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| | We all know the feeling of being repeatedly haunted by the same issue, no matter how we try to ignore it, avoid it, or run away from it. Sometimes it seems that we can get rid of something we don’t want by simply pushing it away. Most of the time, the more we push away, the more we get pushed back. There are laws of physics and metaphysics that explain this phenomenon, which is often summed up in this pithy phrase: That which you resist persists. Resistance tends to strengthen the energies it attempts to oppose by giving them power and energy to work against. Additionally, resistance keeps us from learning more about what we resist. In order to fully understand something, we must open to it enough to receive its energy; otherwise, we remain ignorant of its lessons. There is a Tibetan story of a monk who retreats to meditate in a cave only to be plagued by demons. He tries everything—chasing, fighting, hiding—to get the demons out of his cave, but the thing that finally works is surrender. He simply lets them have their way with him and only then do they disappear. Now, this wisdom must be applied practically. We are not meant to get ourselves physically injured. Instead, this story speaks of how, in essence, our demons are inside of us. What plagues and pursues us on an inner level has a way of manifesting itself in our environment in the form of people, events, and issues that appear to be beyond our control. But all these external expressions are reflections of our insides, and it is inside ourselves that we can safely experiment with surrendering to what we fear and dislike. It may feel scary, and we may find ourselves in the company of a lot of resistance as we begin the process of opening to what we fear. But the more we learn to surrender, and the more the demons that plague us disappear in the process, the more courageous we will become. I know what I may be letting myself in for. But maybe a broken Heart seemed a simple price to pay, the way all costs that must be settled in the future appear, until they suddenly come due.Tags:all things considered, cause i'm a bad person, friends, love, t.h.d, well now ya know, you might be a contenderLocation:fallingMood:quixotic
Music:I Want You So Hard (The Boys No Good) - by Eagles of Death Metal Looking back at me I seeThat I never really got it rightI never stopped to think of youI'm always wrapped up inThings I cannnot winYou are the antidote that gets me bySomething strongLike a drug that gets me highWhat I really meant to sayIs I'm sorry for the way I amI never meant to be so cold to youAnd I'm sorry about all the liesMaybe in a different lightYou could see me stand on my own againCause now i can seeYou were the antidote that got me bySomething strong like a drug that got me highI never meant to be so coldI never really wanted you to seeThe screwed up side of me that I keepLocked inside of me so deepIt always seems to get to meI never really wanted you to goSo many things you should have knownI guess for me theres just no hopeI never meant to be so coldTags:all things considered, cause i'm a bad person, crew 38, friends, keith, ragdoll, robeee, steve, t.h.d, wbt, what i meant to say, work, wrapped up in thingsLocation:bike weekMood:calm
Music:Broken Like an Angel - by Dollybraid Colorful arsenal I often wonder who you areand what you’re doing hereand why you want to knowanything about meI often wonder who I amand how I've changedbut I never missthe person I wasuntil I see the peoplethat used to make me if I could spell out the world in metaphorsand candy coated sentencesthis might be a little easierbut I’m bound by my mindand this place is not conducive to wordsyou made me a mix tape and took me to the laser showwe crack some jokes and you tried to put your arm around mebut I spun awayspun in circles like a hurricanethat will blow right threw you and you'll never controland you adored me, and I adored youbut then again, I always doI always come throughand I'm always strongerand always better at the endI always learn moreand I'm always becoming a better personno matter what path I choose, I will be better for itif I fail, I will still rise above everything and everyoneexceeding all expectations while shifting threw molds, mirrors, and masks because I’m a phoneixand I’ve burned a thousand timesevery time rising from the ash bettermore put together and a more beautiful personI’ll apologize to no oneI will not be anything to anyoneI will not give anything to anyoneexcept everything that I already amand everything that I have to giveTags:chs, circles, crew 38, fan club, friends, life, love, ragdoll, robeee, something better left alone, t.h.d, truths, wisdom, work, you might be a contenderLocation:needing sleep!Mood:mischievous
Music:along for the ride - by rainy dayassembly you may scratch the surfaceand think that you know who I amand what I believe and stand for_but you’re walking blindly_because I've left you in the darkand I've made no plansto make this scene brighterto let you in even a little bitso please my sunshinesend your light to anotherstop exhausting your brillianceyou are so lovelyand you could do so well_in someone else’s heart_these words are not to be taken in angerbut in love my sunshinefor my willingness to hurt you fadesbut my ability growsalthough I search for a balanceso as to keep you wholeyou refuse to stop walking in the darkeven your luminance is not enoughto lighten these lurid wallsTags:all things considered, cause i'm a bad person, happy like i used to be, love, ragdoll, robeee, t.h.d, the gap is from you, the nothing, voyuerism, we, you might be a contenderMood:Please Stay
Music:Father Figure - by George Michael 
Music:Underneath It All - by No Doubt Tags:all things considered, analogy, back to me, because that's how i roll, biker, cause i'm a bad person, circles, friends, happy like i used to be, i'm just saying, ibar, life, love, moving on, poptart, robeee, so they say, something better left alone, t.h.d, the gap is from you, the nothing, travel, truths, updates, voyuerism, well now ya know, wisdom, you might be a contenderLocation:The DomicileMood:hopeful
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