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| Wednesday, March 20th, 2013 | |
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| 10:01 pm | TL;DR I guess I'm an alcoholic, a higher functioning one, I limit my drinking to the evenings, end up feeling buzzed, go to bed, sometimes there's a mild hangover in the mornings, occasionally there's the day of light or no drinking when I'm away or there's company but alcohol is a very regular companion. Why? Hard to say, lack of social company partially, but then when I go out and mingle I feel out of place, I can fake it, I know the social conventions, I can be pleasant, charming, but fundamentally it's all just an act, a facade I put up to hide my reclusive self from company except for when I want it. Living on my own doesn't help, it makes it easier to withdraw, to shun the social contact, the same contact I crave when I'm on my own and feel like it's just a bother when I'm engaging in it. I need a purpose but I have no drive, I'm stuck in a job that pays very well but gives me no satisfaction, I just run through the mechanics and get the job done. I have no other marketable skills that I could use to provide for myself, let alone get even close to what I'm earning now, I'm caught in a comfortable gilded cage. First world problems indeed. What I seem to be lacking most is passion and enthusiasm, I get little manic bursts of activity where I get obsessed with a project until it's done, those are fun, I need something like that on a grander scale, something that provides that rush of excitement and purpose without burning out when the goal is reached. I seem to only be able to do that in short bursts though for immediately achievable goals, as soon as the scope gets too large this overwhelming force of CBA washes in and the momentum just disappears. It'd be nice if I could find something to give me lasting motivation to do the healthy thing, drink less, eat less, exercise more. I hate exercise, I don't mind the effort, it's just that it's mind numbingly dull, plus the massive waste of time going to and from the gym. (14 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Monday, October 4th, 2010 | |
| 8:30 pm | Spirit Day It's only a small gesture for each one of us, but hopefully it will amount to something that catches some notice.Originally posted by  neo_prodigy at Spirit Day  It’s been decided. On October 20th, 2010, we will wear purple in honor of the 6 gay boys who committed suicide in recent weeks/months due to homophobic abuse in their homes at at their schools. Purple represents Spirit on the LGBTQ flag and that’s exactly what we’d like all of you to have with you: spirit. Please know that times will get better and that you will meet people who will love you and respect you for who you are, no matter your sexuality. Please wear purple on October 20th. Tell your friends, family, co-workers, neighbors and schools.RIP Tyler Clementi, Seth Walsh (top)RIP Justin Aaberg, Raymond Chase (middle)RIP Asher Brown and Billy Lucas. (bottom)REBLOG to spread a message of love, unity and peace. (Comment on this) |
| Saturday, May 8th, 2010 | |
| 11:39 pm | So I've got a batch of ginger beer fermenting. The recipe calls for letting it sit like that for 24 hours, then bottle.What to do though, give it a stirr first, or try to get as little of the sediment in the bottles as possible, I'll take another two weeks on the bottle to finish fermenting, so I'd be inlcined to take it sediment and all.Anybody got experience with this? (5 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, April 11th, 2010 | |
| 10:53 am | Seal-cam Hey raycek, How'd that octopus taste? (Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, April 7th, 2010 | |
| 11:00 am | ( In the light of the wikileaks video, I couldn't help but snrking.Collapse ) (27 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, January 20th, 2010 | |
| 7:08 am | Hey ho, hey ho, to SFO we go! Current Mood:  chipper (5 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Monday, November 16th, 2009 | |
| 1:18 pm | Switzerland Spending the week in Zurich on business, so I'll be on the grid intermittantly. (3 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 | |
| 8:42 pm | Hey megadog how's it going with the wolf-rearing? (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Tuesday, September 29th, 2009 | |
| 10:18 am | I was just sitting chatting with a collegue and got a great idea for a short film.Think of something like The Office but with a twist that at the end the whole office is nothing but a psychiatric ward or a self-help group. (3 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Friday, September 25th, 2009 | |
| 10:28 pm | Too Big to Fall. Was just watching Litmus and no better have the costs and implications of the concept Too Big to Fall better been embodied as they are in the dressing down chief Tyrol gets from commander Adama. (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| 10:08 pm | Ostrich steak for dinner With a green salad and pommes duchesse, soooo mouthwateringly goood.Steak was seared on a grill pan and put in the oven with the potato puffs to finish cooking.Delicously pink on the inside, browned on the outside. (4 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Saturday, September 19th, 2009 | |
| 10:14 am | Hey Van, here's one for you. (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Tuesday, July 28th, 2009 | |
| 9:59 am | This is awesome (5 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Monday, June 29th, 2009 | |
| 11:40 pm | Stoatally awesome |
| Saturday, June 20th, 2009 | |
| 4:32 pm | I recognise this a bit too much in myself for comfort, perhaps I should take it to mind. (12 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Thursday, June 4th, 2009 | |
| 12:43 am | Quote of the evening! I suppose I'll be heading off to bed then... No wait! I was getting a beer! (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Saturday, May 9th, 2009 | |
| 10:42 pm | Writer's Block: Home Cooking Home Cooking When was the last time you cooked for yourself? What did you make? Reply 251 3 Hours ago, and it was vegetable fried rice with http://www.kitchen.amoores.com/2008/10/20/spicy-beef-stirfry-with-basil/It was nom.-K (4 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Friday, May 8th, 2009 | |
| 1:12 am | Requested: Aubergine-blue metallic; suggestions please. (9 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, April 5th, 2009 | |
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| Sunday, March 22nd, 2009 | |
| 10:43 pm | ( BSG Spoilers?Collapse ) (3 Comments |Comment on this) |
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