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| | ENTP when in loveFalling in love may take a while for you because of your selective nature: You are the type of person who may pass by several “quality candidates” until you feel you have found the ideal mate. As a result, you may be single for far longer than your friends and family expected you to be. Even when you find the right person, you still want to maintain your sense of uniqueness and personal space. As a result, you need a partner who will leave you alone when you desire it - a partner who has his or her own sense of self-confidence and autonomy and doesn’t need to be around you twenty-four/seven.ENTP where to meetWhere can you meet an Innovator? Innovators are the most eclectic of the Knowledge Seekers; their spontaneous and inquisitive nature takes them almost everywhere. They are especially delighted by social events that trigger their imaginative and logical minds. Look for Innovators anywhere their powerful intellect can be stimulated and where they can exercise their considerable communication skills.Tags:♥, 99 lives, a crazy little thing called love, all things considered, i won't regret saying this, life, love, wrapped up in thingsLocation:Seattle, WA **My Dad would have been 60 years old today. Not a day goes by that you're not in my heart and thoughts. Imiss you. "You’ll get over it…” It’s the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life for ever. You don’t get over it because ‘it” is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never loses. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no-one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?**Tags:♥, 99 lives, a series of unfortunate events, dad, family, i won't regret saying this, life, love, love is dis-gust-ing, truths, updates, wisdom, wrapped up in thingsLocation:looking backMood:sadMusic:Cat's in the Cradel I'm getting booked and spending a lot of time at the comedy club. Me with comedian Harland Williams 8.26.2011 <input ... > Click on people's faces in the photo to tag them. <input ... > Me with Comedian Kyle Cease 7.30.2011 <input ... > Click on people's faces in the photo to tag them. <input ... > Me with comedian Bobby Lee 7.14.2011 <input ... > Click on people's faces in the photo to tag them. <input ... > I wish my phone took better photos! This is me with Jay Hollingsworth. I adore him! Me and Jay. Comedian John Gardner, Me, and comedian Jay Hollingsworth (Big Irish Jay) Tags:♥, 99 lives, big irish jay, comedy, fan club, friends, fun, funny, life, love, love is dis-gust-ing, shows, well now ya know, who i used to be, work, you might be a contenderLocation:Parlor LiveMood:bouncyMusic:funny girl - by Barbra Streisand **"I will not stop till you feel what I've felt all these years" I know how she feels... Wish I had gone on a killing spree! This movie looks horrible. But, I will probably love it.**Tags:99 lives, a series of unfortunate events, all things considered, america, analogy, cause i'm a bad person, circles, dad, family, get on my level, i won't regret saying this, i'm the only one laughing here, law, life, looking back, r.i.p., ragdoll, something better left alone, the gap is from you, travel, truths, voyuerism, well now ya know, who i used to be, work, wrapped up in thingsMood:contemplativeMusic:Mockingbird – By Eminem <input ... > Hanging out Back Stage with Austin Lucas at Seattle SoundFest. I met Austin just as he was coming off tour with Willie Nelson and he came into the radio show to do an interview. He's a great guy and I enjoyed seeing him again at the show. Click on people's faces in the photo to tag them. <input ... > Tags:99 lives, america, art, because that's how i roll, circles, fan club, friends, get on my level, happy like i used to be, life, outlaws, persona, shows, updates, well now ya know, who i used to be, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:Back StageMood:gratefulMusic:Run Around - By Austin Lucas If I wasn’t ME, but knew me as an outside entity I would have money on me screwing this up. So gamble on. Tags:99 lives, all things considered, america, because that's how i roll, cause i'm a bad person, get on my level, law, life, persona, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:Working Mood:workingMusic:Criminal - by Fiona Apple ♥ I don't want to make you all puke, I just love him so much ♥ Tags:♥, 99 lives, all things considered, fan club, friends, happy like i used to be, i won't regret saying this, life, love, love is dis-gust-ing, shows, these things i know, truths, updates, well now ya know, wrapped up in things, you might be a contenderLocation:In a Rockabilly Love AffairMood:bouncyMusic:Risk the Fall - by James Hunnicutt ushered into a dark cave on a rickety boat, and is vulnerable to the terrors ahead in the tunnel of love.Tags:all things considered, circles, comedy, friends, happy like i used to be, i won't regret saying this, life, love, love is dis-gust-ing, these things i know, well now ya know, wrapped up in things, you might be a contenderLocation:on my way into the Tunnel of LoveMood:shyMusic:make a memory - by Bon Jovi Tags:a series of unfortunate events, all things considered, america, cause