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So the genetic counselling, amnio and ultrasound were on Thursday. Ultrasound looked great, amnio was unpleasant but without any complications, everything seemed good. We decided we would pay for the quick test, as it does give you the results for the most likely culprit, Trisomy 21.

Went home, rested, got the call that afternoon. Down's.

Because everything else had looked so positive, they needed to conduct a second test. This time, it was CVS, an even more unpleasant test than the amnio. I think I nearly poor Rich's hand during the procedure. The worst bit was actually having the big screen come up with the ultrasound picture of the baby while working out where to pierce me. Needless to say I burst into tears again, and then just shut my eyes until the whole thing was over. The pain was a useful distraction at that point.

So I'm waiting on the results of that today or tomorrow. Although, the chances of a false-positive from the first test are pretty much negligible. This is just a hoop we have to go through.

We also have our counselling session tomorrow before going back to the doctor. Then, they can send me to the hospital.

Which I hope answers the question that you might be asking. We will not be keeping the baby. I know some of you will disagree with that, but we do have our reasons, and I hope you respect that at this point the last thing I need is judgement. Maybe I'll be open to discussing it at a later date, but not now.

I'm off work for the week and honestly I just feel like everything is in limbo.