they see this somehow.

I'm going to keep this up, and you can read them, honestly I probably wouldn't even care if people stole them now lol. I don't think I'd be able to like write fanfics without doing more research honestly, I haven't been following their lives mostly just listening to music, and I don't know much about the new fangled groups lmao.

Anyways, to keep this short, thanks, I love you, and I hope to be able to reconnect with some of you, not as Jules, but as Alistair.

- mod