i'm a bad person, chs, crew 38, i won't regret saying this, i'm the only one laughing here, law, life, looking back, ragdoll, something better left alone, these things i know, travel, well now ya know, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:workingMood:uncomfortableMusic:Ugly Things - Unknown Hinson Tags:all things considered, america, analogy, cause i'm a bad person, dad, family, home, i won't regret saying this, i'm the only one laughing here, life, outlaws, something better left alone, the nothing, these things i know, travel, truths, what i meant to say, wisdom, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:SeattleMood:workingMusic:the weary kind - ryan bingham It is the last week of my twenty seventh year on this planet. Who knows, maybe the Hindus, Buddhists, Taoists and New Agers are right about the cosmic wheel? I may once have been a Babylonian princess, a Queen of Egypt, and Emperor of the Roman Empire, these were tough jobs but somebody had to do them. My ego would certainly lend credence to such a discovery. Of course if it is true, I've fallen a long way down the karmic ladder.Soon, I will be 28. The Birthday plans will take place the Saturday January 22nd. Mel, Chris, Trystan and I will be meeting up at the Seattle underground tour at 4:00 **Join us in an adult-oriented guided tour of Seattle's underground Underworld replete with the tales of graft, opium, sex, debauchery and Red Light district shenanigans that made Seattle what it is today.Dinner at Buca di Beppo around 6:00And then going to the Super Geek Show (where Trystan will be performing.)**Tags:all things considered, back to me, cause i'm a bad person, circles, happy like i used to be, i'm the only one laughing here, life, looking back, moving on, something better left alone, truths, who i used to be, wrapped up in thingsLocation:Seattle UndergroundMood:excitedMusic:Candle in the Wind - Elton John But I haven't had any yet, so I can't very well take moreAh you mean you can't very well take less! You can always take more than nothing.Tags:family, friends, home, life, quoteLocation:LangleyMood:thankful I'm moving to Capital Hill in a few months!Trystan and I are going to be roommates.Tags:all things considered, america, art, cause i'm a bad person, downsize, family, friends, fun, happy like i used to be, home, i won't regret saying this, i'm the only one laughing here, law, life, moving on, ragdoll, school, shows, something better left alone, the gap is from you, the nothing, these things i know, travel, truths, updates, we, well now ya know, wisdom, work, wrapped up in things, you might be a contenderLocation:Langley to SeattleMood:TwistedMusic:Flight of the Conchords Ep2 Inner City Pressure Life is pretty disrespectful of obsessions.Tags:all things considered, back to me, circles, dad, family, life, moving on, outlaws, over it, ragdoll, school, what i meant to say, who i used to be, wisdom, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:LangleyMood:ready Tags:all things considered, america, analogy, back to me, because that's how i roll, biker, cause i'm a bad person, circles, dad, downsize, family, fan club, friends, get on my level, happy like i used to be, home, i'm just saying, i'm the only one laughing here, law, life, looking back, meds make me silly, moving on, outlaws, poptart, r.i.p, ragdoll, school, shows, sleep, so they say, something better left alone, the gap is from you, the nothing, these things i know, truths, updates, voyuerism, we, well now ya know, what i meant to say, who i used to be, wisdom, work, wrapped up in things, you might be a contenderLocation:misplacedMusic:Playboy Mommy - Tori Amos Tags:all things considered, analogy, back to me, because that's how i roll, biker, cause i'm a bad person, circles, dad, downsize, fan club, friends, get on my level, happy like i used to be, hate mail, i'm just saying, i'm the only one laughing here, life, looking back, love, moving on, outlaws, over it, poptart, r.i.p, ragdoll, shows, sleep, so they say, something better left alone, the gap is from you, the nothing, these things i know, truths, updates, voyuerism, well now ya know, what i meant to say, who i used to be, wisdom, work, wrapped up in things, you might be a contenderMood:busyMusic:School Night - Ani Difranco Oh, what the hell, " she says, "I just can't win for losing"And she lays back downMan, there's so many times I don't know what I'm doin'Like I don't know nowAnd by the light of the moon, she rubs her eyesSays, "It's funny how the night can make you blind"I can just imagineAnd I don't know what I'm supposed to doBut if she feels bad, then I do, tooSo I let her beAnd she says, "Ooh, I can't take no more"Her tears like diamonds on the floorAnd her diamonds bring me down'Cause I can't help her nowShe's down in itShe tried her best and now she can't winIt's hard to see them on the groundHer diamonds falling downWay downShe sits down and stares into the distanceAnd it takes all nightAnd I know I could break her concentrationBut it don't feel rightAnd by the light of the moon, she rubs her eyesSits down on the bed and starts to cryAnd there's something less about herAnd I don't know what I'm