Ontario Anas & Mias (original) (raw)

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Get to know you
Name: Clara Faye Chaplin
Age: 17 (18 on may 13)
Height: 5'4.5
What City/Town do you live in: Shit/Beer/Deep River
Current Weight(CW): 115? I'm not allowed to check
BMI: nfc
High Weight(HW): now
Low Weight(LW): 75 (go baby :P :S )
Short Term Goal(STG): 105
Long Term Goal(LTG): death
ED That You Have: Ana, Mia, EDNOS, COE or Not Diagnosed: diognosed with anorexia in jan of '04, then chronic anorexia later that year
Favorite Low-Cal Snack: low fat popcorn with cal free butter, and SALT, diet pop
Thinspiration Quote or Pic: a moment on the lips, forever on the hips
Favorite Pro-Ana Communities: this one, I used to go to a lot but now my parents check the history and there's all this shit so....it's hard

hey guys, I hope you don't mind me barging in like this, if you do, tell me, I'll go. I just need a place where people understand and shit.
My ed started in grade 9 but after huge depression, suicidal, and insomniac problems earlier. In grade 10, Jan 28 2004 I was admitted to CHEO for anorexia, low heart rate, weight of 75 Ib, etc. I stayed in the hosptial for over 8 weeks, then stayed at the Ronald Mcdonald house to attend the EDP for another 14 weeks till I was kicked out (appearantly water loading and taping weights to your legs during weigh-ins is bad...would of thunk it?)

Nov 2004 - three weeks in cheo.

Dec 2004- best friend died due to leukimia and sent my depression swirling bad badbad.

May 2005 - three weeks in cheo then transferred to Homewood mental health in Guelph

June 2005 - homewood for a little over 2 weeks then kicked out (appearantly losing 5 Ib a day is bad)

kicked out of house, attempted suicide, kicked out of friends house, got apartment, patched things with parents, moved back, attempted suicide, lost wieght, gained weight, hated self, did drugs, smoked a lot, cut, went to ottawa where 'friend' proceeded to grope, say shit, grope, grab, etc. cut, cutliedhatedhatedhated

so thats me, in all my ugly fat wasted glory. i recently got my period, something I haven't experienced for over three years....shit i hate me

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nice to meet you