Blogging the healing journey and beyond...'s Journal (original) (raw)

10:05a

this is the longest i have been actively trying to be a raw foodist/fruitarian - since May 22. it's been back and forth from whole food vegan to raw to fuitarian, but it's constantly in my awareness. well my brother and i are on day 3 of eating only fruit - we started on a powerful day as saturday was a 13 ahau day (Mayan calendar). the mornings get easier and so do the afternoons i suppose, but still very strong cravings. i actually wanted watermelon juice this morning, where normally i have to almost force myself to eat something sweet. i usually only want greens and something crunchy with vinegar and oil and salt and garlic and spices, and cooked starch. i've been eating lots of avocado, and actually an avocado, tomato, okra salad really helps curb a craving in the right way, oh yeah!

over here we have a 30 day Raise your Standards Challenge starting this wednesday, July 25. the board itself is a fruitarian forum, and everyone who has agreed to do the Challenge is either going to eat fruit only or fast or do positive thinking, or all of the above! i'm thinking since i'll be on day 5 of fruit with my brother when it starts that i'll then undertake a seven day fast. i have heard that seven days of fasting is enough to reset the sensitivity of the taste buds, so that we can enjoy our natural foods as much or more than all the chemically stimulating "foods" we're used to (it'd be nice to get that out of the way). so, 30 days is enough to get into the habit of being a fruit eater, and then my tuniversary (again from the Mayan calendar - of the 260 spiritually distinct days, the one i was born on) is on September 8, a good day to begin the full cleanse.

and healing from a different view...saturday there was also a day long deeksha (or Oneness Blessing (OB) as it is now called here) intensive. it was a wonderful day. a long time ago i got over (at least the majority of) the pain from my mother's death. but i noticed as we were doing a meditation to heal the relationship with our parents, that i really didn't feel a deep love or gratitude for her. same for my father. that is something i would like resolved. and i do think a lot about the trials and tribulations of childhood and i guess as long as i still feel sting behind those, i am not free of their bindings. only when love shines through and everything else is a fading story will the healing be complete.