supposed to doSo I sit down and I cry, tooBut don't let her seeAnd she says, "Ooh, I can't take no more"Her tears like diamonds on the floorAnd her diamonds bring me down'Cause I can't help her nowShe's down in itShe tried her best and now she can't winIt's hard to see them on the groundHer diamonds falling downShe shuts out the night and tries to close her eyesIf she can find daylight, then she'll be alrightShe'll be alright, just not tonightAnd she says, "Ooh, I can't take no more"Her tears like diamonds on the floorAnd her diamonds bring me down'Cause I can't help her nowShe's down in itShe tried her best and now she can't winIt's hard to see them on the groundHer diamonds fallingOoh, I can't take no moreHer tears like diamonds on the floorBut her diamonds bring me down'Cause I can't help her nowShe's down in itShe tried her best and now she can't winIt's hard to see them on the groundHer diamonds falling downI can't take no moreDiamonds on the floorNo more (no more), no moreDiamonds falling downI can't take no moreDiamonds on the floorNo more, no more (no more, no more)Diamonds falling down, yeahI can't take no moreDiamonds on the floor (no more, no more)Her diamonds falling, all her diamonds (no more)Diamonds falling downI can't take these diamonds falling downTags:all things considered, back to me, biker, cause i'm a bad person, chs, circles, crew 38, dad, family, fan club, friends, get on my level, happy like i used to be, home, i'm just saying, i'm the only one laughing here, law, life, looking back, meds make me silly, moving on, outlaws, over it, poptart, r.i.p, ragdoll, sleep, so they say, something better left alone, the gap is from you, the nothing, these things i know, truths, updates, voyuerism, we, well now ya know, what i meant to say, who i used to be, wisdom, wrapped up in things, you might be a contenderMood:lost i cant really help what i'm doing but i'm doing it and i'm doing it well, i'm drifting away from so many people and they're so far away, i see them and i meant to call, i did, i meant to stop by or wave or hug and mean it, i always have cared so much and i appreciate that you remember me but i just dont know what to say anymore. it's a strange thing, growing up, as all things in life are. and then there's those who you try but you just cant reach or you just cant quite get back. i was so unsure about it, missing out on what was traditionally one of the best weeks of my year, until i realized i might not need it anymore. things have changed, so fast and so much. they're so different now, i'm so different now. i dont think i need it i dont think where i've been is a place i feel i need to return to so often, and i've let go of so much of it, the guilt and the shame the longing and the need, and realizing how far i've come is a scary scary thing. realizing that i am, for the most part, fine now, and i have no need to let all that out. every once in a while it does come back and i do need someone but for the first time i have myself, i have some of the best people ever with me on this, and i'm ok. its a scary thing and its a beautiful thing, its a strange thing, growing up. i never thought i would learn how to let go. i've decided that it's time. my updates have become rare and not me at all, i am not me at all. the next few days, weeks, or months will be private entries, except maybe song lyrics, pictures, or a quote, nothing more. right now what i need is to write for me and me only, without even thinking once about what someone else will be thinking when they read it. what i need is complete honesty with myself before i can be honest with those around me. to find the respect and care for myself i try to give to other people. i need to uncover the better version of me that's been gone for too long and get rid of this thing i've turned into, i need to find and know myself, to be ok when everything is not ok. i've let things go too far and i had to reach the brink to realize i wasnt going anywhere but down. i'm sorry i've been gone for so long, i'm sorry for the way things have become, i'm sorry i let this happen, and thank you to all of you who've been with me the whole way and who will never leave, who always accept me the way i am. you mean more to me than you'll ever know.Tags:all things considered, back to me, biker, cause i'm a bad person, circles, family, fan club, friends, get on my level, happy like i used to be, i'm the only one laughing here, life, looking back, moving on, outlaws, ragdoll, something better left alone, the nothing, these things i know, truths, updates, well now ya know, what i meant to say, who i used to be, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:Empty Chairs at Empty TablesMood:2-4-6-0-1 the italian teddy bear (this is fucked up lol)https://www.bordergatewayprotocol.net/jon/humor/web_animations/1.swfTags:all things considered, cause i'm a bad person, crew 38, fan club, friends, fun, funny, hate mail, i'm the only one laughing here, life, ragdoll, something better left alone, the nothing, these things i know, truths, updates, voyuerism, well now ya know, what i meant to say, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:opening emailMood:amused ...I