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| Friday, January 10th, 2003 | |
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| 5:28 pm | Yes, I'm still alive I've been back from Tahoe for a couple of days...Haven't really felt like writing. I set out some seeds yesterday and today we fixed the toilet. The rest of the time I sleep. Next week is my last week of vacation. I need to order my school books and buy supplies. Am sort of dreading the coming semester bc it will be my heaviest. (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Monday, January 6th, 2003 | |
| 8:59 am | Last night I dreamed I had cut my hair and my new black hat, which has been missing since before our trip, had been sitting on the roof of my car the whole time and was flattened from the rain.I am not going to Portland after all. My car's engine light is on, I won't be able to get it fixed in time, and I don't want to make such a long drive until I do. Green Tortoise doesn't go to Portland in the winter anymore (they used to shuttle between here and Seattle once a week), plane tickets cost too much, and I don't want to ride Greyhound because it is too uncomfortable and the last two times I rode there were all these guys talking about how they'd just gotten out of prison.But I AM going to Tahoe tomorrow! My friend Lisa has a spare equiptment rental and I am going to try snowboarding. Mostly I will probably be falling down on my ass, but I don't care. Today I am going to visit the Irish Consulate in San Francisco to apply for dual citizenship. I need two passport sized photos which I will edit on my computer and get printed at Kmart and then I will be set.Yesterday I managed to clear more weeds from the second terrace. Onionlily seedlings are EVERYWHERE. They are so evil, even worse than oxalis (we have that too). I had to practically sift the soil to get them out. I have to redo at least two of the beds I thought I was finished with because of them. This year I will not willnot willnot let them go to seed. (4 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, January 5th, 2003 | |
| 11:53 am | no waffle Well I did not get a waffle. I had a cup of tea, a bananna, and now I am eating Cinnamon Toast Crunch out of the box.The sun came out and it's gorgeous but I don't feel very motivated. I can hear Berg crunching on something in the other room. My shoulder hurts because it never healed from last semester and yesterday I was using it to pick up Erin. Current Mood:  listless (2 Comments |Comment on this) |
| 9:23 am | Morning It's morning. It's foggy. I want a waffle.My 12yo cousin was visiting for the past few days and yesterday we drove him home to Santa Cruz. After we dropped him off we went thrift shopping. I'm kicking myself right now because I completely forgot to pick up a coffee funnel while I was there. I've been needing one for the longest time and the best place to find them is in a thrift store, where they're usually about twenty five cents. Still, I made out like a bandit: a powder-blue 100% cotton twinset from the Gap was only $1.71 and I scored nine GOOD paperbacks (like _The Red Tent_) for a quarter apiece. The holidays are definitely primo thrift store season. Current Mood:  hungry (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, January 1st, 2003 | |
| 6:51 pm | All babies, all the time I went to bed at 9:30 last night. I think I'm getting old :)We've just come back from a new years day party at our friends Rich and Elisabeth's house. They have a ten month old and almost everyone else who attended had a child (or two) under the age of three. I watched the babies crawl around on each other and ate too much. It was nice.I told myself I was going to outline my hopes and resolutions for the coming year but now I'm just in the mood to veg.If you have books to swap, lemme know. (Comment on this) |
| Tuesday, December 31st, 2002 | |
| 6:08 pm | Year in Review (inspired by  reive)Wow, a lot has happened this year.I don't remember what I was doing in spring of 2002, other than attending school. I only had three classes (one of which I dropped) and I must've had more time than I did last semester. But nothing comes to mind, except our roommate moving out and me getting my room back. I spent the summer smoking, drinking, and being lazy ...and gained a ton of weight. My garden continued to progress. Berg relandscaped the front yard, and we tranformed the lawn in the back yard to a meandering path and flowerbeds.Berg had a great job for most of the year: good pay, telecommuting, good company. Mid-year he wanted to buy another house. I disagreed and fought but finally (in July) changed my mind and agreed - so long as we were done moving by the time school started. We found a place, managed the money ...and midway through escrow got dumped by the seller's realtor who'd found someone willing to pay more. We threatened to sue and she gave us $2k to go away.My wife told me she was transexual.I finished a year of study at Merrit, and applied to Mills ...at the last minute of course. I was admitted and funded although the chips were still falling into place when I started classes. I felt rich. I'd alway felt poor next to Berg (I'd nothing but unemployment since spring 2001 and I've paid rent, tuition, etc. the whole time) but most of the other students were even more strapped than I was and (thanks to the fact that since Berg is not legally my spouse, his earnings do not affect my qualifications for aid) unlike many of my classmates, I never worried about rent or groceries. Then Berg lost his job. I wasn't rich anymore, but we were prepared and it was okay.My relationships at school thrived. I've never "gotten along" so well. Although (with the exception of Lisa) I didn't form any "after-school" friendships, I was on good terms with my classmates. Never before had my standing in a group (other than friends) been so agreeable.I doubt there was a single person in my classes who didn't genuinely like me. The curriculum, while smothering at times, was managable and towards the end of the semester, I learned the tricks that make scoring well managable instead of excruciating (hint, stop working in isolation). Unfortunately, I spent so much time meeting outside expectations that my mindset changed from "acquiring useful information" to "survival".Berg wants to eat. More later. (Comment on this) |
