Welcome to My World - July 21, 2004 (original) (raw)

9:41PM

i don't know what to say. i just felt like i had to make a post. i'm having one of those blah moments where you can't feel anything. it's like you're completely numb, physically and emotionally.

i miss lauren. she gave me hugs. i don't get hugs anymore. i really need to be held right now. just to be held by someone and know that i'm loved. just have someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay. everything is going wrong at once. if it were spread out i might be able to deal with it better, but i can't take all of these issues at once.

things have changed so much since school ended. i don't like it. i don't like it at all. i wish i could just turn back time and and fix everything. damn it this sucks.

it kills me when things are so screwed up and there's not a damn thing i can do to fix it. i hate seeing the people i love in pain. i hate it.

Current mood: blank