looked at it as if it reminded me of a crime I had committed, with an irrespressive smile such as rises somtimes to people's lips in the face of great catastrophes which are beyond their grasp, the smile which comes at times on certain women's faces while they are saying they regret the harm they have done. It is the smile of nature quietly and proudly asserting its natural right to kill, the smile which the animal in the jungle never shows but by which man reveals when the animal re-enters his being and reasserts its presence. It was the evil siren in me, ready to lure the hapless sailor to an enticing but rocky death.But I couldn't do it! Not to him.Tags:all things considered, analogy, cause i'm a bad person, fan club, friends, get on my level, life, love, moving on, over it, ragdoll, shows, something better left alone, the gap is from you, the nothing, these things i know, truths, updates, voyuerism, we, what i meant to say, wisdom, wrapped up in things, you might be a contenderLocation:waitingMood:Evil SirenMusic:Sober - by Pink TROUBLE INC. IS A NEW CLOTHING LINE DEDICATED TO EVERYONE OUT THERE THAT IS NOT SCARED TO BE WHO THEY ARE! 1ST PRESSING WILL BE OUT ON FRIDAY ! PICS WILL BE POSTED OF THE DESIGNS AS SOON AS THE PROOFS ARE DONE! SO GET READY TO SUPPORT ALL THE OUTSIDERS, BRAWLERS, STREET KIDS, **HOOLIGANS, AND EVERYONE ELSE IN THIS CRAZY ASS WORLD!!!**Tags:art, fan club, friends, i'm just saying, life, these things i know, wrapped up in thingsMood:SupportiveMusic:Fuck You That's Why - by Smut Peddlers IS IT POSSIBLE TO MATURE BACKWARDS? LOLIn some of my psychology class I remember hearing about this, and now that I've been training in behaviorism I looked it back up and read about a test a bunch of psychologists gave to a group of children. I could google this, but I don’t care enough. They told the little kids, you can have ONE piece of chocolate right now, OR you can wait fifteen minutes and get TWO pieces of chocolate. Something like half the kids chose each. The kids who waited fifteen minutes occupied themselves by playing with toys provided, running around, or even just sitting in a corner and counting to fifteen over and over again. The test was something about twenty years later how these kids responded to the question was an accurate prediction of their patience/maturity/responsibility once they grew up. I feel confident saying that if I had been in this test as a child, I would have quietly informed the nice man that I would wait the fifteen minutes, and then I would have sat by myself with a book and happily received two pieces of candy at the end. Now I’m pretty certain that if the OEN of now could occupy that child twenty years ago, I would have kicked the psychologist in the shins, stolen the candy from his hand, knocked the other children down, shouted in the psychologist’s face WHATCHA GONNA DO ABOUT YOUR CHOCOLATE NOW, MR. CANDYMAN??? and promptly run off, shoving chocolates into my mouth as fast as possible. Tags:because that's how i roll, cause i'm a bad person, funny, i'm just saying, life, looking back, over it, ragdoll, something better left alone, these things i know, truths, well now ya know, who i used to be, wrapped up in thingsLocation:headed outMood:guiltyMusic:Toy's-R-Us song Colorful arsenal I often wonder who you areand what you’re doing hereand why you want to knowanything about meI often wonder who I amand how I've changedbut I never missthe person I wasuntil I see the peoplethat used to make me if I could spell out the world in metaphorsand candy coated sentencesthis might be a little easierbut I’m bound by my mindand this place is not conducive to wordsyou made me a mix tape and took me to the laser showwe crack some jokes and you tried to put your arm around mebut I spun awayspun in circles like a hurricanethat will blow right threw you and you'll never controland you adored me, and I adored youbut then again, I always doI always come throughand I'm always strongerand always better at the endI always learn moreand I'm always becoming a better personno matter what path I choose, I will be better for itif I fail, I will still rise above everything and everyoneexceeding all expectations while shifting threw molds, mirrors, and masks because I’m a phoneixand I’ve burned a thousand timesevery time rising from the ash bettermore put together and a more beautiful personI’ll apologize to no oneI will not be anything to anyoneI will not give anything to anyoneexcept everything that I already amand everything that I have to giveTags:chs, circles, crew 38, fan club, friends, life, love, ragdoll, robeee, something better left alone, t.h.d, truths, wisdom, work, you might be a contenderLocation:needing sleep!Mood:mischievousMusic:along for the ride - by rainy dayassembly **Lyrics:**I don't know what I've doneOr if I like what I've begunBut something told me to runAnd honey you know me it's all or noneThere were sounds in my headLIttle voices whisperingThat I should go and this should endOh and I found myself listening'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without youAll I know is that I shouldAnd I don't know if I could stand another hand upon meAll I know is that I should'Cos