depressed and withdrawing (original) (raw)

Hi, I'm Sydnie and I'm 19.

I've been getting addicted to Oxycodone 30mgs for the last several months- I've been stealing them from my mom. on Thursday of last week, my mom and I had to put our most loving, sweetest dog down. it broke my heart. so, of course, I reverted to the pills.

which didn't last long; my mom found on on Monday or Tuesday when I had taken seven of them and had already popped five.

she gives them to me sometimes for back pain but I had a half of one last night and she told me 'no more for a week'. I can't steal them anymore because she's hidden them.

since my dog died and I've stopped these pills, I've been severely depressed. I've been trying to take Xanax to calm me down but it barely helps. I don't know what to do. if I could just have a pill every other day I would be fine. but of course I can't get any.

if anyone can offer any advice or support, I'd be very grateful. thanks for reading.