#lolirock fanart | kireiscorner (original) (raw)

I'm ending my hiatus today!

Sorry I've been out for so long. Realistically, I've been going through a lot and it wasn't just the change of moving out to California. For about maybe a couple years, I've been finding out some negative stuff. People who use to be my friends in this fandom lying about what happened between us to other people. Bullying and lying and mocking and fake friendships from people I thought I could trust. LoliRock use to not be like that and it got to the point where I didnt even want to draw it, let alone be in it. Then Moby died. I couldnt do it. Our loss of him took my drive away from me for the longest time and even now it's not 100%. My mom described it af feeling like we'd lost a child since we all were so close and concerned with him. When I said goodbye I thought I'd be able to see him, hear him at the door, running around in circles in excitement when I came back, but I lost him 2 days after moving. I got really depressed and anxious and got sick because of it. Not even Mephisto & Talia could bring me joy even though it's gotten me through some of the worst times in my life. It was all really hard because I felt alone and hated, even when I didnt do anything to deserve it. So I just stopped drawing or wanting to unless it was for school. At some point I felt like no one wanted it anyways. I spent my days as a recluse for a while and barely talked to anyone aside from my family. I spent my birthday alone in mourning. I didnt want to do anything. I would sleep long partially due to my health, but also because I didnt want to do anything. I felt really empty. This was a hard semester for me, but I've grown a bit and I've chosen to push back at the negativity and stop acknowledging those who wronged me out of concern for their feelings because mine are just as important. I want to be happier and get back to drawing what made me feel good, so this piece was like a release for me. I feel anxious still, but lighter. I'm doing the next right thing and growing up without those people because that's what's best for me. I cant control how people choose to see me or my decisions, but I can control how i react to them. I hope you all will continue by my side as I find my way again. Thank you for your support all this time! I'll do my best!

☆~Fighting!~☆

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When I get back to Oklahoma I will open orders for this poster if anyone wants a big print! I will also be opening a talisto Twitter as well!