she will love you more than I couldShe who dares to stand where I stoodSee I thought love was black and whiteThat it was wrong or it was rightBut you ain't leaving without a fightAnd I think I am just as torn inside'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without youAll I know is that I shouldAnd I don't know if I could stand another hand upon meAll I know is that I should'Cos she will love you more than I couldShe who dares to stand where I stoodAnd I won't be far from where you are if ever you should callYou meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at allBut you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to youThis is what I have to do'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without youAll I know is that I shouldAnd I don't know if I could stand another hand upon meAll I know is that I should'Cos she will love you more than I couldShe who dares to stand where I stoodOh, she who dares to stand where I stood Tags:friends, life, love, over it, poptart, the gap is from you, the nothing, truths, we, wisdom, you might be a contenderLocation:Misinformed and wondering whyMood:Misinformed Tags:all things considered, analogy, back to me, because that's how i roll, biker, cause i'm a bad person, circles, friends, happy like i used to be, i'm just saying, ibar, life, love, moving on, poptart, robeee, so they say, something better left alone, t.h.d, the gap is from you, the nothing, travel, truths, updates, voyuerism, well now ya know, wisdom, you might be a contenderLocation:The DomicileMood:hopeful First off, let me say thank you to all who wished me birthday cheer. It was a wonderful day and I am grateful for those I have met who made it so. I appreciate the thought and time invested in my gift from Peggy and Pat. It is a bonsai tree, and I love it. Thank you.And I'm well aware there are many of you fine folk who are also creatures of the January persuasion, so I wish all of you the very best on your anniversary of birth. Tags:family, friends, ibar, life, truthsMood:thankful Comfortably numb (_remember when this was my screen name.....)_Hello.Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me.Is there anyone home? Come on, now.I hear youre feeling down.Well I can ease your pain,Get you on your feet again.Relax.I need some information first.Just the basic facts:Can you show me where it hurts? There is no pain, you are receding.A distant ships smoke on the horizon.You are only coming through in waves.Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.When I was a child I had a fever.My hands felt just like two balloons.Now I got that feeling once again.I cant explain, you would not understand.This is not how I am.I have become comfortably numb.Ok.Just a little pinprick. [ping]Therell be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!But you may feel a little sick.Can you stand up? I do believe its working. good.Thatll keep you going for the show.Come on its time to go.There is no pain, you are receding.A distant ships smoke on the horizon.You are only coming through in waves.Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,Out of the corner of my eye.I turned to look but it was gone.I cannot put my finger on it now.The child is grown, the dream is gone.I have become comfortably numb.Hello.Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me.Is there anyone home? Come on, now.I hear youre feeling down.Well I can ease your pain,Get you on your feet again.Relax.I need some information first.Just the basic facts:Can you show me where it hurts? There is no pain, you are receding.A distant ships smoke on the horizon.You are only coming through in waves.Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.When I was a child I had a fever.My hands felt just like two balloons.Now I got that feeling once again.I cant explain, you would not understand.This is not how I am.I have become comfortably numb.Ok.Just a little pinprick. [ping]Therell be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!But you may feel a little sick.Can you stand up? I do believe its working. good.Thatll keep you going for the show.Come on its time to go.There is no pain, you are receding.A distant ships smoke on the horizon.You are only coming through in waves.Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,Out of the corner of my eye.I turned to look but it was gone.I cannot put my finger on it now.The child is grown, the dream is gone.I have become comfortably numb.