Heart Shaped Box (original) (raw)
11:11p
just thinkin so today....went to school with yana, blah blah blah, then i had leave early for an eye doctors appt WITH MY MOTHER!! she wasnt supposed to take me and adel, meme was. fuck. she totally fucked the whole thing up. grr so then she takes us to meme's after, just like drops us off and thats it. leaves rite away. im like thanx mom i love u too. so later on me and meme went to target and she was talking to me about how my mom has yelled at me my whole life and used to do some crazy shit and all this. and i told her about what my aunt said and how bad my mom is being and she just feels sorry for me?? im like i dont want u feeling sorry for me. i dont need that. and i dont. i dont want people taking pity on me. my life is just mine and its hell rite now, but i duno. i can either go to boarding school or straighten out. we'll see. but what does it matter if i leave or not?? who will really care? i mean honestly. hot damn this day has been.. BI POLAR!!! speaking of that, justin is upset cuz im so moody. so now i have to apologize to him too for being who i am.