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| Friday, November 11th, 2005 | |
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| _9:33 pm_[laura_lou87] |
i wrap my felt jacket around my shaking framenot as thin as i'd hope, but attractive enoughi walk out of the cheap, greasy spoon of a bar i'm not old enough to drink, and i didn't get any offersi sat, watching the ice melt into my diet soda, seperatingi wish i were a smoker, it'd have given me something to doinstead, i thought of performing acoustic covers of the bad songs the jukebox sangto make silence less awkward, i imaginei watch a drunken couplethe woman's lipstick is too red, it runs,scared for it's lifeto her cheekher bottlehis necki wonder if they knew eachother before a few drinkshers a cheap beerhis, a mixed somethingi can't tell from over herepart of me hopes they're strangers, it would make for a better storythe firmiliar face of a woman i've known most of my life walks over"can i get you anything, doll? 'nother soda? something to eat? you look starved""no thanks, i'm good"my napkin's soaked with the chilled sweat of my iceshe brings a plate of fries"but i...""it's on me"i pull out three wadded dollar bills, she shoves them back"keep it"i smile the best i canshe was right, i was starvingi watch a lonely man downing shotsof something hard,thick and browni gag, take a swallow of my flat, watered pepsi and breathehe must be so lonelyi want to take his picturebut my camera's in my carand it's freezing for sixty-five degreessixty degree november, i scribble on a matchbookmatchbooks reading something about free drinksit's nights like tonight i wish for braveryand drunkeness (Comment on this) |
| Thursday, September 15th, 2005 | |
| _9:38 am_[donthurtsailors] |
writing challenge of the week write about a performer. a folk singer, rock star, magician, las vegas dancer. write about james dean or marilyn monroe or harry houdini.here's some stuff on houdini i was reading, for inspiration..."From 1904 and throughout the 1910s, Houdini usually performed with great success in the United States. He would free himself from handcuffs, chains, ropes and straitjackets, often while hanging from a rope or suspended in water, sometimes in plain sight of the audience. In 1913, he introduced perhaps his most famous act, the Chinese Water Torture Cell, in which he was suspended upside-down in a locked glass and steel cabinet full to overflowing with water.He explained some of his tricks in books written in the 1920s. Many locks and handcuffs could be opened with properly applied force, others with shoestrings. Other times, he carried concealed lockpicks or keys, being able to regurgitate small keys at will."*and*"In the 1920s, after the death of his beloved mother, he turned his energies toward debunking self-proclaimed psychics and mediums, a pursuit that would inspire and be followed by latter-day magicians James Randi and P.C. Sorcar, and even Penn and Teller. Houdini's magical training allowed him to expose frauds who had successfully fooled many scientists and academics. He was a member of a Scientific American committee which offered a cash prize to any medium who could successfully demonstrate supernatural abilities. Thanks to Houdini's contributions, the prize was never collected. As his fame as a "ghostbuster" grew, Houdini took to attending séances in disguise, accompanied by a reporter and police officer. Possibly the most famous medium whom he debunked was the Boston medium Mina Crandon, a.k.a. Margery.These activities cost Houdini the friendship of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, the creator of Sherlock Holmes. Doyle, a firm believer in spiritualism during his latter years, refused to believe any of Houdini's exposés. Doyle actually came to believe that Houdini was a powerful spiritualist medium, had performed many of his stunts by means of paranormal abilities, and was using these abilities to block those of other mediums that he was 'debunking' (see Doyle's The Edge of The Unknown, published in 1931 after Houdini's death). This disagreement led to the two men becoming public antagonists."*then*"Britsh singer Kate Bush recorded a song about Houdini's wife visiting mediums to see if his soul had survived which was included on her 1982 album The Dreaming, the cover of which showed Bush as Mrs Houdini, passing a small key to her husband via a kiss." (Comment on this) |
| Monday, August 15th, 2005 | |
| _12:08 pm_[laura_lou87] |
