South Beach Diet 100 Club (original) (raw)
Wed, May. 6th, 2009, 05:48 pm
Wow, this post is hard to write.
I've been out of control for so long and it's hard to get back on track.
I've been fat all my life. Not as fat as I always remember myself, mind you, but there was never a time when my weight was easy on me. I dieted from eight to eighteen and then threw up my hands and gave up. Slowly over the next fifteen years I climbed up to 360. Cohabitational bliss in the last five of those got the best of my mister too, and together we started the SBD back in '05. We did amazing... better than either of us ever would have guessed. I dropped 65 pounds, he dropped 80. I thought we were going to make it... but like it always does, life happened and we didn't stay vigilant.
In 2006, we went abroad for work, living in a developing country was hard work in and of itself, four months of hotels, constantly sick and seeking comfort food. By the time we got home we both just wanted to close our eyes and go on automatic, find a happy rut and roll around in it... and we did. Then he had trouble finding work, and I got promoted, he got a bit depressive, I got very intensely busy, we lost track of the weight all together.
It's been escalating and escalating and now I don't know where I am. I can't find a scale that will weigh enough to weigh me. I suspect I've surpassed the 400 mark, maybe even pushing 450 now. My perception of my size has always been a little skewed. I remember myself fatter as a child than I was. For years, even through the diet, I thought of myself as thinner than I was by about 50 pounds. Cameras and mirrors would catch me off guard if I caught a look at myself unaware. At some point in recent months that's been broken. Now I'm never surprised to catch a look at me. I feel all the space I'm taking, inside and out.
I don't feel good. I'm huffy and puffy wherever I go. My flexibility is shot. I fall down more often, and when I fall, I get more lastingly hurt. I have trouble getting dressed, doing housework, I have developed a bit of agoraphobic social anxiety. I prefer not to leave the house. I used to be a world traveller. Now I get anxious taking the bus. We just took a trip, and I had to purchase extra seats on the plane. At least one night while I was away I seriously worried that I might be having a heart attack.
It's the end of the line for me. This has got to be my rock bottom. I've got to climb my way back out of here now or I'm never getting out of the body I'm trapped inside.
So we started today, my mister and me. We stayed up late dreaming of the things we want to do that we can't do now, making promises in the dark to each other about what we aim to do. There are lilies on my desk this morning from him to start my journey. I don't really have an end weight in mind yet, but it's well over 100 pounds from now. I just want to get healthy again, to not mbe made vulnerable by my weight, to not victimize myself any further, to realize the life that I want for me, for him, and for the little girl we hope to soon adopt.
Hi everybody.
Mon, May. 7th, 2007, 04:34 pm
irisdragonfly: YUM! HAD TO SHARE!
i am not going to deny it anymore- I AM OBSESSED WITH THE MOCHA RICOTTA CREME.
and i am serious. i have one for dessert at least 3 times a week (only i dont add the chocolate chips).
I havent tried any of the other "flavors" but i'm sure that i'd love the almond one too.
i just dont even have the desire to try any of the other flavors yet.
to me, the cocoa ricotta is BETTER than eating iced cream- and knocks out any craving i have for chocolate.... not to mention it's like eating the guts of a canoli...
if any of you havent tried the MOCHA RICOTTA CREME- you really should. It's THE BEST.
(and i dont even like ricotta cheese)
( MOCHA RICOTTA CREMECollapse )
i hope you enjoy as much as i do!
Tue, Feb. 6th, 2007, 09:39 am
flyingwoman: Breakfast "Dumpling Waffles"
This is an odd recipe I invented out of desperation for a morning alternative. My husband makes the best south beach pancakes ever made (I actually prefer them to flour pancakes now, shock!), and they're based on the same principle ingredients, but since I destroy them and wanted something quick...
All measurements are approximate. I usually throw them in a bowl.
1/2 cup NF cottage cheese
1/2 cup egg white
1/4 cup skim milk
1 hefty scoop soy or whey protein powder
2 tbsp Splenda
cinnamon
vanilla extract
SF maple syrup
I literally throw the ingredients into a bowl, use a handblender on them till they're smooth and of a batter like consistency. Then I Pam a microwave omelette dish and nuke it for four minutes. I check the top to make sure it's firm-ish, then turn it over onto a plate and nuke it for another minute. A touch of Becel spray and some maple syrup and it's ready to eat.
It doesn't have the griddle taste of the pancakes, but they're hot, sweet, kinda dumpling-y in consistency, are quick and easy and keep my belly full and satisfied a long time. The batter would probably rock the world in a waffle iron, and would be great with blueberries.
xposted.