-Pink FloydTags:cause i'm a bad person, fan club, keith, life, looking back, love, something better left alone, these things i know, voyuerismLocation:The DomicileMood:comfortably numbMusic:Damn - by Matchbox 20 Gaza scares me so much, and the media are so gross about it too, it's like they're reveling in tragedy. I listened to a one hour special radio debrief about it 2 days ago at work, and didn’t feel any wiser for it, it was mostly people accusing each other of lying. Because of my background I guess I'm half expected to support Israel, which I do to an extent, but the amount of force they are using seems unnecessary considering they have elite forces and intelligence service they could use instead, or at least more of. they're flexing their muscles while hamas is despicable for breaking the truce, bombing civilians and then hiding out among other civilians. people are dying and it's heinous.I'm learning that there are certain words and phrases that rub me the wrong way. I can't explain it, but they do. No worries... I just find it interesting that I have an "allergy" to these things... I wonder what it stems from.1. I removed this one, because it would have been taken out of context2. “Yeah I know, but…” – at this moment there occurs the abdication of character, courage, and conscience. The “But…” is followed by all sorts of attempts to indemnify the action under scrutiny, through saying, “but… I was… unhappy, confused, frightened, in love, scared to risk, uncomfortable, feeling lonely, feeling needy, feeling anxious (By the way, by using the word feeling, most people think they are now on sacred ground, since pop-psych has elevated feelings from information to irresistible force) carried away, vulnerable, unawares, victimized. Victimization status is the modern promised land of absolution from personal responsibility anymore. Everyone is the product of causation. There are no longer individuals, just victims in groups.3. I can’t change. This to me suggests that a person is immature. When someone is ready to change I think it shows a certain reality and maturity. And lets face it no matter how much a person does not want to change..... they will. That’s life. You live and learn. 4. You know the final excuse that really gets my hackles to full quivering attention? It’s when people protest that they are “only human.” ONLY human? As if one’s humanness were a blueprint for instinctive, reflexive reactions to situations, like the rest of the animal kingdom. I see being “human” as the unique opportunity to use our mind and will to act in ways that elevate us above the animal kingdom.Tags:lifeLocation:The DomicileMusic:push - by matchbox 20 It seems like maybe I’m a milestone or two behind everybody else. Almost everyone I know is gearing up for marriage or kids. I mean, I guess we are at that age and all…. It’s just surreal. Here I am, fresh at the beginning of my life it seems, and I’m suddenly holding my friends babies in my lap. Part of me feels a little like I did something wrong – like I epic failed because I’m not yet shackled with a handful of screaming, diaper-clad hairless monkeys (thank Katie for this analogy). I also just don't get it when women ask near strangers if they can hold their baby. Does it make me less of a woman that I have no interest in holding anyone's baby? Especially some random person with whom I've struck up a conversation?And there's a lot of stuff I don't get about women who become pregnant...one is 'here, touch my belly!' When does the body space border disappear? Another is talking about things like mucus plugs, bloody bowel movements and other such pleasantries....it's like certain elements regarding social mores are completely lost or something. These thoughts all came rushing into my mind while visiting with friends yesterday. Christina, her 2 children and I went over to Richie and Kelly's house to see the new baby (while I wanted to see the baby, I really wanted to go because I would like very much to be better friends with Kelly. I think she hates me because Richie and I get along very well and hang out often).Christina and Kelly started talking about the birth, and how she did it at home all natural (no drugs!) with a midwife, in a pool of water. I was being kind of quiet because I really don't know too much about the magical experience of childbirth so I had nothing to add to the conversation. Kelly looked at me and asked "What's the matter, you don't want kids?" I was a little thrown off by the question, but I answered "I think I would like children one day. There are just other things I would like to have in place before I ever start thinking about children." "How old are you?" Kelly asked. I told her I was 25. And she told me "I better get started!"What! Are you kidding me! I'm 25 I'm not fucking barren for Christ sake. But I just let it roll off with a smile and a nod, and excused myself into the kitchen where Richie was hiding from the girl talk. He apologized to me for not saving me from the living room, and told me "they are all just jealous of you." I asked him what exactly I had to be jealous of? He told me "they are all just bitter old bitches! They would trade places with you in a second. Young, pretty, single, with no kids. Of course they hate you, you are everything they thought they would be in their lives but aren’t." Am I a strange girl, a late bloomer, WTF.Tags:lifeLocation:The DomicileMood:curiousMusic:A Beautiful Lie - by 30 Seconds to Mars Maybe I'm Right.... Or I could be wrong.... Or maybe just my interpretation is wrong because of the lack of information....Crazy and unexpected things happen when you shove everyones' self-projections into one place. It's like a big bowl of Narcissistic Gumbo. Ew.Tags:fan club, happy like i used to be, life, wbtLocation:The DomicileMood:blankMusic:Playboy Mommy - by Tori Amos Top of Page | | 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