come september my life promises to be different.when she leaves, i know i’ll cry. but that leaves him, with me. poor dear.paul simon always seems to know what to say and when.but folk guitars and the beauty of personifying a calendar shouldn’t amaze me as it does.maybe i should take up smoking, smoking or perhaps toothpicks again.i considered that only for a moment.they would become an extention of my awkward body, like guitar picks or converse shoes.mixed tapes become tokens of something like affection and damn it, i have nothing interesting left to give to you, I’m sorry. i wonder if the boredom in a lifestyle could kill one pretend beatnik or another. i must someday come to the conclusion that i’m not wonderful, nor will i be the next stevie nicks.cuts and bruises not included of course.his eyes will become fond of younger years and forget about me. not that he remembers brown eyes in the morning, anyway.“times casts a spell on you, but you won’t forget me. i know i could have loved you but you would not let me” truer words were never written.love, what does it mean? for me, it’s the click of a lit lighter just before a let my latest cheap cliché go up in flames. i don’t expect much, they don’t have to like poetry, drink coffee like the fiend i am or even be an alanis fan. they don’t have to dress, act, talk a certain way. though i have a tendency to fall for the anorexic, want to be badass, fowl mouthed ones. i’ve never pictured him in a music store, so, a forest seems fitting.i’ve written too much already but my life depends on the words you or i rather need to hear from my own insomniac addictions to bad eighties bands and women on the verge of sexual revolution. femi-nazi i wish i were some days.i told my mother i wanted a tattoo, just to see what she said, or even if she’d flinch. “yeah honey, whatever you want.”damn it, i can’t even get a rise out of her anymore. fuck trying.although, she grimaced slightly as a bought a new set of fishnets. yes motherdear, your wonderfully self addicted nameless faceless child has become this, a bargain whore. for cheap music and bad drinks. good god, if she thinks i’m that shallow maybe she should be the one with the medical history. the shins can’t save lives. however poetically seductive they seem. baby, i could give you songs to change your lifebut, would you need that? want that?“i love you, even though you’re ridiculous”_click_he doesn’t realize that he just appointed himself the one to save my life. (3 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, June 26th, 2005 | |
| _12:22 pm_[donthurtsailors] |
fuck all those kisses i'll get it started.any criticism is appreciated. :)"choke on it, sweetheart" spitin your handlustrous withsaliva & desirebetween you & mei just can’t stop. like touching a haemophiliaci always have you bleedingleaving a galaxy of scarsa new cosmology of starspricked and perforateddark into your fleshblack where the wounds creep shutscraped into your heartwith my teethlacing strands of bruises into your skinsewing your mouth shut with my ownstroking on your bonesa shuddery glissando of pain.i’ll suck the sun from your skykeep you in the darkshake the glitter from your wingsleave you fluttering, sputtering, chokingbroken in the dirti’ll deny youany hopeof heaven. (Comment on this) |
| _12:17 pm_[donthurtsailors] |
pace yourself for me...i said maybe, baby, please... this community is dead!come on, everyone post...something!write something about someone you hate...or love...or both. and share it here! (Comment on this) |
| Thursday, March 31st, 2005 | |
| _6:48 pm_[laura_lou87] |
the radio ruins everything,except the news and you« Written on: March 29, 2005, 10:11:34 PM » by LE Hendricks you speak of me as ifi were yours [lover,friend,muse, otherwise]lady, don't place me on such a high shelf, i'll have farther to fall my words are simply that, wordsmy smile is just what you wouldn't want, bonesmy voice is a simplistic vibrationyou, my sweet Barbara Ann, shall be immortalin these words that don't so much sound lovely but are because you say soyou are soeverything [air, sunshine, music,poetics,romantics and dramatics] wonderfulsimple calls of the domesticated foreign love affair surfaced before i even knew a face to a name of my poisonin reference to the man with dreams like mine[we spoke of him once a day, once]new york city, skyline of the wonderland lived in by bohemian rockstarsand poets, all of them are poetsbert healey's got nothing on a smile like hiswith rhett butler flare and wings of a butterfly, clothed in whimsythe lady with the clay always adored whimsywhile you, good sir, adored paint insteadimmortal you shall also standat different standard with self inflicted, self imagined black eyeswhile i had a guitar Current Mood:  inspired (Comment on this) |
| Monday, March 28th, 2005 | |
| _4:54 pm_[therumtumtugger] |
