Valentine's Day...for everyone else... (original) (raw)

Midnight…

Typically Valentine’s Day, and most definitely a typical way for me to spend it. He has been silent for two weeks now. Not a single word of apology, or contradiction, and here I am, sitting in mine and Hannah’s flat doing absolutely nothing. Well, mostly nothing… the WWN is playing an old song. Fitting actually that both Muggle and Magical worlds would know a song such as Greensleeves.

Supposedly it was written by Henry the eighth, who many Muggles do not know, that came from an old Pureblood lineage. However, I am mostly focused on the song.

How appropriate…

He pretended for nearly a month that he cared. I know not how, but just that month was so vivid…I could hope once again, and now…nothing. He showed me how we could be like. I showed him how much I trusted him, loved him. It was all a lie.

Granted, I could have asked for explanations. I even thought of asking Ginny, but I can’t; I can’t face humiliation, hurt, and pain once more. That letter was enough. In the moment that I thought all of my dreams would come true, it all crashed down before me.

Was he pretending all that time?

I find myself wondering as the song goes on. Was he lying to me all this time? It can’t be any other way…He knew what we were able to have, I showed him, even in that small span of time. Especially that day in his house. I was ready to give him everything…and all that time he kept his secret.

He deceived me, leading me to nurture false hope. Being as affectionate to me as he never was before, leading me to think that I was the only woman in his life; when in truth I was just a face in the crowd; one among all the other women.

Why has he done this to me? Wasn’t he content to have me as his best friend, while knowing how I felt? Wasn’t that torture enough?

Evidently not…Evidently, he had to hurt me once more; and then cast me off.

Tears fall from my closed eyelids as the song comes to an end. I sigh; even so, after all he has done…I’m not ready to let go…Will I ever be? I wave my wand blindly towards the WWN and the song begins once more…

Alas my love you do me wrong To cast me off discourteously; And I have loved you oh so long Delighting in your company…

I have been ready at your hand To grant whatever thou would'st crave; I have waged both life and land Your love and goodwill for to have…