makes_me_happy's Journal (original) (raw)

First post here. It's kinda dead community-wise, but oh well. This is taken from my journal. I'm happy. :]

Spring is coming! And then summer! And then a good new job, likely! And so many good movies I have yet to see, and good music to hear, and mini road-trips to take over the summer, and being all sweaty outside, and wearing tanktops and shorts, and swimming and jumping and taking pictures, and smiling, and reading on the front porch, and staying out late, and hanging out at the Coffeehouse for hours, and the fountain with Becca and the park and GREEN STUFF and flowers behind my ears and longer hair that I can curl, and a bunch of time to be creative and all the AWESOME classes this semester, and almost senior year when I don't give a FUCK about real-school, and turning 17 which is for some reason a bigger deal to me than 16, and really, remember when I was 15? I couldn't WAIT to be 16, and hell, now I am!!!! How fucking AWESOME is that?!?! I am the me that I saw in my mirror when I was 10, I could never see past 16 when I imagined myself, so damn, now I get to see it! Yessss! There is just EVERYTHING to do!!!! EVEERRRRRRRYthing to look forward to! Deserts and oceans and lakes and fish and YUM eating fish, and going vegan for a little bit JUST to tell people I am and be pretensious and then saying "fuck it" and eating off a whole bag of beef jerky, and dressing up and maybe going out and getting drunk and regretting it and FEELING things, happy, sad, remorse, excitement, arghhhhhhhh!!!!! Hehehehehehehe. This is good. This IS good. THIS is good. This is GOOD. Hahahahahaha. Reminds me of Drama! Hahahaha, SOS practice is gonna be FUNNNNNNNNN with Mike being there, hahahaha, and I'm going to be all happy because I am and poor him. Dear God, I am so lucky. I really am. Life is phenominal and I can just write all the good things there are and EVERYTHING is good! Mmmmmmmmmmmmm, and eventually I'll be old and go play bingo, how fucking awesome! But first I have all this stuff to do, everything once, ya know, traveling everywhere on a whim maybe, and all the possible people and everything.