lucky number twenty-nine did you suppose somehowi would never wakethinking of those otherstwenty-eight, in factgirls who shared your bedsleeping between your armsfive, ten, fifteen, twentytwenty-eight to be preciselike days in a short monthmaking me lucky number twenty-ninea leap year girlonly comes once every four years(and isn't it ironic?)i want to know things about them(short brunette athletic tall redheadskinny paints her toenails sent you flowersloves country music has a tongue ring and green eyes)and why they left you(couldn't cry found someone else talleror more thrilling caught you cheatingor spying or perhaps they/you just became bored)so tonightwhen i wrapped my legs around youand pulled you into mei wonderedif you ever confused my bodywith Carrie's (who smelled of yeast and vanilla)or Elizabeth's (whose skin you cried over)or any other of the couple dozen that remainnamelessi felt you smile at me as i slept softlyafraid to wake me by touchbecause Melissa never liked itand when i did wake, frightenedyou told me every other morningwithout mecaused you a strange sicknessin your head and stomach muscles (Comment on this) |
| Sunday, March 20th, 2005 | |
| _8:07 pm_[xsorryforjuly] |
east coast girlsstomach—not flatchest—like ripe fruityeah, I think I’m all thatI am a working womanneed no man to tell me what I canor cannot doshit, I makemy own money.no sugar daddy,but that’s okay,because I have love for myself.so, I spit when I talk,I’m not rude--- just excited.and I trip when I walk—I’m just in a hurry to embrace life,and embrace my curves,wide pelvic bones help reproduce the human racethe 90-pound Olsen twins got nothing on melet’s see them push babies out of their crotches. Bus ride home from nowhereStaring out the window,writing your initials in the fogBut wiping them away beforeanyone notices.Thinking about our phone call fromlate last night,Sitting and deciphering allyour preciouswords , trying to find a bigger meaning.But it’s cold, and it’s static,and the only thing I know isyour words are not enough.West coast girlsRich girl,Wafer thin.Bones protruding from stomach,clavicle, hips.Money can’t buy her happiness.It may buy diamonds,Stilettos,size 0 jeans which fall off her waist.But money can’t save herfrom herself.Rich girl,Self-destructive.Scars decorating stomach, arms,wrists.Money can’t fix her reality.It may buy perfume,Coach bags,Beaver fur coats to cover her cutsBut money can’t save herfrom herself.One in fiveThey think that we are fools,because only fools rush into love.and maybe it is true,that we were on the rebound.But I needed to be caughtbefore I hit the ground face first,and you were the one who caught me.I am not incapable of bouncingback from ruined relationships.I have the strength of my mother,tough-shelled Italian,no man will walk over me without surely regretting it.So when he said goodbye to me for the first time and the last,I barely cried.I was not ashamed to be single,not in the least.And in fact, it was a mere accidentwhen you and I first kissed.But you told me you don’t believe inaccidents,only love and hate.And that is why you’re completely irresistible. (Comment on this) |
| Thursday, March 3rd, 2005 | |
| _7:53 pm_[xsorryforjuly] |
Paper Dolls The way you look at me.You want me to be ideal,your ideal-- cut me so thinthat I can blow away whenI am tethered and torn.You want me to be your prize girl,etched in the way you have dreamed ofso many times before.You tell me that thin is in,And I listen,because I love you.But I cry on my way to workand there's a sharp pain in my chest.I cannot be perfect,But I'll try,because I love you.One day you will have to let me go,Mother.** Mid-Life Crisis You taught me well,I learned from the best.Now it's time to raise hell,Die quick, no protest.At first the rope's loose,So in goes my throat.I'll tighten the noose,Here's my suicide note.**Untitled TrioletNothing matters anymore,Since the day my sister died.I found her hanging by the door,and nothing matters anymore.Her bloodshot eyes, her neck was sore,legs swaying side to side.Nothing matters anymore,since the day my sister died.I see her resemblance in my face,So final is her death.My sister, no one can replace,When I see her resemblance in my face.Her future-- everything's erased,Memories are all that's left.I see her resemblance in my face,So final is her death.I hate her,For what she did.Remember how close we were?Man, I hate her.Suicide is not a cure,So much to live for, she was just a kid.I hate her (so much)For what she did.That's not true... I love her more than anything,She was my best friend.How much pain one death can bring!I still love her, more than anything.It's very hard, forgiving,Her life had such a selfish end.But I love her more than anything,She was my best friend. Current Mood:  bored (Comment on this) |
| Friday, January 14th, 2005 | |
| _1:08 pm_[donthurtsailors] |
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| Thursday, January 6th, 2005 | |
| _10:45 pm_[laura_lou87] |