Mon, Jan. 22nd, 2007, 10:49 pm
So I fell off the SBD for almost six months last year. There were very good and very unavoidable reasons for not being able to stay the course, but I strayed farther than I should have even so, and gained back about half of my weight. I'm still more than 30 pounds down from where I started and back on track since we did the reboot after the holidays.
I'm finding it harder and harder to reboot, and finding Phase 1 feels much much longer than it used to be. I'm on, and not cheating, but I'm not doing the best I can do, and I know it. I'm not concentrating as hard on making sure I get veggies at breakfast, or making sure that I drink more than enough water, I'm not keeping a close enough eye on the fats.
The problem I'm having is that I've had a big fall, and so have lost the momentum, and the kind of core belief that this is going to work as well as I want and need it to. I've never been able to imagine what I would look like under 200 pounds, but at least with the momentum of the first year and the loss of 60 pounds I felt like even if I couldn't see it, I could believe that it was out there. Getting that kind of faith is hard for me, and I'm not sure what I can do about it.
I was reading the other day about dialectical behavioral therapy, about mindfulness techniques that they use to treat OCD folks and people with borderline personality disorders. I don't have any of those, but in reading about them, it seems to me that the process of mindfulness, which is also a Buddhist meditation focus might help to improve a lot of the inner dialogue that goes on inside.... whether it be to convince myself that I can do this again, or to make my active mind stop being so cruel and negative in the formation and reinforcement my self image.
So I might write about it from time to time, as I experiment with it.
Do any of you employ any kind of meditation, or psychological processing as part of your weight loss efforts? Do any of you see a therapist for aid?
Sat, Jan. 13th, 2007, 09:23 pm
I'm feeling too lazy to every label on the shelf. Anyone know a decent brand of tomato sauce without sugar or corn syrup that I can *start* reading with?
Sun, Jan. 7th, 2007, 07:45 pm
sandramort: (no subject)
HI! I'm really happy to be here!
Hello, and welcome to SB Newbies and Moderators. My name is Sandra, I'm mom to 3, have back injuries and need to lose a whole lot of weight :) This year, I decided to do things differently. Normally, I diet and hope that the exercise will fall into place later on. But years of yoyoing have shown me that this really isn't what I need. This time, I chose to reverse the process. January 2, 2007, I signed up at http://www.therockhealthandfitness.com and committed to regular exercise. I also promised some friends that I would start SB two weeks later, on 1/15, after spending two weeks reading, collecting recipes, and preparing myself mentally. I plan to use the last two weeks of January working on that and getting ready for phase 2, which I'll start at the beginning of February, most likely, though it's possible I might end up on phase 1 for a bit longer, depending on what else is going on.
Three months ago, I was somewhere between 255 and 260 and started walking more. Currently, I weigh 240 (yay! down another 5 lbs since joining the gym), am hoping to drop down to 235 by the time 1/15 rolls around, and be at 225-230 by 2/1 when I begin phase 2. My final goal weight is sort of unclear, but I'm guessing that it'll be around 125-150. I look forward to participating in your group!
Tue, Dec. 5th, 2006, 09:38 am
kelkelcali: South Beach Diet Hummus
Does anyone have the recipe for the Hummus that is out of the South Beach Diet - Holidays and Entertaining cookbook? I have the book and recipe at home - but I really don't want to go home before going to the grocery store!
Someone, please help!!
Thanks in advance!
x-posted
Fri, Jun. 9th, 2006, 09:28 pm
Just wanted to say hi. I just started the sbd recently. I have lost 4 lbs so far. It has been a long time since I lost anything.
I am diabetic. In March my doc put me on rosyglitazone to lower blood sugar. I have gained 30 lbs since then. I just stopped taking it and she put me on glucophage instead which is supposed to help lose weight and lower blood sugar. I sure hope so.
Is this community very active?
SW 358
CW 354 -4
GW 130
lbs to go 224
Tue, May. 23rd, 2006, 04:43 pm
flyingwoman: Getting serious again.
So, after surpassing 60 pounds just after Xmas, I changed medications and then hit another stall. Then it looked like I was starting to start to lose again, but vacation hit, and both Mister and I went off the diet. We ended up off for a couple of weeks of badness in which I gained back a handful of pounds, most of which I am pretty sure is water weight. We started back on Phase 1(I didn't even have cravings!) but half way through we ended up skidding out on a trip we were taking due to lack of options. Very frustrating.
So here we are back on P1 for another week.
Just realized that as of two weeks ago I've been on SBD for a year.
We were so good for so long, but since my stall in the fall and Christmas and my stall again after? My dedication has been lacking. We're getting pumped again, and getting back on track.
How is everyone else doing?