Belle's Thoughts (original) (raw)

I guess I'm just unlucky in life. Today started off hard, I had to help my mother with a luncheon she was hosting. Well cleaning and helping her was tough, but I was used to it and when she thanked me I felt extra good. I guess whatever unfair scale I'm on just couldn't take my good mood.

First the job I was hoping I would get changed from a full time to a .4...as in less than half the hours I previously thought. So there is no way I can move to take such a job.

Second, the guy I've been talking to online has changed his facebook status from single to in a relationship...not with me obviously. I should have known. I knew it was too good to be true, good looking guys never like me as much as I like them. I could have any creepy guy in the local bars I wanted, but one semi-intelligent, rather attractive man, they look at me for a moment and then walk right past. I know we weren't serious, but I was stupid enough to think that I actually might stand a chance. I am such a fool.

Days like today make me think I should just pay off my debts and join a convent. Everytime I start to feel something for a guy I find out that I like him far more than he likes me. I guess I deserve this for breaking it off with last year's almost boyfriend.

I keep feeling like the only way I'll ever be in a relationship is if I lower my standards to someone I can stand to be around. Guess I'm going to be a lonely, old spinster.