the stereo says everythinginto my empty, cold floors and wallsi dance without grace, through life and my livingroom in pajamasscreaming at the top of my lungsto purge myself of the wicked vapors that i breaththe guitar twists itself and misunderstands every chord i try to playsoon amature fingertips become professional liarspaid with blood and tears of the those who control themmisinterperated, mad madelinestill starving, artisticallyexcuse me while i kiss the skypassionate kisses laced with straight vodka[but would you admit it?]drunk enough that you will only remember the smellof an innocent girl in the morningophelia, he may seem so strong but he's not for you my preciousthe highway home was covered in winter's birthmark you swore not to drive yourselfpetty attempt at being admirable, siryou're so much like me, i'm sorrythe drafts from the wall cracks send you chills sealed with a kissthe thump thump thumping will drive you insaneyou pray that the couple next door uses protectionhis hands are too rough for skin like hers and her lips are venomous[you hope]thump thump thump, screamthump thump thump, passion thump thump thump, nervona and silenceanother ol' lang synethe long haired man behind the radio's microphonewishes me a happy new yeari played the following song too loud Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this) |
| Monday, January 3rd, 2005 | |
| _11:34 am_[therumtumtugger] |
vampyre it's the way love always was for yousuckbiteteethmoan so good you criedso damn good, babybite harder, leave marks, you know?(before you'd leave your mark differently--the wasted carcass the next morningin the nearest gutter after draining her frame dry)a dangerous game as alwaysshe relishes this bending below you(below your shouldersarmsteeth)and how you've gone completely wildcoating your flesh with fine thin sweather mind screams sensual overloadfrom the first time you never touched herso completely does she adore youand how you swallow into yourselfevery bit of her she so darkly despisesno longer love-making, this has becomea different art, a weaving together of filamentsof lust and desire and a need to be filledtongue over teeth over skin so softyielding to damaged veins and purple bruises suckbiteteethmoan so good like a trashy romancecomplete with ripped dresses and swooning women it's the way love always was for you, vampyre (Comment on this) |
| Sunday, January 2nd, 2005 | |
| _3:51 pm_[donthurtsailors] |
hey girl i like your flavour...wish i could be your neighbour another writing promptwrite a poem or short story or whatever you want using...title: "vampire"subject: uncontrolled/dangerous etc love/passion/relationshipwords to use: adore, swallow, filament(s) (Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, December 29th, 2004 | |
| _6:30 pm_[laura_lou87] |
wishing you could request the weather comes standardi'd request snow[everyone looks wonderfully fantastic with snow in their hair]cement wouldn't need to be wetted then, it's frozen over so much that you fall[in or out of love respectedly]you don't expect as much from winter romances as those of summersimply because in the summer you're closer to more naked peopleeverything you know, becomes a game of limbo [how low would you go?]the simplest power of the word nothe power of choice...the love of sidewalks that get you from one place to anotherin the glow of christmas lightseverything looks different in tonespurple, blue.green and goldit's almost as cliche as school spiritdo you love me?would you?did you?why don't you?why don't they?why won't we?and so the story goes, enough to drive a person insaneif you're asking for something more important than romance based simply on seasonal reactions to visitors and your strangersfriendspick up your phone and tell the voice on the radio, you need snow Current Mood: working (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, December 19th, 2004 | |
| _10:30 am_[donthurtsailors] |
she's been everybody else's girl ~ maybe someday she'll be her own http://www.placesforwriters.com/journals.htmlCurrent Mood:  content (Comment on this) |
| Sunday, December 12th, 2004 | |
| _6:45 pm_[donthurtsailors] |
yeah, i know, i'm being used, but it's okay, cos i like the abuse EllaFor one hundred years (1840 - 1940) the freak show was one of America's most popular forms of entertainment. Today the same shows would be considered unacceptable and cruel, or as one disability rights activist put it, "the pornography of disability." (http://www.disabilityhistory.org)Watch her dropeach dark veil shed that dresslike a snake’s skin growntoo tight to breathe inan ominous membrane stripped tissuepeeling petals off the roseto reveal the worm curled round the bud.The incredible ossifying girlturning to nothing but dead skin andwarped bone,meandering spine, spidery limbssuch a pretty face and thenthis cruel deviation.Beautiful or deformed, there’s a fortunein the flesh. (Comment on this) |
| Friday, December 10th, 2004 | |
| _12:53 pm_[donthurtsailors] |
