I am new to the community and just returning to LJ after a long break. I usually write when I am feeling off and need to just spill what I am feeling with no filters or worries about what is in my head. Anyway, I have an on and off history of depression, with my lowest point around 2006. I was on lexapro for a minimal amount of time back then but thankfully been able to keep things controlled without meds for most of the time. Around 2009 I was mostly happy, satisfied with life and up until now have had minimal worries about serious depression. Now I am pregnant with my first child (23 weeks) and I feel like I am going crazy! I know a lot of it can be attributed to the hormones but my gut tells me I am quickly slipping back into dark mode and I constantly feel sad, angry or hopeless. I would love to avoid meds altogether, but how can I know if this is normal pregnancy insanity or me going back down that path of depression?
Anyone who has had similar experiences please share what helped or even if you haven't figured out what to do, just share. I can't be the only one. Thanks!
I was really happy at the beginning of my pregnancy and I was really relaxed and sure that everything was going to be ok, but in the last 2 months I've just become depressed a lot. It is worse on my memory and really hard because I'm in the middle of moving and I need the motivation that comes from not being depressed to get everything done. I'm 30 weeks and I really don't want to be depressed when I have my baby, or now, and I just wonder if there is anything anyone does or did that helped. Something to help me relax and get my mind off of everything and be able to focus and all of that. I really want to be useful to my baby and I'm not very useful when I'm depressed.
Researchers at the University of British Columbia, Canada, and the Mother-Infant Wellness Lab are currently conducting a study of **FEAR OF CHILDBIRTH.**We are looking for pregnant women to complete a short online questionnaire about their fears and concerns about pregnancy and childbirth.
Hi I'm 8wks and I have Bipolar II. I can only take Wellbutrin Xl and my thyriod medication. I've been over the top moody/depressed. Anyone else bipolar and pregnant?
hi everyone. i thought i'd try this community because i couldn't really get anyone to understand what was going on with me in the other two communities i tried. i have had an ED for years on end, now, and been hospitalized twice for wich. now i'm pregnant, and HAVE to eat! i was consuming a maximum of 500 calories before pregnancy, and now, in my fourth month, have moved up to 1200-1500 cals a day. sometimes i get more, because i make a meal plan daily including up to two snacks and three meal, also giving myself more if i get hungry. but i'm just so ashamed, and yes, i know its so self centered, but i'm terrified of gaining weight and getting fat. unfortunately, i wasn't built like those girls that only get a baby-bump, i got it ALL! butt, thighs, lovehandles, arms, and boobs! i'm just so sunken with guilt everytime i eat and feel like a slob on a daily basis. i guess i was hoping to find someone else dealing with the same issues, or someone that has dealt with an ED before and know what i'm going through. ALSO, i have this hgorrible person stalking me and questioning me about what happened to me when a guy beat the crap outta me and threw me from a car! this doesn't help the sadness and depression, i mean, she keeps referring to something that happened in pennsylvania, and i live in tennessee. also, that guy was in his 40's and the guy that assaulted me was in his late 20's. she won't stop leaving me comments saying i have a "fake" page and that i'm lying. but i'm NOT, and i AM who i say i am! i don't understand why this person is so hellbent on making me feel like shit, because i did NOTHING wrong!! like i said this just makes everything worse, because i take lying VERY seriously. help!
Hi my name is Ashley im 19 and a mother of three beautiful babies..Gezus 2 and a half..Adriana 1 and 4 months and my newest Love 2 months old.. i live in a room because we're renovating im always alone with my kids i live in an area where theres only grass and trees im so alone and I wake everyday to fighting with my bf.. depression is ruining my life they put me on prozac but its not working i cry everyday..i scream everyday..i feel like running away everyday but i love my children to much i could never leave them...i just need some one to talk to cause amongs all things i have no friends i secluded my self and where i live well i cant make any so i have no one to talk to.. as I type this my kids are destroying my house and i want to die.. they dont stay in there cribs or playpens they climb out and run a muck around the house ..i need help maybe a mother who knows what i feel and how it effects yur whole life .. please
I have, for the past four weeks been feeling extremely depressed. I have a history of depression but have not been on medication for some time and been relatively stable. I currently HATE my job. The last time I took medication was about one year ago and it was celexa and I had a very good effect from it. I am debating whether to restart this medication. I don't have an appointment with my provider for another week or so and I will be switching to a new one at this upcoming visit. I am in a position to a) call in the prescription for myself or b) have a colleague write it for me before then but I'm just trying to weigh the pros and cons of possible effects of an SSRI on the baby versus how despondent I feel right now. I am 30 weeks and 2 days along. Anyone have personal experience with celexa during pregnancy and/or after?
I don't know were to turn too or what to do. I recently just found out i was pregnant and i was extremely scared, confused, nervous and every other feelings i guess you could imagine because I'm only 19. I live with my boyfriend and we have been together for 2 years. When we found out he was so happy {or atleast he claimed to be}. Just a couple weeks ago things started to go down hill with him and i. I have been really stressed becuase we have two people that are staying with us and it seems like my boyfriend just wants to be with his friend than be with me which we used to do all the time. I dont know if its just my emotions that are getting to me i just feel like since i have became pregnant he just does not want to be around me or have anything to do with me. He never says anything about the baby. He never asks about it. We were just so happy and now it just seems like we are not the same anymore, I dont know if i am just taking thinks to seriously because i am pregnant or what? I have never been this upset about anything. I have no one to talk to and when i try and talk to him about it he just says that it is my emotions and that i am just crazy. I am just at the point that i feel i should just leave. Please give me advice i dont know where else to turn.
Is there a website or phone number that will give a person information on Postpartum Depression support groups? I recently found out that the free clinic counselor is not so free for someone with insurance (even if the deductible is way too high for me to pay) so, my only hope is to find a free support group. My past search for support groups in my area led me on a wild goose chase that dead ended at a pediatrician's office that had no idea about any support groups for PPD.
So, any help in this area would be appreciated. I live near Toledo, Ohio.
foxglove22: How do you tell if it is just pregnancy hormones or depression?