I'm drifting on the water... (original) (raw)
August 31 2009, 20:22
So. Back from EF. So much to tell, so much that happened... maybe I'll give you a more detailed account later on, but for now the short version: EF was great.
To be a bit more detailed, EF was a very powerful con. It was a con of endings... and new beginnings. Wounds were healed, changes were made and I'm feeling the world changing around me already, which is a good sign that I'm changing.
The weirdest thing that happened, though, started last evening and lasted until the early afternoon today -- I've been getting extremely strong deja vu experiences, so intense they might even be called flashbacks... to dreams, things from my past, maybe things that are yet to happen. An interesting experience, but in the same way a kind of unpleasant one -- in a way, the feeling of such an experience is a lot like having had at least two more drinks than you can take: The world seems somehow shifted out of focus, blurry, not physically spinning but... wobbling in a way that immediately sends powerful waves of nausea to one's stomach. And after these deja vus had started, they became more and more frequent... until they just stopped shortly before I began my trip back home and just changed into one whole big experience, like I had experienced the whole day once before.
Phew. And now, back to real life.