let's do this freakshow baby yeah another writing prompt...***For one hundred years (1840 - 1940) the freak show was one of America's most popular forms of entertainment. Today the same shows would be considered unacceptable and cruel, or as one disability rights activist put it, "the pornography of disability." (http://www.disabilityhistory.org)***The next thing he would be asking if I’d written a thank-you note to Nell for the appalling tie she always sends me for Christmas. I hadn’t even been able to hang myself with the bloody thing.-In a Dark Wood by Amanda Craig***write a short story/poem/anything you want inspired by one of the quotes. or post another quote for inspiration. (Comment on this) |
| _4:22 am_[opheliablue] |
Anne Sexton  sextonpoetryWe're a month old now, 70+ members, so an anniversary advert ;)Everyone welcome - whether you're already an Anne Sexton fan or a newcomer and would like to know/read more about her and by her. Come on over and enjoy her work, share your knowledge, learn more about her... (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Friday, December 3rd, 2004 | |
| _1:11 pm_[therumtumtugger] |
fire-breather As per the writer's prompt of donthurtsailors.***** Fire-breatherI've said it so many other ways in efforts to rationalize it in my own head. I'll say, "We're all killing ourselves on different levels" and nod wisely, like the sage people seem to think I am. What I’m really saying is that he's killing himself. Slowly. That I don't want him to die. I'll say that he craves stimulants, which is my way of trying to add nicotine to a list of things he’s addicted to. Coffee, music, late nights, interesting conversations – I’m not sure he could live without them.Fuck it. There's really no other way to say it. The man I'm in love with smokes a lot. My moods may cause me to try to explain it away or deal with it differently, but it doesn’t really change the fact. If I'm in a good mood, I'll laugh at him and tell him that I'm thinking of taking it up. I'll mime placing a cigarette at my lips and breathing out smoke. "It looks cool," I’ll say. Smoking is elegant in a way that only a girl obsessed with a smoker could understand. "Don't ever smoke. It's bad for you." Sometimes I think he likes to keep me innocent, that he enjoys the way that I'm still wide-eyed at his fire-breathing. I don't smoke. I never have. I suppose I just don't have a reason to. I took up flavored toothpicks awhile back. I must confess, I do like having something in my mouth. He says that I taste like cinnamon. "Do I taste like cigarettes?""Yes. That and espresso.” He doesn't know the truth. That he tastes like rain. Like autumn. He’s standing in the kitchenetter, half-naked, ashtray in hand. He never stops moving. Cigarette to mouth, breathe in, hold it, and exhale. I hand him a toothpick. "They're good for you. People use them to stop smoking, you know. They have menthol in them." I stand watching his expression change from thoughtful to mildly amused as I talk."Oh, yes. And menthol's great for you. If you smoke it, it makes your lungs bleed.""Well, I'm not smoking it." I feel small. My arms are bruised from my clumsiness, my constant subconscious self-destructiveness, and I hold them closer to myself in effort to make myself even smaller. I’ve been told that those tender purple and blue spots are caused by blood. You’re not the only one bleeding internally, dear. (We’re all killing ourselves on different levels, you know.)His hands shake sometimes when he reaches for me. I jump. "You're going to set me on fire, baby." He just grins at me."You didn't mean with the cigarette, did you?" To tell you the truth, I'm not sure I did. He breaths fire. It matters not whether he has a cigarette in his hand.If I'm in a poor mood, I deal with his habit entirely differently. I make sarcastic comments and count the number of cigarettes he smokes. It's a vicious cycle, really. When I'm sad, he's sad. When he's sad, he smokes. When he smokes, it makes me sad. "That's seven. Gonna quit for tonight?""I would, but honestly, it's the only thing keeping me going right now." The only thing? I thought I kept him going. I'm reminded of an Alanis Morissette song I learned once. I’m tempted to sing it at him. _I don't wanna be the substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling. What do you thank me for?_He may stop poisoning himself someday. I may stop slamming my arms on door knobs and car doors. Who knows? He might never give up what’s become his second breath. I may, as I’ve so often threatened to, take up smoking. I will become a fire-breather, and we will travel the streets together like quiet dragons, breathing streams of smoke and leaving scattered cigarette butts like wasted countryside in our wake. (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, December 1st, 2004 | |
| _12:47 pm_[donthurtsailors] |
* another writing prompt * furiousmidnight came up with this idea & i thought i'd post it here where everyone could see it."write a story based on a conversation you've had with someone in the past or a comment that someone made about you that stuck in your mind. just a thought." Current Mood: kind of sad (Comment on this) |
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