| Saturday, December 28th, 2002 | |
| 12:06 pm | The Eating Continues... Next time I come here, I will head straight for 617 Ursiline Street. Fresh, authentic butter croissants for 90 cents, tasty coffee, and enough french desserts to...well I don't know what, but something. My only regret is not finding the place sooner. The other Fodor's favorite (Acme Oyster House) was a disappointment. It had a warm, friendly feeling but the only "good deal" on the menu was a half dozen oysters on the half shell for $4, and I've had better. They were fresh, but not fresh enough and with oysters, minutes matter. I walked in, scanned the place, found a seat at the bar, slurped down my oysters and left to find something more substantial. On my way out, I realized that what I had mistaken for yet another tour group was actually a block-long line of people waiting to get in. Oopsie.I also had turtle soup last night at Remoulade. It was *fantastic*. Go there. My gastronomical tour of New Orleans is almost complete. So far I've had fried shrimp Po' Boys, beignets, chicory coffee with milk, turtle soup, several kinds of gumbo, bbq ribs, crawfish (fried, gumbo, and etouffe'), a type of meat pie whose name I forget, french pastries, oysters, lots of rice, and a praline. The only thing I haven't gotten around to is a muffaletta (tomorrow), grits, and catfish. We have catfish at home and grits don't appeal to me. I plan to make gumbo at home as Berg has expressed a fondness and okra is usually a cheap vegetable.By now I'm ready to come home. The novelty of watching 127 channels of TV in a hotel room has worn off and in the Bay Area we have better (or at least more varieties of better) food, particularly produce. Also, I miss my garden. And I want to be able to make my own food again. BTW, I got a really cute hat! I will post pix when I get home. (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Thursday, December 26th, 2002 | |
| 11:25 am | New Orleans Update Nope, we don't have a web connection at our hotel. I am writing from a terminal in the New Orleans Public Library. I think the last time I was offline for this long was at a ten day silent meditation retreat in spring of 2001. ( moreCollapse ) (10 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Friday, December 20th, 2002 | |
| 1:05 pm | My ex called this morning and since I haven't seen her or returned her calls for ages, I took her out for coffee. She looked good, meaning she was clean, healthy, and seemed to be in pretty good spirits. She still has her apartment, but she says she's lonely. I suggested maybe she could get a caregiver, after all it is a one-bedroom. Since she's on disability, it's possible the gov would pay for someone to look after her. She gave me her address and I promised to send her some seeds for her garden.The weather is weird. Just twenty minutes ago it was pouring and now the sun is out.I was supposed to see my friend Bales today, but she has food poisoning or something. I should be packing for New Orleans, but (despite the pint of coffee I've consumed) I just feel like going back to bed. Current Mood:  lazy (1 Comment |Comment on this) |
| Thursday, December 19th, 2002 | |
| 10:20 am | Today it is raining again. I got one section of the middle terrace weeded, amended, and sown on Tuesday. I might have done it yesterday (there was sun), but I think visiting Grandma made me happier. I intended to visit my Aunt Dee today, but I had forgotten that I had already promised Rich and Elisabeth that I'd babysit Gigi tonight at six. Since Dee lives in San Jose, it's too far to get over there and back in time (actually the distance is okay, it's the traffic). So I'm going to spend today fussing around the house, smoking, and doing stuff that so far I've been too busy with school to attend to. Current Mood:  content (Comment on this) |
| 10:12 am | Yesterday... I visited my Grandma, poor dear who has two bum knees and a broken arm. My Grandpa Ed (her second husband) is taking care of her, but he has inoperable liver cancer himself so it's sort of a case of the blind leading the blind. They need some younger relatives to do the spring cleaning - their house is tidy, but nobody has the physical ability to do a deep down cleaning and once you dig around a little, it shows. Unfortunately, they don't like to accept help, they're still in polite host mode and want to do everything for you. I managed to do what I did yesterday by not asking their permission.What I did was buy a bunch of groceries and make them a big pot of my special butternut squash soup and a huge pile of cleaned crabmeat. My grandma was really happy about the crab. She has an absolute passion for it and my gp doesn't want to buy it because of their medical bills. My mom and aunts have been calling me and telling me what a good granddaughter I am. Current Mood:  accomplished (Comment on this) |
