Old Habits! (original) (raw)

07:30 pm: Old Habits!
TODAY
Has been a living hell! i had to see to the cat. Then i had to pay for Rent, Electricity, AND gas. Then i went Hame and done yet more house work. Ironing Washing hoovering dished dusting!!! which i must admit put me in a bad mood! THEN DAVID MY UN GRATEFUL BROTHER, brought me THREE FULL BAGS OF HIS WASHING TO WASH AND IRON AND HES 18 MAN!!!! then right he went behind my back and STOLE me pizza which was for my DINNER! so yet again i had to waste MY MONEY buying another dinner cos he knicked the other one i PAID FOR!!! god!

Then my mum and dad ignores me and snaps at me for the least thing right so am like leave me alone man cummon!!!!! and i got made to work at mums! by this time i was getting a bad temper. I finished then saw ASIF was online so i was like kool! and then the lil shite was so ignorant! i was like how r u what u doing r u ok? he didnt ask how i was! then he got all damn moody wi me then a huge temper i was like dinnie take ur shite out on me thats how u loose mates and he was like fucking live wi it and it went on and we fell out cos hes a arsewhole!

By now i was so upset everything and everyone was getting to me and not to mention the ffact i dont feel good enough for anyone nomore. SO i called around friends cos i needed someone to talk to! Lee is out which isnt her fault obviously, Louise is out Stacey is at work Kirsty is out Laura is out Chez is sumwhere and i cant express my feelings to college friends. Lou n Stace hasnt seen me in a while, even tho am shite cos their busy. Then i realised i am completley alone! Noone cares bout me mum and dad dont give a shite brother dont friends dont bother to even fone me nomore. Only person who cares is Lee but she busy.

Once i realised this i broke down and cried for hours. Also am sick of people callin me fat and started to be sick again. i wished my family cared, i wish my so called friends cared i wish i was thin and pretty i wish i had a boyfriend i wish my gran is ok i wish i had better friends at college i wish i had a new life. COS IN THIS ONE I AM DYING!

Current Mood: rejected

Current Music: Evanescence