Are you going to stay and fight? by James Mason (original) (raw)

hmm,that was really tough and tricky question..isnt it?!
you can say that is not your war, but on other hand..you can not resist...anyway, what did you answer them?!?

not because its familiar and close to me by place and people, but i would say yes...in this case, that place and time...being shooting by cam or rifle..its almost the same, well, what the hell, why shouldnt i help them...seems its like to help push someones car at the street with empty baterie to engage the engine...

i wish someone did ask me that, i would help and gave 101% of myself...
i was enough old to understand everything around...but to young to participate in...
i was helping any way i could..but i always feel some guilt like i could do it more..i feel so sorry for things i remamber now i could but i didnt...
i dont feel hate anymore...my hate is replaced with sadness...i am not mad at serbs anymore, just sad and a bit angry on myself...war is almost forgoten here, we are trying to live "normally" but what is normal when i grown in war-like "normal" childhood...that what you are calling "normal" childhood and life i know only from TV movies and books..i know how it should be..but it wasnt like that...it was some other "NORMAL" way for some of us...
i am not alowed to look at pictures like this one, but its stronger then me...it reminds me a lot, and besides..i am screwed enough already...i became offtopic...sorry :(