| Tuesday, December 17th, 2002 | |
| 10:54 am | Check out my book swap list! http://www.craigslist.org/sfo/eby/bar/7424937.htmlLemme know if I have anything you want :) (Comment on this) |
| Monday, December 16th, 2002 | |
| 8:24 pm | this is the more later I didn't mention earlier My mom just left. I had a wonderful party yesterday. I should be posting more about the party, I saw many of my dear friends and enjoyed their company very much. I was very happy about what intelligent, interesting, dynamic people I have friendships with and how well they get along with one another. Bales brought me a christmas care package filled with delicious cookies, candy, and fancy soap things. Other friends brought food: my classmate Leslie brought her boyfriend (who I didn't even know she had) and a homemade poppyseed pastry. Chasing Amy brought her boyfriend, homemade liver pate and banana bread ...still hot and sitting in it's baking pan, which I washed for them before they left. My best City friend Sun came and is still a firecracker: black bra, sheer top, and skintight BeBe leather pants with lace up sides that revealed she wore no other garmet from waist to ankle. Lisa talked with everyone and later me and Sun subjected her to an impromptu makeover. It was a fun party.So my mom just left and I don't like to talk about my homosexuality and my family because it's just so so depressing. I did anyway of course, but it was more like vomiting than writing and I'm not putting it up until I've edited it into something presentable. (Comment on this) |
| 9:20 am | What a great party Our open house was a smashing success. I have about five different "scenes" that either Berg or I am a part of and we had three or four people from each group there. Great synergy and cross-pollination...All in all, I think we had maybe 20-30 people, but since people came at different times, it never got too crowded at any one point. Much delicious food was consumed, and continues to be consumed ...there is no need to cook breakfast this morning :) (6 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Sunday, December 15th, 2002 | |
| 10:24 am | Today is the day of our party and as usual I am excited and Berg is freaking out. I will probably leave the house in a few minutes, ostensibly to buy supplies but in reality to get away from him. If anyone has any sedatives, please bring them. Next time I'm slipping him a mickey finn at breakfast :-) Current Mood:  bouncy (3 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Saturday, December 14th, 2002 | |
| 6:19 pm | Do something or shut up, okay? Berg loves politics. Berg loves to read rants. I find both very upsetting. I'm hanging out here in front of the cathode tube waiting for honey to finish vacuuming so we can watch a movie. And we share the computer so (as often happens) some rant pages are up and I read them and their friends' rants and so on. Page after page of how fucked up everything is. Same thing in the book I've been reading today. Frankly, I'm really tired of it.Nobody seems to have any idea of how they are going to make a positive difference. I hear lots and lots about the bad stuff that "they" are doing and shouldn't or the stuff "they" really should be doing but aren't. The world has gone to shit and it's somebody else's fault. Victim mentality. I got disillusioned about feminism the same way: I don't want to hear about how terrible my situation is because I already know. What I want is an effective way of dealing with it ...and hope. (Comment on this) |
| 5:52 pm | Spent most of the day lying around the house reading. It poured all day. (Comment on this) |
| Friday, December 13th, 2002 | |
| 11:47 am | the morning after On my first day of freedom, I stayed in bed reading until 10:30, then got up and had orange cake with tea and wrote in my journal feeling vaguely maudlin.It's pouring here. I'm planning to go to the Berkeley bowl but so far I'm still in my slippers. I'll pull myself together in a minute so I can come home and spend the day cooking, smoking, and getting ready for the weekend.I got my financial aid letter for next semester. I'm getting a little less than I'm getting this semester, but I should still be okay. Maybe I will take some cash jobs off of craigslist over the holiday, more for the company and to have something to do than for the money, although I certainly intend to spend the money ;) (Comment on this) |
| Thursday, December 12th, 2002 | |
| 1:00 pm | It's over! I can officially start partying now :) (7 Comments |Comment on this) |
| Wednesday, December 11th, 2002 | |
| 2:25 pm | Two down, one to go... So my friend Lisa saw my posting last night and suggested that calling the professor would probably be more helpful than whining online about it. I found her good sense impossible to dispute. The teacher was still awake and very helpful. I saw her again today, finished the rest of my final in about 20 minutes flat and am now waiting in the computer lounge for Lisa to get out of HER meeting with the teacher so we can compare notes.Today is a good day. It stopped raining and the sun is out. I made lemon bread for breakfast and it was delish! On friday eve, my aunt Mary is coming for dinner, Saturday I have parties, and Sunday is our open house! And I love the human race again. I have a barter ad on craigslist, and I went with annarama yesterday to the Creative Reuse Depot and she wrote about me in her journal. Berg's T is beginning to work and we've been kissing a lot :) (Comment on this) |
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