~ just listen to me (original) (raw)

	[03 Jul 2005|05:02pm]
[ **mood** | creative ] hi is anyone every going to repost on this journal or not lol. Well I am just telling you guys hi and that i hope everthing with you are going fine and well and that we need to weak up this journal lol.
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Contest #1	[19 Sep 2004|06:24pm]
[ **mood** | bitchy ] I don't know how to use a live cut so I am just going to write it here sorryYou don't know meI am not the person you want I am not the one that you need I am just here to let you feel better to let you feel needI have no mom but yet you say that you are my momwhat is am mom I don't need one nor want one I can never see what a mom is nor know who or what a mom is at allI can never know what a mom is but I know that I well never treak a person like you do. You act like everthing is ok but we both know that nothing is ok that nothing can be okYou know that I go to my room and cut cuz of the words you tell me I think that you like knowing that your words make me want to cut and that you don't know how to not say them or do you and you don't want to stop makeing my feel pain cuz you have felt so much pain when you where I kid anf oyu take it out on my is that about this is cuz you hate me or do you just want me to feel like this
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face with no face	[13 Sep 2004|04:27pm]
[ **mood** | sad ] you wont leave you sit there and say nothing but words that hurt you are not my friend why do you still hunt me, you never leave you just sit there and tell me that I am no good and that I suck, I want you to leave but I can't let you leave with out you who would I be just this girl that is lost and cunfuse in this world that people love, I can't get you out of my head and you won't leave. I want you gone can't you see that I have no need for you at all and that there is nothig for you anymore that you are just in the past and that is where you are going to stay at and never caming back if I can help it nothing more then a face wih out a face nothing more then something that I made up so why can't I unmake you why can't I let you go and just move on cuz with out you I would be the face with no face
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	[13 Sep 2004|03:30pm]
[ **mood** | busy ] I am siting here with my only friendthe one that hurts me the one that I can hurt my self withthe one that makes me bleedthe one that lets me know that I am alive the one that it all ways there no mater what I dothe one that I can turn to and go tomy knife the only thing that I really know what it dose to me.
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	[12 Sep 2004|07:10pm]
[ **mood** | depressed ] I am just going to write down what I feel it maybe a peom or who knowsI am not what you want nor do you want meI can't look the way you want me to lookI am not you I am meI can't be something that I am notI am not the reason why you fight with dadI am not the one who saids that they want to dieI am not that little girl who dose not know what is going onI am a teenage I have know what haves be going on with youI am the one that trieds to make things work You are the one that makes me feel the way I doI thought that you where I mother but would a mother sit there and talk about her childentalk about the way she looks the things she dose and dose not dodose a mother treak you like a stourger or let they love youdose a mother tell you that you are something that she wishes never stayed alivedose a mom tell you that you are the reason that she fights with the man "she so calles loves"the one that saids that life would be better if you where gonein my eyes your are no mother but I person that needs to find them self and grow upsorry if that saids like whinning and everthing I just write down what I was feeling hope you like
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a few poems..	[12 Sep 2004|12:26pm]
[ **mood** | blah ] and im dying insidebut my smile covers it welland i laugh at your jokesthough i just want to cryand these mysterious marksthey make you starebut ask me why?you wouldnt dare.**this one isnt really a complete poem, just words that sorta flowed out of my head and i quickly wrote down. some lines may have come from other sources, so if they did just let me know.My sorrows were washed away with the rain,But indifference is harder to deal with than pain.Try as I might to search for emotion,I found none insde which would cause a comotion.So when I did feel my body go numb,I turned to a friend who could make my pain blossum.Dressed up in silver, he gave me a kiss,And what I felt next was an ultimate bliss.The sting of his lips made my body cry,These crimson tears of mine, they're what keep me alive.As I lie awake at night,Letting my mind wanderAnd I try so hard to fightthis urge that I desireThoughts go running through my headI just want them to stopI think I know the remedyLet's give this thing a shotI reach under my mattressPull out my addictionWith one quick stroke I have begunTo paint myself a pictureI'll hide my art from everyoneAlthough I'm sure they'll seeAnd if they ask who did itI'll say it wasn't meYou see, my lovely creationIt's something that I loveBut I'm sure no one will feel the sameSince my medium is blood.
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Hey All.	[12 Sep 2004|03:24pm]
[ **mood** | blah ] Hey Everyone. I'm new here - this is a great idea for a community by the way! Anyway heres a poem I wrote. Hope you like it!**Smile Again.**As time ticks by, and days flow past,I wonder how much longer I can last.Can I make it through this pain?And come out with a smile again?Or will I just escape this life,And end my misery with this knife?Cuts and burns take over my arm,And I wish I could stop doing harm.But the pain inside keeps growing worse,I often wonder Is this all a curse?Or is it all just meant to be,A pain filled ride through life for me??
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